the soul side

Zhao Linna didn't plan to do those things that cost less, so as to humiliate Cheng Yiming and let him understand the gap between them.

The gap between them doesn't need to be shown specially by her, it is the gap between heaven and earth.

He was born in an ordinary way, looks good enough, does a job that is not decent, and is still a man.

Zhao Linna understands that all she needs is to show her own advantages so that Chu Yiming can clearly see the existence of this gap.

She joined the company through Uncle Sun and became a member of Chu Yiming's planning department.

Chu Mei knew her identity, and the two chatted friendly and got along happily, but Zhao Linna didn't intend to get too close to Chu Mei.

She was just an adopted daughter of the Chu family, and she knew that Chu Yiming didn't like this younger sister.

With a beautiful appearance, an elegant posture, and a noble temperament, Zhao Linna approached Chu Yiming with [-]% momentum, and every step she took in the company could almost create a whirlwind.

Except that the business is not too hard.

But Zhao Linna has foreign aid, and she will call her cousin in Canada for advice on work matters. Her cousin is a hot business elite. With this foreign aid, everything about Zhao Linna is impeccable.

Half an hour before work, the weather suddenly changed and it rained heavily. Zhao Linna looked forward to Chu Yiming's ability to send her home, so she took the errand from Chu Mei to submit the report herself, and stood at Chu Yiming's desk watching the torrential rain outside. Da Yu sighed: "China's summer weather is really unpredictable. If I know it will rain, I will definitely bring my rain gear to go out. In which direction will Mr. Chu go after work?"

Chu Yiming looked at her: "The weather forecast in China is pretty accurate."

This is Chu Yiming's little suggestion to her.

Zhao Linna asked calmly: "Can Mr. Chu give me a ride by the way?"

"No."

"Afraid that your girlfriend will be angry?" Zhao Linna said this on purpose.

girlfriend?

Chu Yiming hummed calmly.

Zhao Linna's face is ugly now, and she can't say Chu Yiming, don't lie, you are not a girlfriend at all.

Chu Yiming had no intention of talking to her more, so Zhao Linna could only leave Chu Yiming's office, and reluctantly accepted the escort of a suitor after get off work.

The torrential rain has been going on, and the previous few days of exposure have accumulated thick clouds in the sky, and the raindrops are crackling on the car window. Cheng Yiming sat in the car and looked at the dark clouds in the sky: "This rain should fall All night."

Cheng Yiming doesn't like rain.

But speaking of it, he doesn't like anything, except cooking and Chu Yiming, other things seem to have no color in his world.

It was raining heavily, and the two of them sat on the bed looking at the foggy city outside the floor-to-ceiling windows. Chu Yiming opened a bottle of wine, put his arms around him in one hand, and watched the rain outside the window with the glass in the other, taking a sip from time to time.

He seemed to be drinking very politely, but he had already drank half of the bottle. Cheng Yiming didn't dare to drink anymore, and he still didn't drink half of the little wine in the glass.

The more Chu Yiming drank, the more he relaxed. He bent down and put his head on Cheng Yiming's shoulder, his eyes drifted away into the distance, as if he was remembering something.

"When my mother died, it was such a rainy day, a heavy rainstorm, and a thunder rang, and my mother was startled."

The woman lying on the bed was as pale as paper, and she seemed to feel that her remaining vitality was passing away. The thunder made her wake up suddenly, and she stood in front of the window and burst into tears.

It was raining heavily outside the window, she covered her face, gradually bent down and fell to the ground, he hurried up to hold her hand: "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

"Yiming, look, it's raining heavily."

Then why cry?

Chu Yiming stared at her blankly.

She covered her face and wept, almost choking: "What the hell am I doing...why am I like this..."

Her life fell from the clouds to this land like rain, and she could not return, and was doomed to dissipate, and in this short life, she wiped away the brilliance and happiness that she should have had.

For a word of love, for a promise that no longer exists.

'I, Chu Liguo, will only love you for the rest of my life, and will never let you down. '

Such a sentence, she engraved it into her bones, he said that he would never let him down, and she would never forget this oath.

But the vow dissipated in an instant, but she still held on tightly to the feelings that no longer existed and refused to let go, one year, two years, three years, six years.

Not only the years, but even the life was wasted.

she was wrong...

Chu Yiming watched his mother gradually calm down. When she fell asleep, tears were still streaming from the corners of her eyes, and the tears rolled down on the pillowcase.

When I went to wake her up for breakfast the next day, her body was already cold, and my mother was taken away by a rain.

Cheng Yiming turned his head to look at Chu Yiming's face: "Do you hate rainy days?"

"I like rainy days." Chu Yiming looked into Cheng Yiming's eyes: "Do you know what my mother often said to me?"

