The daily routine of being teased by a scholar

In the words of a famous pianist, practicing the piano is a matter for one person, and there is not much that others can do to help you except for your own time and effort.

Cai Zhan started learning piano at the age of five, and his first teacher was his grandfather.His original intention to practice the piano was not voluntary, but came from his desire to escape from this family.

The college entrance examination cannot determine too much, but at least it can reflect the state of the first quarter of your life and pave the way for the last three quarters.

In June, sweat like rain.

The training school was opened in a relatively prosperous city, in a small building with a small scale.This city is the heart on the map of the motherland, and it is also a transportation hub with the densest flow of people and vehicles.It is like a huge spider web, connecting the hometowns of countless people.People come, people leave, and finally, with their own sweat and stories, they take root here or set foot on their way home.

The air conditioner in the piano room was turned on very low, and Cai Zhan gently closed the piano cover.He had already memorized the sheet music for the exam. Tomorrow is the weekly mock exam. The higher the ranking, the more it means that this trip is worthwhile.

Most of the children who want to take the Y sound test have worked their way up from the Music Attached Elementary School and the Music Attached Middle School since they were young. It is difficult for a few of them to get the admission ticket for the Y sound after a lot of hard work.

Cai Zhan didn't have the chance to go to those high schools attached to music, and he knew that he was still far behind their level.But now that he has participated in this training camp that gathers elites from all over the world, even if he fails to pass the Y Yin test, he will not lose much in terms of gains and insights.

He never thought of trying so hard.

In the past, in school, I was admitted to the current high school with the level of professional first, and I have never been surpassed in two years.

He hadn't thought about where he could go, or how far he could go.All I know is that as long as I can leave this home, nothing matters.

"But now it matters," he thought.

Because he met someone who made him so-called.

Seven o'clock in the evening was displayed on the phone screen, and he hadn't eaten yet, so he got up, put on a coat, and opened the door of the piano room.

The night here is a bit cool, the breeze carried the sand in the air, passed through the ancient streets and alleys, passed through the traffic, and finally hit him in the face.

The corridor lights have been turned off, and most of the students have returned to the dormitory to eat or rest.

Cai Zhan pressed his stomach and felt a sudden stomachache.While turning on his mobile phone to check his friends' news, he went out and turned to a small noodle shop next to the school.

The sliced ​​noodles are pretty good here.

Xu Huaiyang didn't like to play social software, he knew this before.But even if he doesn't like to play, he can often see Xu Huaiyang's head portrait on the software - a colorful pattern that doesn't know if it's watercolor or something.

But now, his avatar has not been lit up for a long time.

No matter how busy he is in class and training, Cai Zhan will always pay attention to Xu Huaiyang's news.But Xu Huaiyang hadn't contacted him for a long time since the last call during dinner.

Want to ask?Today is Friday, time to go home.

During the training period, you can only choose one day off on Saturday and Sunday each week.This week, Cai Zhan will rest on Saturday, and he can go out for a walk tomorrow. If he is tired, he will go back to the dormitory to review cultural lessons and do homework.

Since Lu Yan mistakenly answered Xu Huaiyang's call last time, he never mentioned his girlfriend to Cai Zhan again.And every time someone asks a question, he will take the initiative to help and interrupt.

Although Cai Zhan himself doesn't mind what others say, he is still very grateful to him.In one breath, I invited Lu Yan to eat chocolate for a week, which tasted much cuter.

He hesitated for a moment, took his mobile phone and dialed Xu Huaiyang's phone number.

After almost 1 minute of ringing, the phone automatically hung up and no one answered.

what happened?

The owner of the noodle shop brought over the sliced ​​noodles. Cai Zhan added some vinegar to the noodles, and the hot air felt warm on his face.

For some reason, he suddenly remembered the No. [-] powder in the world that he ate with Xu Huaiyang.

That was the first time he was forcibly taken to the clinic after falling ill, and he was given all kinds of care along the way.At that time, his mind was full of thoughts about his deskmate stealing his photos and swearing at him, and he must settle the accounts when he recovered from his illness.

The result is still unclear.

"Beep-beep-"

After the phone rang twice, Cai Zhan realized that he had involuntarily dialed Fang Mian's number when he was in a daze.

He hesitated for a moment, didn't hang up, just in time to ask Xu Huaiyang what he was doing recently.

"Hey?"

After a while, the phone was picked up.

"I," Cai Zhan cleared his throat, "Cai Zhan."

"Ah? Who?" The opposite party was obviously stunned for a few seconds, "Ah, Cai Zhan!"

Cai Zhan was a little helpless, Fang Mian was always so startled.

"Damn, I didn't expect it to be you... Don't worry, Xu Huaiyang is fine." Fang Mian said over there.

Cai Zhan froze for a moment, then frowned.

This is not right.

What do you mean "don't worry"?

Xu Huaiyang... Is something wrong?

"Are you busy with training? If it's okay, I'll hang up first. Hey, I'm about to take a shower..." Fang Mian said in a hurry.

"Don't hang up yet," Cai Zhan interrupted him with a frown, "What do you think happened to Xu Huaiyang?"

Fang Mian's voice paused: "It's nothing."

"Why didn't he answer my phone?" Cai Zhan asked.

"I don't know. He doesn't have a mobile phone with him, so he didn't hear it or bring it... Hey, just give him another call later."

