guarding you for seven years

I feel like I have opened Pandora's box and you are the best antidote to save me. ---Ouyang Weiqiao

The seventh year NO.11

With the arrival of the new semester, Xia Lu entered her senior year, and she handed over all the work of the tennis team to her juniors. On the day Xia Lu left the tennis court, Xia Lu thought that she might never have the chance to participate in the regular tennis court again. The tennis match is over, and from now on, she should be farther and farther away from here. This place bears a lot of her sweat, and it is also the venue for her to show her confidence. Xia Lu's mood is extremely complicated, she is reluctant, but she feels that the time has come, she Time to leave.

Xia Lu has few courses, this is the most leisure semester since she entered the university, she wants to find a job as a tutor, but everyone is busy looking for an internship unit, Xia Lu is a little flustered, it is the first time for her to prepare for her future Before that, she never thought about what she was going to do.

Xia Lu felt that she should make a good plan for the future. Xia Lu took a piece of white paper, scribbled and drew on it, and drew everything she wanted. If she could not draw, she wrote. The first thing she thought of was Xiao Zi. She wants to know where Xiao Zi will go to work, and then she wants to choose a place closer to Xiao Zi. They have been separated for four years, and she wants to see Xiao Zi every day, just by taking a look. The heart will be much more comfortable.

Xia Lu took out her mobile phone and texted Xiao Zi, "Which city do you want to work in?"

After Xia Lu sent the message, she began to doodle on the paper again. Xiao Zi quickly replied to the text message, the content was very simple, "Wherever you go, I will go. Anywhere will do."

Xia Lu looked at the few short words, her heart warmed up, and the corner of her mouth curled up into a smile, which was faint but heart-warming. Perhaps, sometimes all we want is a simple response from the other party.

"Let's go home, we've been away for a long time." Xia Lu replied.

"Okay, go home." Xiao Zi replied.

Home, what a beautiful word, it has indescribable love in most people's hearts, it is the foundation of human beings, especially after experiencing wind and rain, we will want to return to the place we call home, unloading Put yourself in exhaustion and pretense, and be a fragile self. Fame, wealth, power, affection, love, and persistence will all disappear with the home. This is the magic of home.

Xia Lu felt that she had persisted for so many years and finally had a fruit. Although the fruit was not sweet, at least it was not bitter.

Xia Lu still found a tutor, taught English to two junior high school students, taught the students on weekends, and read books by herself during normal times, living a leisurely life.

Xia Lu didn't contact Bian Yang, she knew that it would be bad for anyone if she kept pestering her like this, since she couldn't give Bian Yang what she wanted, she chose to leave, completely.

Bian Yang didn't contact Xia Lu, nor paid attention to Xia Lu's news. Xia Lu seemed to have disappeared from her life suddenly. Xia Lu had never been to Bian Yang's apartment, and Bian Yang had never gone back. The originally cozy little home suddenly became deserted, and the lonely quietness was especially evident in the dark night.

Xia Lu thought, the city G is very big, she hasn't been to the big one in the past four years, and the city G is so small that she can meet the same stray dog ​​almost every day, but she has never met the same stray dog ​​that she wants to live in. The person you want to meet.

Xia Lu thought again, she has already graduated, how could he see her at school?

Three months passed quickly, Xia Lu found a job at home, and she could go to work after graduation. Xia Lu's grades are very good, and foreign companies are also very optimistic about her.Xia Lu never thought that her job hunting would be so smooth. During the interview, the Englishman casually chatted with her about international law. Xia Lu answered with ease. The British appreciated Xia Lu very much.At that time, Xia Lu thought of Bian Yang, and she clearly remembered that when she was translating materials two years ago, Bian Yang took more pains than she did to flip through the Oxford dictionary thicker than her face.

After leaving the interview hall, Xia Lu walked numbly until she reached the path where no one was there. Xia Lu squatted down weakly and cried uncontrollably. She held her fingers tightly, and the long fingertips pricked the palm of her hand. The feeling of missing a heart hit her heart again. In this short period of time, she was already familiar with this feeling, but today it hurts especially.

In the weather of December, there was a dense drizzle in the sky, and the summer green hair was full of raindrops. The cold wind surrounded her, but she couldn't feel the cold at the moment, the pain had already made her nerves Totally numb.

"Why? Why? It would be great if you didn't appear in my world." Xia Lu covered her face with cold hands, tears dripped on the ground through her fingers, mixed in the rain, and she couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain .

