cure

Today, May 5th, his father was not at home, and Ning Jinming brought another person back, this time it was a man.Is he Ning Jinming's friend?He asked me to call him brother Qiuxing, and he called me Jinyue, which is really off-putting.

On May 5th he sent me a new PSP, which I don't want and I don't play games.

On June 6, he saw me in a daze, thinking that I couldn't solve the geometry problems in the workbook, so he insisted on telling me how to solve the problems.He worked on it for a long time, and he figured it out, but it was wrong.

He's even more stupid than I thought.

June 6 Today is my birthday, and it is also the anniversary of the death of my mother, whom I have never met. My father and Ning Jinming went to visit my mother's grave, but they never let me go.

On June 6th, Qiu Xing came to Ning Jinming again. He heard that Ning Jinming had gone to visit his mother's grave and hadn't returned yet, so he left.

On June 6, Qiu Xing came again, and he was holding a birthday cake.I asked him how he knew that today was my birthday, and he said that Ning Jinming told him that our mother died of bleeding because of giving birth to me.I said that since you know, then you should know that it is not my birthday.But he said: "You had no choice at that time. It was not your fault that your mother gave birth to you and died, so why not celebrate your birthday?"

At the age of 12, I had my first birthday.

My mother's death was not my fault.

It's not my fault.

On July 7rd he quarreled with Ning Jinming, he hid in the toilet in my room and cried, but I was really in a hurry to go to the toilet.Finally he opened the door and I told him to go out but he didn't go out.He saw me pee and started laughing.What's so funny about that?

On July 7, he said that it would be great if he had a younger brother like me. I asked him if he hated his mother very much.He leaned back and forth laughing, and punched me a few times.

Qiu Xing smiled beautifully, like a white crane.

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November 11th It snowed today, it was so cold, I had a fever, the teacher asked me to go home early.I went home and took my medicine, and I wanted to go to the attic. When I was sick, I would stay in the attic. It was my own place.

There was a sound in the attic, someone was above, the door of the attic was not closed, I saw it, it was Qiu Xing and Ning Jinming.

Qiu Xing didn't wear clothes, he leaned on the window sill, pouted his buttocks, his body was so white, like the snow outside, but his face was very red, did he also have a fever?

I feel dizzy, and it seems that the fever is getting worse.

Qiu Xing turned his head around, he saw me, I really wanted to run, but...his eyes were so red, as if he had just cried, he, he smiled at me, smiled...

He also put his finger to his mouth to keep me quiet...

I ran away, feeling like I couldn't breathe.

I got under the covers and started shivering, my fever was getting worse, and I fell asleep, or maybe passed out.

On December 12, Qiuxing came again. I didn't want to see him, but I wanted to see him again, but he still came to pester me to talk to me as if nothing had happened.Did he forget?Or was that scene just my illusion?I could barely breathe.

I still didn't want to see him, I went back to my room and closed the door, but I could still see him.

Snow-white skin, he is smiling.

He is laughing.

December 12th I had a dream last night. I dreamed of Qiu Xing, and the person standing behind him became me.

I had a wet dream, for the first time.

That feels nasty.

On January 1st he gave me a mountain bike, saying it was a New Year's gift, and I kissed the handlebar, imagining it was his hand.Thinking of this, I couldn't wait to ride on the car.

January 1th I always dream about him recently, always think about him, want him to kiss me, and I want to kiss him too.

On February 2, I want to be like Ning Jinming.

February 2 Today is New Year's Eve, he drank too much at my house, I peeked at him taking a shower, and then took his dirty clothes.I know it's wrong, but I can't control it.

April 4th I think I'm in love with him.

On May 5th, autumn wakes up, autumn wakes up, autumn wakes up, autumn wakes up, autumn wakes up...

His name is like a poem.

On September 9th, I couldn't control myself to take his things more and more. I was like a pervert, peeping and stealing things. I was in so much pain. I don't know why it became like this.

But how will he fall in love with me?

Why is Qiu Xing not mine, how can he be mine?I have some bad thoughts.

Today, September 9, he quarreled with Ning Jinming again because Ning Jinming brought a girl home.He said that love should not bring harm to the other party, but Ning Jinming always hurts him.

I also had a lot of thoughts of wanting to hurt him.

I'm just a pervert, trash, scum... I don't deserve him.

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On August 8th, I decided to go abroad. Maybe we will all be better off after leaving Qiuxing.I'm going to forget him, and I will.Forget about him and I'll be normal again.

Qiu Xing, goodbye! ! !