when we are no longer young

"The patient did not have any violent trauma, and the broken nails and broken skin on the elbow may have been self-inflicted.

However, the patient may have some psychological problems, you need to go to the psychiatrist to see. "

The doctor left with the case in a formulaic manner, and there were only Park Chanyeol and Bian Boxian in the huge ward.

Bian Baekhyun had just finished calming down and fell into a deep sleep.But in his sleep, he still clenched his hands into fists, clutching his sleeves tightly, his brows knit into a knot.

Park Chanyeol stretched out his hand distressedly, trying to smooth Baekhyun's brow.

He knew that this person was hiding many things from him.

He didn't tell, and he didn't ask.

He thought that one day, he would become the person Bian Boxian trusted most, and at that time, Bian Boxian would take the initiative to talk to him.

Bian Boxian's distrust is not Bian Boxian's fault, but that he is not good enough, his strength is still too small to protect Bian Boxian.

Bian Baekhyun, wait for me, when I have full wings, when I have enough confidence to say "I am here", then I will not let you suffer any more harm.

The killing, the blood, the sound from the loudspeaker, the screaming of the fallen child...

The pungent rust smell stimulated Bian Baekhyun's nerves, and he seemed to have returned to the sealed abandoned factory 15 years ago, and to the No. 39 with blood on his hands.

"don't want--!"

With a cry, Bian Baekhyun woke up from the dream, opened his eyes, the snow-white ceiling and the air smelled faintly of alcohol, Bian Baekhyun was sure that this was a hospital—he had almost become a regular visitor here .

Park Chanyeol fell asleep lying on his bedside, his hand was still tightly grasping his hand, Byun Baekhyun wanted to move, he struggled a few times, but he gave up before breaking free, and let Park Chanyeol hold it.

The nightmare he hadn't had for more than ten years reappeared in his mind.It may be because of the stimulation of the secret room again, or it may be because he has never forgotten it.It's just that at the right time, this memory that he had been hiding all this time was exposed, which made him flustered and at a loss.

Will Park Chanyeol accept him, and his past?The murderer Bian Baekhyun, the person who eats human flesh and drinks human blood, Bian Baekhyun, the devil, the only winner in that underground secret room——No. 39.

No, Baekhyun decided to hide it, there is no need to drag Park Chanyeol into the whirlpool.He alone is enough to suffer.

Look, how ridiculous human emotions are, one person always wants to protect another person, but he doesn't know that he is being carefully protected.Back then, Park Chanyeol would rather suffer himself than pull Baekhyun into this love that goes against the world.Today's Baekhyun would rather bear it alone, than Park Chanyeol to share this nightmare with him.

They are all hedgehogs, two hedgehogs with wounds, each step closer will sting each other.So, they chose to pull out the thorns on their bodies in exchange for the peace of that person, even though they became more painful.

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Wu Shixun came back, with a certain satisfaction and determination.

After all, StarMuseum is not a gangster company, and Wu Shixun can't do anything physically, but no accident, he was hidden.

If Bian Boxian, who is emotionally unstable, and Zhang Yixing, who is in charge of the Chinese market, are removed, EXO will become a 6-member group activity.

Now there is no need to feel that the stage is too small - because it is already full.

until a year later.

Many things happened in this year. For example, EXO fans got the news that Baekhyun and Sehun Wu were hidden from nowhere, ran to the gate of StarMuseum to make a fuss, and finally even made a fuss on the Cheong Wa Dae, which became a big laughing stock.But this is also the first time a fan has such great power, which is staggering.

Naturally, how can ordinary fans have such great skills, there must be someone behind them who is leading and controlling the situation.Even if Jin Junmian is not the mastermind, he must be involved.

For another example, Baekhyun's mental state has gradually deteriorated since the outbreak of the locked room phobia.Now he is already relying on drugs to maintain sleep.Secretly hiding it from Park Chanyeol, he kept his eyes open until dawn.Park Chanyeol actually knows everything, but Baekhyun doesn't want to talk about it, so he pretends not to know.

The two people are back to back, but they are both in their hearts, protecting each other in the softest position.

Bian Boxian knew that his illness could not be delayed any longer.He also wants to accompany Park Chanyeol until he grows old, instead of asking Park Chanyeol to visit him in a mental hospital regularly.

In the deepest part of the drawer, a business card that has not been touched for many years is covered with dust.

Baekhyun took it out and wiped it carefully with a wet tissue.The business cards are of good quality, are waterproof, and haven't blurred over the years.

The three large characters of 'Li Yinyi' with dark metal borders are clearly printed on the business card.This person is still as narcissistic as ever - his name occupies two-thirds of the entire business card, for fear that other people's short-sighted eyes will not be able to see clearly.

His name is also very narcissistic.Li Yinyi, Yin Yi, he often said that he was an angel with hidden wings, who came to the world to help mortals.It's a pity that doctors can't heal themselves - this famous psychologist has cured countless patients, but he has not cured his own narcissism.

That's right, this 'angel' is a psychiatrist, no, he actually prefers to be called a psychologist rather than a doctor, because he thinks that a doctor is a profession, and a psychologist is a supreme research, never top .