"However, I'm so glad you showed up. What can I not let go of?" Xia Lu has asked herself this question countless times.

That heart-piercing feeling lingers on her almost every night, she can't escape, she can't break free, just like she loves Xiao Zi, she can't extricate herself, this kind of emotion that breaks down every day, in this interview, She could no longer hold back the complete flood discharge. She knelt on the ground with a "touch" of her knees. She didn't even have the strength to squat. Lightning, is it raining?

Xia Lu just knelt there, covering her face and weeping bitterly. At this moment, she was isolated from the world. Sadness surrounded her, pain numb her, and the air was full of sadness. Xia Lu finally realized that her world had completely collapsed at this moment. , she will never get that person's care in the future, and she is not qualified to get that person's love. She deserves all of this, and she asked for it.

The pouring rain, like Xia Lu's tears, dripped on Xia Lu's body, Xia Lu looked up at the sky, and suddenly laughed, this rain is so good, so good, I deserve to be treated like this , should be drenched to death by this heavy rain.

In the winter of December, she was drenched in summer green and walked back to the dormitory step by step. She couldn't feel the cold because the temperature on her body was already close to the temperature outside.

The roommates were terrified to see Xia Lu in such a mess, his face was pale, his lips were purple, and his eyes were lifeless.The three roommates quickly undressed Xia Lu, boiled hot water, and wiped her hair without asking any questions.

Xia Lu let the three of them toss like a puppet. After changing clothes and drying her hair, Zhang Ling hurriedly stuffed Xia Lu into a cup, took three hot water bottles and stuffed them into Xia Lu's arms, and put several people The quilts were all around Xia Lu's body, Xia Lu sat motionless on the bed, her eyes drooped slightly, and her lips were blue and purple.

As her body temperature rose little by little, Xia Lu began to feel cold, so cold, really cold.Xia Lu stretched out her hand to hug the hot water bottle in her arms, looked at the three roommates in confusion, and said two words slowly from her chapped and bruised lips, "It's so cold." The three roommates surrounded Xia Lu, and Mingli hugged her tightly. Xia Lu felt distressed, "Xia Lu, it's raining, why don't you hide?" The tone was soft.

Xia Lu blinked, is it raining?It turned out to be raining.

"Xia Lu, what's the matter with you? Have you...have a conflict with Senior Bian Yang?" Zhang Ling couldn't help asking, because Xia Lu would only be so out of her mind every time there was an unhappiness with Bian Yang. .

Bian Yang?Who is calling Bian Yang?Who is Bian Yang?Xia Lu felt a headache, as if a lot of things were drilling into her head, the pain was so painful that her head was about to explode.

"Zhang Ling, stop talking." Wang Jiaojiao tugged at the corner of Zhang Ling's clothes.

Zhang Ling pursed her lips, "Xia Lu, senior sister likes you, we can all tell, if you like her, stay with her, if you don't like her, then don't like it, what's the matter with you tormenting yourself like this. "Zhang Ling said in an atmosphere, she never felt that there was anything abnormal about Bian Yang and Xia Lu being together.

Who likes who?Who is she going to be with?The figure in front of Xia Lu slowly faded away, she was so sleepy.

"I want to sleep." Xia Lu said weakly and closed her eyes completely.

Mingli put her hands on Xia Lu's head, "I have a fever."

"Fortunately, I gave her anti-fever medicine and let her sleep for a while. If the fever still persists, I will send her to the hospital." Wang Jiaojiao also touched Xia Lu's forehead.

"I'm going to call Senior Sister Bian Yang." Zhang Ling said, looking for a cell phone.

"This is a matter between Xia Lu and Senior Bian Yang, we don't want to interfere." Wang Jiaojiao hurriedly stopped Zhang Ling.

"Sister Xia should know what Xia Lu is like now." Zhang Ling said angrily.

"Now is not the time to be impulsive, Xia Lu is not with Bian Yang, maybe it's not because she doesn't like Bian Yang, maybe it's because..." Wang Jiaojiao stopped suddenly.

"Because of what?" Mingli asked puzzled.

"Homosexuality is not accepted in this society." As soon as Wang Jiaojiao said this, the entire dormitory fell silent.If it is not accepted, it means that it is contrary to morality and ethics, so Xia Lu and Bian Yang are going on a difficult road. There is no one to accompany them on this road, and it is more likely that they will be opposed by their family members.

I wanted to write something, but I was suddenly interrupted, so I will continue tomorrow night.Thank you thank you.