Get angry

When the train slowly left the city, I knew that from now on, I would have to draw a line with this city. It was no longer a home, but a strange place.

That night on the train, Ye Qian told me not to hang up the phone. He wanted to listen to my voice and accompany me to sleep. The phone was placed next to the pillow and wearing earphones. I told me that I was much better and don't worry about me, and go to bed early, but Ye Qian said: "Wu You, since you promised me, you are mine now, and I will be by your side no matter what happens."

"Ye Qian..." I whispered his name and suddenly wanted to ask him a question, "If one day I change, you will still..."

"Whatever you become is you, and I love you!"

It was a sleepless night, Ye Qian couldn't make it through, but I accidentally fell asleep, I didn't move for fear that the sound from the earphones would wake him up, so I waited until dawn.When he just walked out of the station, a tall figure pounced on him, and when he came back to his senses, he could already smell a familiar smell, it was Ye Qian.

Ye Qian let go of me, held my face and said angrily, "Wu You, why did you make yourself like this?"

I don't know what my face looks like now, but it must be very haggard.He dragged me to a very large barber shop, saying that he would take me to have a look, but I didn't resist and let Ye Qian take me away.

When I got there, I was in charge of sitting quietly. Ye Qian was in charge of discussing my hairstyle with the barber, and then took me back to his house and asked me to wash up first. To be honest, I looked at myself in the mirror whose cheeks were all thin. , I don’t know each other, although this hairstyle has added a lot of color to me, but this pair of empty eyes is in sharp contrast with my look.

Ye Qian walked into the bathroom, I didn't hide from him and said, "Don't be afraid, I bought you some new clothes."

"I'm not afraid, thank you Ye Qian!" I looked at Ye Qian with a very gentle tone.

Ye Qian gently hugged me into his arms, "I beg you, no matter how sad you are, don't skip meals or sleep, okay?"

He looked at me as if there was a long thread connected to my heart, and my pain could be conveyed to him through this thread. At night, he ordered some light food and forced me to eat a little. .

I stayed at Ye Qian's house that day, and I didn't tell Ye Qian until after dinner, "I should go home."

Ye Qian agreed to send me off, but on the way back he said something to me in a deep voice: "Wu You, no matter what happens, don't answer my calls anymore, let me find you, okay?"

After getting off the car, Ye Qian sent me to the door of the corridor and watched me go in.

When I entered the door, my mother was waiting for me at the dining table, and our mother and son looked at each other with a smile, and she said, "Son, the new hairstyle is very nice, and I have lost weight recently."

"I'm back." I put down my schoolbag and looked at the scene with mixed feelings.

"Grandma's matter has been dealt with, right?" Mother said thoughtfully, "There is something I want to talk to you about."

This is the first time I have encountered such an awkward conversation with my mother in the four years since I came to my mother's side, as if she has done something that I owe me, "Mom is getting old, and you will go to college in a few years... .”

In fact, I have already eaten at Ye Qian's house, but looking at the food on this table, I decided not to worry my mother too much, so I picked up the bowls and chopsticks and prepared to eat something.

The mother continued: "Mom is a woman, and you will go to college and work in the future, so I want to consider remarriage recently."

"En..., yes." The hand holding the chopsticks still couldn't help shaking, why did things happen one after another recently.

"Mom knows it's not good to tell you these things at this time, but that uncle is more anxious recently. We may decide to get married during your summer vacation."

"I see." I really couldn't pretend to eat something, "Just make up your mind."

"Then I want to arrange for you to meet that uncle recently. He also has a child who is about your age. When do you have time for us..." My mother seemed to relax a lot when she heard me.

"Mom, I haven't come out with the matter of grandma's death, so I don't want to discuss these things now," I got up and walked back to my room.

The moment the door was closed, I heard soft sobbing, and my mother complained to herself in the living room: "Is it easy for me to be alone for so many years, why don't you understand me at all."

I was lying on the bed listening to my mother calm down slowly, and when I went back to the room, I suddenly felt that the air in the room became very cold. Because of going back, it is already summer vacation, and I am still cold in such a hot day. My mind is empty on the pillow, I just can't fall asleep, the phone is quietly lying beside my pillow like a piece of cold scrap iron.