"what?"

"Yiming, be a happy person, Yiming, live selfishly, Yiming, don't make yourself unhappy for others."

It turns out that this is the starting point of his character, and Cheng Yiming didn't know what to say, so he raised his hand to touch his cheek.

When Chu Yiming talked about these things, he didn't have any emotion or sadness. He just talked about the past without ups and downs. He didn't think there was anything to be sad about these things. Everyone has a past, and whoever grows up has a heart There is no three knives and five eyes.

"What about your dad? You can't accept him because of your mom?"

Chu Yiming raised his hand and poured all the red liquid left at the bottom of the glass down his throat, and the hand holding the empty wine glass hung down on the mattress: "I don't have good personalities, I always quarrel when we meet, it's been like this since I was a child."

'Dad, go home and see your mother, she will get better when she sees you. 'Chu Yiming was almost as tall as the desk at that time.

'Yi Ming?Why didn't you tell Dad in advance when you came here suddenly. Chu Liguo stood up with a smile on his face, but regarding the topic of his mother, he said, "It's better for your mother to stay alone."

'Dad, we can surprise Mommy to make her happy. '

'Dad is very busy, tell the secretary how much money you need, and you can prepare it for Dad. '

'Mom will be happy only if Dad also participates. '

Chu Liguo said casually: "As long as your mother has money, she will be happy." '

Chu Yiming stared at him: "What about you, Dad, are you happy when you have money?" '

'Money can't make people happy, what makes people happy is what money buys. '

Chu Yiming's face darkened: "Did you exchange money for me and my mother?" '

Chu Liguo laughed helplessly: 'You child, where did you learn this? '

'You taught. Chu Yiming threw down these three words, turned around and left, and never called Chu Liguo Dad again.

He has always lived a very indulgent life, drinking his favorite wine, driving his favorite car, and doing what he likes. Two years ago, he did everything he could, racing bungee jumping and gliding, and he had no moral values. Anyone who provoked him would be punished by him Half dead.

In the past two years, I gradually felt that it was not very interesting, so I started to restrain myself.

His life is worthy of the word happiness, but it is very empty, an emptiness that no one can fill.

If there is always a place in the heart that is lacking, then keep looking for the missing part, and that process can divert a lot of attention.

But Chu Yiming has tried everything, and he has everything, and the shortcoming is still there, so that's the only way to go.

Holding Cheng Yiming at this moment, Chu Yiming suddenly felt that it was this person.

When embracing the other person's body, it seems that the soul is also harmoniously relying on each other, which is extremely reassuring.

The rain outside the window was still falling, and it was getting late. The wine glasses were cleaned up and the two lay on the bed hugging each other and sleeping.

Cheng Yiming didn't know if it was the reason for the rain. He suddenly felt that Chu Yiming had become a lot gentler. Chu Yiming's gentleness in the past was revealed inadvertently. He leaned against his chest and listened to his heartbeat. The frequency is extremely gentle.

There should be no one who is not gentle in this world, everyone is such a soft and fragile little ball when they came to this world.

Such a fragile life can only be treated with tenderness, but has been given so many wounds.

The hard shell grew layer by layer, and the original shape was broken and distorted.

But the beating heart was still red in the chest.

Can life be less painful, and be gentle after finding the bondage at the other end of the soul?

Cheng Yiming reached out and touched Chu Yiming's face. He shouldn't be so shy, he should be more courageous, and reduce each other's twists and turns and pains in a frank relationship.

"Chu Yiming." Cheng Yiming called out his name.

"Huh?" Chu Yiming responded without opening his eyes.

Cheng Yiming pursed his lips: "I love you. I love you so much, I am afraid that I will lose you, I am afraid that you will get married, I am afraid that you have other bed partners, I am afraid that you think I am boring, and I am afraid that if you say this, you will I feel that I am too ignorant and self-aware.”

"You are so knowledgeable and interesting." To actually say such words to him is really self-taught, Chu Yiming hugged Cheng Yiming's waist: "Remember, you are a date, not a bed partner. I think you're very interesting."

Cheng Yiming didn't expect Chu Yiming to say this, and asked, "What's interesting?"

Chu Yiming didn't pretend to think: "It's interesting to seduce me unintentionally, it's interesting to cook for me, and it's interesting to cry."

Cheng Yiming was suddenly embarrassed, Chu Yiming had already seen through his intentions, he didn't do it clearly, why would he be seen?

Cheng Yiming said stiffly: "I...I didn't."

Chu Yiming echoed: "I was wrong."

The rain outside the window was still pattering, Chu Yiming rubbed the back of his neck, and the two of them slowly fell asleep to the sound of the rain.