Protagonist, wake up

The first time Jian Zhu showed signs of split personality was before he was nine years old, when he was still in a children's welfare home.

In 20xx, due to the long-term backlog of environmental problems, an epic disaster broke out on the earth.This near-destruction disaster caused the global population to plummet to two-fifths, the livable land was severely shrunk, and resources were also facing scarcity.

The surviving people had to choose global population reorganization in order to survive, and everyone gathered together to share the land.The living area is divided into east and west circles, and each circle is divided into different small areas.There will be different ethnic groups living in each area, and mixed blood is already the norm here.

After a long period of running-in, the eastern and western realms gradually differentiated. Generally speaking, the political center is in the eastern realm, but the economic center is biased toward the western realm.The place where Jian Zhu lived since he was a child is the Xia District, which is one of the "slums" in the east.

In fact, Jian Zhu didn't know where he was from, because he was an orphan from birth.His biological parents put him as a baby at the entrance of the children's welfare home and disappeared, but the director of the welfare home picked him up and brought him back to life.

It was a small orphanage, and the dean was a kind and gentle woman.In Jian Zhu's unclear memory, when he was very young, the dean would often come to hug him and play with him.Every time she was picked up, Jian Zhu would happily grab the wooden chain dangling on the dean's chest and shake it non-stop.

And the dean was holding him in his arms, with a few little dolls hanging on his lap, smiling brightly in the sun.

When Jian Zhu was older, the headmaster didn't come often, because there were always children younger than him who needed to be taken care of, so he was handed over to the nurses.But there are a lot of children and they love to run around, and the nurses often have no skills at all, so they don't notice the things that happen in the orphanage where the children are tearing each other up.

The little Jian Zhu is a bit introverted by nature, he doesn't like to talk, and often just quietly listens to others talking non-stop.Because of his dull personality, little Jianzhu actually has no friends.He didn't understand why those children could run around and fight over a paper toy.Children who love to play can't play with him, and children who are as quiet as him will not get together.

But nurses like this character very much, because he won't cause trouble.

In fact, Jian Zhu tried to integrate into other children's groups, but after being teased by an older child, he shrank back into his shell again.

The big boys ordered him to do funny things and watched him being played around by them.They also threw mud at him, stuffed worms in his clothes, and laughed when he jumped up in terror.

"Look at him, look at his stupid look hahahaha!"

"Hey, look, he really ate it!"

"Oh, it's too bad, I laughed so hard, does this guy really believe it?"

Jian Zhu was very aggrieved at that time, and he couldn't figure out in his little head that he was just looking for them to play, but he encountered such disgust.

Many times, children subconsciously are very close to older children, and they will stick to older children.But some older children are often not as tolerant as adults, and they will find it annoying.Especially in the orphanage, they still face the problem of interests—these small bones are potential competitors, and they may be adopted in the future.

Although the child is young, he still vaguely understands how to protect his own interests.

What's more, Jian Zhu's long life can arouse the desire to bully, the quieter he is, the more he is looked down upon by others, and he feels that anyone can step on him.

He spent a long period of gray and lonely days in the orphanage.While other children are playing, Jian Zhu can hide behind the haystack for a whole day.

He became more and more reluctant to speak, sensitive and inferior.

Until one day, in extreme loneliness and boredom, he saw a little boy sitting opposite him.The boy didn't speak, just looked at him.

Jian Zhu looked at him, then at the straw grasshopper in his hand, pursed his lips and handed the straw grasshopper to the other party.The boy took it, and then the two weaved straw ropes for each other in silence.

This is the first friend he has, although he doesn't speak.

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A child who is only five years old keeps his grievances, fears and secrets to the bottom of his heart, and will become more lonely in the long run.He will ask and answer by himself, and his heart becomes more and more alienated because of depression.When this repression becomes distorted and difficult to hide, it can turn into a mental illness. *

Not long after, an accident occurred in the orphanage.

A child was accidentally pushed down the stairs by another person.When the child fell, it hit the haystack not far away. Jian Zhu and the boy beside him saw the whole process of falling.

The man's head was like a pink watermelon, and the blood flowed profusely when it was smashed in front of his eyes.Jian Zhu's head stopped thinking, he stared blankly at all this, his whole body was stiff and his eyes were empty.

The unknown boy who had been playing with him by his side disappeared.

It was not until a long time later that the screams reached his ears, and there was a commotion in front of him, and a nurse hugged him tightly and whispered to comfort him.Only after his cold body warmed up did he realize that he had been shivering.

The ambulance with flashing red lights blew its siren and sped away, and the surroundings of Jian Zhu gradually became quiet again.

Because of this incident, the children looked at him differently, probably because they didn't want to get involved with anything ominous.

His quiet playmate who has been with him has also left.

Jian Zhu fell into loneliness again.

The author has something to say: [The second update may drop at night_(:з」∠)_]

At this time, Jian Zhu is actually only in the stage of imagination, because of the hallucinations caused by being too lonely, of course writing the article will definitely exaggerate some illnesses...

Note*——This paragraph refers to a long article by a big guy on Weibo. The big guy refers to:

Guo Huaici, Self-fulfillment in loneliness——From Jung to Jungian psychology. Proceedings of the Sixth Annual Academic Conference of the International Chinese Applied Psychology Research Association. 2009:131-135