Picking up my hand and skillfully inputting a series of numbers, just when I was about to put my fingers on the dial button, I deleted that number, I hugged the pillow and started crying, I bit my wrist hard to fear that I would The crying disturbed others, tears soaked the pillow, curled up into a ball and passed the long night.

I don't know if I fell asleep or lay on the bed all night. When I came out of the room, my mother had already gone to work, and there was breakfast and a note on the table: "I won't be coming back tonight."

Ye Qian called to pick me up in the morning, and I found a wristband in the cabinet to cover the arm I bitten last night.Ye Qian knocked lightly on the door of my house, and I opened it and said, "Mom isn't here, come in and sit down."

Not far from the door is the restaurant. Ye Qian put the breakfast that he brought me on the table, then picked up the note on the table and put it down again. I asked Ye Qian: "Is this what you meant by what you told me last night?" .”

"Yes, that uncle came to your house when you were away, and I happened to meet you when I was looking for you, and then I felt something was wrong." Ye Qian replied truthfully, "Your mother shouldn't tell you these things at this time matter."

I stared blankly at the empty room and said helplessly, "It's not her fault, it's all my fault."

"You're right! Wu You, don't overthink it. There are just too many things happening around you now, and you need to solve them bit by bit."

"Then tell me how to solve it now!" I jumped up suddenly, and my roar echoed throughout the room, "Li Dong broke my jade, grandma left, severed ties with my father and came back, my mother will remarry, you Tell me how to solve these things!"

Ye Qian looked at me, he was not angry, as if everything had been prepared long ago: "Wu You, I'm here!"

"With you here? What's the use of having you!" All uncontrolled words blurted out.

"Wu You?" Even though Ye Qian was prepared, he was still hurt by my words, "What did you say?"

"Yeah, you have money! You can even do whatever you want, get whatever you want!" I continued to be impulsive, "But I don't have anything, why do you still treat me like this!"

"Wu You!" Ye Qian rushed over and hugged me tightly, I struggled to break free from his arms, the harder I struggled, the tighter he hugged me, "I will help you get over it, I will !"

The ups and downs of emotions made me cry bitterly. When I broke free, Ye Qian took off my wristband. Seeing the bloody teeth marks, he laid my head on his chest: "Please, don't torture me again." own!"

What is an abyss is when you think you are just falling, but you find yourself falling, falling into a bottomless dark cave, and the falling speed is getting faster and faster, as if countless hands are pushing you to sink you deeper. That's how I feel right now.

Ye Qian comes to accompany me every day, but I live alone in this home that is about to become empty.

My stepfather has never seen me, and I have never met him. I only know that he has a daughter and a son who has just started elementary school. If my mother gets the certificate, I will move there. Before that, my mother said that he would ask his stepfather to let him go. I also moved in to live together, but until now my mother has not talked to me about this news.

I'm not stupid, I understand that no family is willing to accommodate me anymore.

In the second week of the summer vacation, my mother was going to take me to go through the transfer procedures, but I didn’t go with her. She told me in that coaxing tone that she had a friend’s child who was studying in a key high school in a county. It's a boarding school but the teaching level is very high. I can't say it. My mother was anxious and she threw her bag on me and said to me: "Wu You, can you stop being so selfish and think about it for me?"

I insisted that I could live here alone, but my mother said she was selling the house.

In the end, she cried hoarsely, and even knelt on the ground and begged me to transfer to another school, so I agreed.

The school is on holiday, there are no students in this school, I have no way to say goodbye to everyone, I can only leave this school in such a silent office, and then my mother went back to work.

I found that my life is always humility to others.

In the afternoon, according to yesterday's agreement, Ye Qian came to pick me up and go out to relax. He didn't know where he rented a car and the driver to accompany us for a day. In the car, Ye Qian showed me where we were going with a map, and said There are all kinds of barbecue tools in the trunk.

The car is driving on the road in the suburbs, and the summer sun shines especially brightly. Even the dense leaves and shading glass can penetrate in, making the leaves so handsome.

The driver dropped me off and left. Ye Qian said that he would come back to pick us up in 2 hours, then excitedly lit up charcoal, and another person set up a barbecue grill. I wanted to help him and he said with a smile: " No, no, this is the only housework I know how to do!"

Seeing him happily busy, holding a portable fan and blowing the dripping meat skewers grilled on charcoal, I didn't know how to tell him the news of my decision to renege on the contract.