Time flies, eyebrows become books

【26】

At that time, I was a little puzzled why I blurted out "Forget it" or "Leave it alone".Maybe the quarrel between couples is easy to speak rudely, and it is easy to violate wishes.I regretted it when I blurted it out, and I saw his facial expression turn dark from anger, he sat there for a few seconds, then got up and left.I heard my aunt asking, where is Xiaoyu?He said I was looking for information.I just stood there in a daze like this, my eyes were wet and my hands and feet were weak.I gasped desperately, suppressed the boiling emotions, and even pinched my left hand with my right hand to force back my tears.I knew I couldn't stay in someone else's room so abruptly, so after trying my best to calm down, I dialed 10086, turned down the volume to the minimum, and walked out pretending to be talking to a colleague.

"Uncle, Auntie, I have to go. My unit is calling. There is something urgent." I knew I couldn't stay for another second.

"So busy! I won't keep you if you have something to do, go quickly." Auntie said empathetically.

"Then I'm leaving." Still saying goodbye to everyone politely, Ziqi didn't speak the whole time, and I left silently.

Who doesn't know how to pretend, but sincerity is rare.

We didn't communicate in the next few days. We also had quarrels and cold wars before, but he almost always gave in first.I admit that I am not good at dealing with emotional conflicts, and I can even say that I am flawed.I once thought it had something to do with the family of origin.My memory is the scenes of parents fighting and classmates being isolated, so I lack a sense of security, have a little low self-esteem, and have strong self-esteem.I know it's all my fault and one shouldn't bring negativity into a new relationship, but a lot of the behavior is instinctive.Lin Sha and Ziqi are more like a group of people. They have been fully loved since they were young, so they exude confidence and calmness from the bottom of their bones.They are more communicative, they don't take things too seriously, and they exude a warm atmosphere.When I was most confused, I once thought that my desire for him stemmed from my desire for his family and his life state.And why did he accept such a dilapidated me?

Colleagues in the unit have gone home for the New Year one after another, and my work has come to an end, and I have to leave in two days.Before I left, I was hesitant to send him a message, but in the end I didn't send it. I didn't expect to see him when I got home from get off work.

"Why are you here?" He said this insincerely, regretting it again and again.

"Still angry?" He smiled and leaned towards me.

We used to quarrel, usually he came to comfort me quickly, no more than two days, this time is the longest time.

I shook off his hand, pretended to be indifferent, and walked into the room to sort things out.In fact, more than half of the grievances in my heart have receded, but the emotional disorder has occurred again, and I can't always deal with these problems well. Even if I secretly read and study, I still lose the chain at the critical moment.

"Don't be angry! I was wrong, okay!" He hugged me from behind, rubbing his chin gently on my shoulder.Itchy, I couldn't help laughing.In fact, the moment I opened the door and saw him, I wanted to laugh, but I just needed a step.

"Okay! My baby is not angry anymore." He pulled me close and kissed me, from lips to earlobe to neck.

"Husband and wife don't have overnight feuds, they quarrel at the head of the bed and make peace at the end of the bed" probably means this!