Rebirth of an old friend into a dream

Wilde once said: "There are only two tragedies in the world, one is getting what you want, and the other is getting what you want."

Oscar Wilde was an English aestheticist writer in the Victorian period in the 19th century.Young and unruly, Wilde was full of talent. Every time he involved in an art field, whether it was drama, novel, poetry, essay or fairy tale, he achieved success and became famous all over the world.It was only later that he was brought to court because of the "deformed friendship" between him and Lord Douglas, and was convicted of love and sentenced to prison, which caused his life and reputation to fall from heaven to hell.

Shi Yinian likes "The Nightingale and the Rose" in "Oscar Wilde's Fairy Tales" the most - it sings the praises of sacrificial love.

Nightingale said to herself: "Although I don't know him, I will sing to him every night, and I will tell his story to the stars every night. Now I finally see him, and his His hair was as black as hyacinths, and his lips were as red as roses he would have liked; but affection made him pale as ivory, and the marks of sorrow crept on his brows."

The nightingale couldn't find the red rose that the young student wanted to present to the pretty girl at the ball, so when the moon was high in the sky, she put her breast on the thorn, and she sang all night long with her breast on the thorn.The stabbing on her chest was getting deeper and deeper, piercing her own heart, and the blood on her body was about to flow out.Finally, an extraordinary crimson rose bloomed on the tallest branch of the rose tree!

When the student dedicated this crimson rose to the professor's daughter, the girl only saw valuable jewels and the nephew of the high-ranking court minister, threw the rose into the street, and was crushed into pieces by the carriage... …

Every time Shi Yinian reads this story, she thinks of her mother when she was young, she also sacrificed her youth and beauty for pure fiery love, but in the end, maybe she will be like this student, Curse angrily: "How foolish love is!"

He thought that he would never repeat the mistakes of Nightingale and his mother, but because of fate, he fell into a bitter love.In order to get close to Ruan Shaoli, he worked hard to read literary works. He forced himself to overcome autism and joined the high school student union. He forced himself to study hard and hope to be admitted to Ruan Shaoli's university. As long as he can get closer to Ruan Shaoli, he is willing to give own everything.

A man who fell deeply in love with a man who didn't love him was doomed to give up his self-esteem.down to the dust.No one cares how much effort he has put in in this relationship, whether he is tired from holding on, whether it hurts from falling.He can't even tell the man he likes that there is a deformed love, a humble love that quietly blooms for you in the silent night.

Shi Yinian seemed to be the nightingale who shed all her blood at the end. In this humble love that ended without a disease, she was finally burned to ashes by a fire.

Burned to ashes, there is one more person.A person who sacrificed his precious life for his every moment.That is Qin Xuan.

Mr. Q, who recommended reading "Oscar Wilde's Fairy Tales" to Shi Yinian, told Time1-Shi Yinian, who always has a pure heart: "You should read "The Happy Prince". gems and gold pieces on the body. The swallow flew back to the happy prince and told him the misery, misfortune, ugliness and injustice that existed in the real world. The swallow froze to death at the feet of the prince's statue in the severe cold, and transformed beauty into reality Goodness, the prince's heart is broken with grief and broken in two..."

When I received Mr. Q's letter, I thought that Wilde's "The Happy Prince" was just a fairy tale attacking the views of social Darwinist conservatives on solving social problems, that is, the individual charity of a few wealthy people cannot fundamentally save society.

Until after being reincarnated, he re-read "The Happy Prince" several times.

Then, Qin Xuan told him: "In the original version of "Happy Prince", both the prince and the swallow used 'he' (masculine him), the swallow and the prince wanted to kiss the prince's hand as a farewell ceremony, and the prince But the swallow kissed his lips on the grounds of "I love you too much". When the swallow was frozen to death, the prince's heart was also broken. Without love, the prince lost the meaning of living. This is Wilde's own feelings refraction."

Shocked by Shi Yinian, he suddenly remembered that Oscar Wilde was one of the most famous gay writers in the nineteenth century, and in the end suffered a tragedy because he fell in love with the Lord of the same sex.

In Shi Yinian's mind, Qin Xuan's words overlapped with Mr. Q's letter, allowing him to see Wilde's martyrdom like a moth flying into a flame.

Only then did he realize that the pen pal he corresponded with in college in his previous life was also his soul mate—it was actually Qin Xuan himself!