This 'angel' classmate was the only one who insisted that Bian Boxian did not selectively forget and still needed psychological counseling.

But classmate 'Angel' was only a small assistant at that time, and he spoke lightly, no one believed his words.At that time, several "experts" believed that Baekhyun was fine, so he was released instead of staying in a mental hospital.

When Baekhyun was let go, classmate 'Angel' gave him a business card and gave him a secretive smile, "Keep it away, you will always need it. Come to me when the day comes. "

That business card is this one. Fifteen years have passed, and the little assistant at the time is already an internationally renowned psychologist with countless disciples, and he is no longer a "little talker".

This business card that has been ignored for 15 years, Bian Boxian thought, it is time to use it.

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Mr. Angel's studio is very empty, with a touch of sandalwood.

Holding this business card, he was led all the way here by the secretary without any hindrance.

"So this is a passport—" Bian Boxian thought in his heart.

Li Yinyi's appearance hasn't changed much from 15 years ago, except that the thin gold frame of the eyes has changed to a retro light gray frame, and in order to match his age, he has grown a light beard.

He sat there, looking at Bian Boxian, as if he could see the deep pool in his heart through his body.

"Little friend, I have been waiting for you for 15 years, and you are finally here."

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Of course, it was only for a moment to pretend to be deep, and this Mr. "Angel" quickly changed back to his sloppy chattering, making people wonder if the great contemporary psychology professor in front of him is not a fake.

"Ken came to see me, why?"

In the past, Baekhyun was not without pain, especially in the first few years, sometimes his symptoms were worse than now, but he never found himself.In other words, Bian Boxian at that time was a bit self-destructive. He was the second child at home, with an older brother to support him, his parents were also taken care of, and he had no family.

Part of the reason why he became an artist was because of this. Anyway, it is good to be an artist for fun. It doesn't matter if he succeeds or not?

It can be said that he is playing life.For him, life is like a plate of LOL, but he didn't resurrect on the spot.He attacks or defends according to his mood, and it doesn't matter if he accidentally dies. It's no big deal if he dies.Dead or alive, it made little difference to him.

But now, Bian Boxian has come and said that he needs his help, which can only show one thing - he has a concern and a reason to live.

Bian Boxian looked into Li Yinyi's eyes and blinked helplessly, "Brother, you have figured it out, why are you asking me?" '

"So what do you want to focus on? Insomnia or PTSD or claustrophobia or dark phobia?"

Bian Baekhyun blinked at him, guess, guess again.

"Damn," the great Ph.D. said a foul word, "I'm studying psychology, not setting up a fortune-telling stall. I don't know what you think!"

"I want to live like a normal person," Bian Baekhyun said.

"You are already the same as a normal person. Now, no one around you has noticed your abnormality, right? And you are still an idol representing positive energy."

"No, that's not me. I want to be truly happy, not when the world is suddenly quiet, and when I wake up in the middle of the night, I find myself turned back to loneliness."

When it came to the professional field, Li Yinyi finally put away his cynicism, and both of them turned serious.

In fact, whose face does not have a mask?

It's just that most people are willing to take off the mask in a relaxed environment with trusted people; while a small number of people, like Baekhyun, have mixed the mask with the real face, because they can't take it off. Chances of a mask, there is no one who can be completely trusted.

Wearing a mask all day long will tire anyone out.

When a person has become a frightened bird, even when he is alone, he dare not take off the mask, for fear that his vulnerable side will be discovered and used for harm.

Li Yinyi said, "Bian Boxian, if you can't take off your mask, you will never be able to get rid of it.

Follow your heart, I think you have found the one you can trust completely.

Try to trust him once, it's like a gamble, and the bet is your whole life. "

Baekhyun, only Park Chanyeol can save you.

The author has something to say:

What is said in the article is a bit jumpy and mysterious. If you don’t understand it, you can read the following passage:

Baekhyun has many psychological problems, claustrophobia, dark phobia, PTSD, etc...

But all of these knots stemmed from his tense nerves.

Find a haven where you can lean on something.You don't need to pretend, you don't need to endure, you can show him all your fragility, don't care about the image, or cry aloud, or laugh out loud.Really release your emotions. In this world, no matter what kind of desperation you go to, there will always be someone who will always believe in you, support you, and protect you.

This is the person that Li Yinyi asked Bian Boxian to find, and now, obviously he found it.

Yes, that's Park Chanyeol.

Popular explanation:

Have you all been in love, you are lying in the same bed, you feel like farting, do you hold back, or let him out on purpose, then cover him in while he is not paying attention, let him ask your fart smell, and then the two People are fighting and fighting.

Can you understand what this means? It's not that Baekhyun doesn't love Park Chanyeol, on the contrary, it's because he loves him so much that he doesn't dare to let him see his true self.I'm afraid he won't be able to accept it, and I'm afraid he will hate it.If at the last moment of his life, he was lying on the ground in a state of embarrassment, his body emitting a stench, then he would rather not see Park Chanyeol for the last time than let him see himself like this.

That's the truth.