Time flies, eyebrows become books

【39】

Ziqi has returned to school, and he still has a lot of things to deal with, there is no sensational plot, and I didn't even ask for leave to see him off.

We keep in touch, but not very hot.Once on the phone, he mentioned that his uncle was already making various preparations for going abroad. I asked him if he had decided, but he was vague and asked me how to arrange it.How can I decide your life?

I used to think that he was a resolute person, always able to make decisive decisions and move forward bravely.The fact is that his life has not encountered a fork in the road, and the journey has been smooth.Uncle is a powerful person, but he is very supportive of Ziqi academically. He never forced him to study business or inherit his own business. He should love his son from the bottom of his heart, because uncle worked hard from nothing. He has a deep understanding of hardships, and he does not want his son to suffer this kind of hardship, and he also maintains the nobility of an intellectual. From the bottom of his heart, he refuses to socialize and pretends to be a life, so he supports Ziqi's career choice, not to mention he has enough The funds support the development and future life of the sub-period.Therefore, Ziqi has not experienced the storms of life and has innocent feelings, but I am different from him, which is also the reason why we disagree on some choices.

Although he said he was confused, his actions were honest, and all the procedures were being handled in an orderly manner.I know he is waiting for my answer, but it is impossible for me to ask him to be with me like a few years ago, because the mood and environment have changed.He should have a better development, not to mention that this is the direction he has been working hard for. I have no reason to hinder him, and he is not a big boy back then. He has experienced the death of his mother and understands the preciousness of family affection. My father confessed to our relationship and even naively expected celibacy as a shield, which I don't think is a good idea.

Several times he called me, and I was talking with Wen Hao, and he began to question my relationship with Wen Hao. This was the first time he questioned my relationship with others, and the attack was fierce.I always thought that with his personality, he would not be entangled in these issues, or that the way he handled the issues would be much more calm and objective, but the fact is that we had many quarrels.

It may be because he was in a dilemma at the time and urgently needed my statement, but I did nothing, which deepened the misunderstanding, so Wen Hao became the one who ignited our conflict.He wants to leave, but I won't stay. The essence of our quarrel is the collapse of trust.I don't believe that he will stand by me without fear, and he doesn't believe that I have no second thoughts about Wen Hao.We quarreled—explained—analyzed—reconciled—argued again—explained—analyzed—reconciled again, over and over again, physically and mentally exhausted.In the end, he didn't believe even the simplest thing I said, and I didn't believe we had a bright future.

We all have mental cleanliness. Our feelings have been mixed with impurities for a long time. If we don't clean them up in time, they will accumulate more and more, and we can no longer wipe them clean.We tried our best, and he even flew over here just to have a face-to-face chat, but the language is so pale.

This time we finally ended in a straightforward way. He said the breakup first, and I agreed.

The moment I agreed, I actually felt relaxed. It turns out that my patience is so limited.

Later I heard that he went abroad as planned, and I felt lost and relieved.

One weekend, I suddenly clicked on "33 Days of Broken Relationship". This is not the type of movie I would choose, the title must have touched me.

When Huang Xiaoxian was chasing the car, the music played and the line said:

"Can you forgive me, can you wait for me

wait for me

The road ahead is too dangerous

so many people in the world

only you

is the partner who gives me the most sense of security

,,,,,,"

I actually burst into tears, wait for me-this is something I never said.

You will still appear in my dreams, unfortunately less and less.Maybe we will face the things at that time with us now, and the ending will be different, but time will not turn back.

I'll still miss you, but just miss.

Three years after our breakup, I got your email.You said you were starting a new relationship and wanted to tell me a secret.you say

In the summer vacation when you graduated from the third year of junior high school, I encouraged you to go swimming in the river, but the water was too cold at that time, and I almost drowned due to cramps in my feet. You took great effort to pull me ashore, but you couldn’t wake me up. I cried anxiously.While frantically trying to give me artificial respiration, I swore secretly that if I woke up, you would definitely study medicine in the future, because you would not allow me to encounter similar situations again, and I was helpless and powerless.

It turned out to be because of me, I always thought it was because of your mother.

thank you!

But you must not know that I woke up soon after being pulled ashore. At first I just wanted to pretend to be dead to scare you, but later I was attracted by your artificial respiration.Wait, wait, I want to feel your breath, I want to grasp that feeling, the feeling that makes me confused and greedy.

We're all starting a new life, and I wouldn't leave a sick love behind to see you, and I think you will too.We all have someone to take care of but I understand you are [-]% love and he is just right.Although I chose just a good life, you will always have a place in my heart.

I moved Doraemon into my new home and put it in the study. I should take back what I said. Even if I choose again, I am still willing to meet you, because you have never been just love to me, but also friendship, family affection, and even more. many.Fortunately, I know Jun's peach blossom noodles, and the rice paddies will be warm and spring from now on.

I think of a time when I listened to a song repeatedly, you sat next to me, pulled out the earplugs and listened carefully, and then said wisely: "Don't listen to it in the future, it's unlucky."

I glared at you: "Since when did you become superstitious? What's so good about listening to music?"

"After being with you, there will be taboos." You smiled hippie.

"Superstition" I don't think so.

"The title of the song is not good, don't you want it to last forever." You rubbed your shoulders against me while laughing.

"Who wants to grow old with you? It's better for everyone to be safe!" I deliberately refuted you.

You glared at me and forcibly turned off the music.

Unexpectedly, the word became a prophecy, and we really couldn't make it.

"Can't Come"

Your eyes will smile and bend into a bridge

The end is that I will never reach it

It feels like the wind howls when you come

Missing is like a bitter medicine, but it's so hard to bear

every second

i can't find i can't reach

what you call a bright future

I don't want to know anything

If you understand me this second

i want to see what i'm looking for

the so-called beauty of love

I rely on tightly and hold fast

Don't dare to miss a tiny bit

wish you see

Your eyes will smile and bend into a bridge

The end is that I will never reach it

It feels like the wind howls when you come

Missing is like a bitter medicine, but it's so hard to bear

every second

i can't find i can't reach

what you call a bright future

I don't want to know anything

If you understand me this second

i want to see what i'm looking for

the so-called beauty of love

I rely on tightly and hold fast

Don't dare to miss a tiny bit

wish you see

i can't find i can't reach

what you call a bright future

I don't want to know anything

If you understand me this second

i want to see what i'm looking for

the so-called beauty of love

I rely on tightly and hold fast

Don't dare to miss a tiny bit

wish you see