Seeing that Fang Mian was rambling and not answering well, Cai Zhan became more and more confused.

Before he could ask any more questions, he said a few words "in vain" on the phone and hung up.

Something was wrong, he put down his phone.

The noodles on the table suddenly couldn't be eaten anymore.

Fang Mian put a cup of hot chocolate next to Xu Huaiyang, and then sat on Xu Huaiyang's bed.

This bed is far less comfortable than the big bed at home, and its horizontal length is at most 1.5 meters, which is considered a substandard double bed.

Fang Mian lightly shook twice, and the mattress creaked.

"You fucking stop shaking." Xu Huaiyang took a sip of chocolate and turned his head irritably. "Join me in a minute and throw this broken mattress out."

"Where to throw it?" Fang Mian clicked, "The landlord's?"

"Damn." Xu Huaiyang cursed.

Fang Mian sighed as she looked at the scattered notebooks and the unwritten draft paper on his desk.

"If you can't keep studying, then stop studying and rest first...or go to my house. How can you study here? It's as noisy as a vegetable market every day." He said.

Xu Huaiyang's mobile phone was thrown on the bed. In the past 10 minutes, Fang Mian watched his mobile phone turn on and off three times. The ringtone of the phone in silent mode was vibrating. It was impossible for Xu Huaiyang not to hear it. .

But as expected, Cai Zhan still hit him in the end.

"It's useless to worry, calm down first." He looked at Xu Huaiyang's state, a little worried, "You can't make up your mind about your parents' affairs, or you should deal with Cai Zhan's affairs first..."

"What to deal with?" Xu Huaiyang turned around and looked at him, "What do I need to deal with him?"

Fang Mian hesitated for a moment: "You...do you want to talk to him? It's not a big deal if you don't answer the phone."

Xu Huaiyang was silent for a while, and took a look at the calendar.

Then he stood up and sat on the bed next to Fang Mian.

"I'm not in good shape." Xu Huaiyang took a deep breath, "I'm afraid he will feel it when I talk to him."

After a pause, he said, "I can't disturb him. Cai Zhan is walking forward now. It's fine if I can't help him. I can't let him turn around and help me..."

Fang Mian looked at him, not knowing what to say.

Xu Huaiyang covered his face with his hands: "I really... can't help him with anything."

"Why do you always want to help him!" Fang Mian couldn't help but interjected, "You don't owe him anything!"

Xu Huaiyang was silent for a while.

"I owe it," he pointed to his heart, "here."

"I promised him too many things...Fang Mian." Xu Huaiyang smiled, "If I promise, if I promise, I will advance the next few decades. Do you believe it?"

Fang Mian was stunned.

"He started to move forward with great difficulty. If I stop at this time, I'm afraid my conscience will be disturbed..." Xu Huaiyang was still laughing, "You know this, everything starts to get better, but you start to retreat Do you feel it?"

Fang Mian frowned: "Stop talking..."

"If something happens to my dad and my mom reconciles with him, it's impossible for me not to help, and I can't do it." Xu Huaiyang's voice trembled a little, "Do you know how much debt my family has to pay?"

"It's not impossible to go bankrupt overnight, but I don't know why it happened to me."

"Why am I so unlucky..."

Fang Mian heard his voice getting quieter, and didn't know what to do, so she could only lean forward and hug him gently.

Xu Huaiyang's mood is very strange, it seems that one second he can laugh and talk, but the next second he will completely lose his voice.

Then it took a nosedive.

He had hardly seen Xu Huaiyang cry.

But now, he heard a very small gasp.

Fang Mian was a little startled.

In his impression of getting along with Xu Huaiyang since he was a child, Xu Huaiyang after his parents divorced has always been the image of the rich young master who was doing nothing and didn't care about anything.He is never domineering, but he doesn't care about anything, and even studying is just learning to play and he can get to the top of the exam.

But sometimes, he could see the emotion in Xu Huaiyang's eyes, which was like a shooting star, fleeting.

When it comes to getting along with people, Cai Zhan is superficial that strangers should not enter, while Xu Huaiyang directly installs layers of fences and barbed wire in his heart to lock all his emotions inside, and few people can really go in.

Does it really matter?

"Why don't you want me..."

He still remembers Xu Huaiyang standing on the roof of the school building in junior high school, crying and telling him.That was the first time he saw Xu Huaiyang cry.

The child who was abandoned by both parties when the husband and wife divorced will never heal the scar in his heart for the rest of his life.After living alone for a few years, his life was once again related to the parents. He couldn't imagine how Xu Huaiyang was feeling now.

Why did no one want me back then, but now when I want to move forward, they all hold me back?

The grievances and unwillingness accumulated over the years, the loss and loneliness of living alone, and the fear of being at a loss for the future seem to erupt in an instant.

Then Xu Huaiyang... cried.

Before Fang Mian could react, he suddenly realized that Xu Huaiyang's inhalation turned into a silent cry, and then a vocal cry...Finally, Fang Mian felt his left shoulder wet.

The traffic outside was so loud that even the sound of the bus stop announcement could be heard clearly.

Old dust has accumulated on the old green screen windows, and the night light of the city comes in through the window, and it also becomes gray.

cry.

Just finish crying.

I don't know how long it took, Fang Mian didn't dare to talk to him, but finally felt that Xu Huaiyang stopped crying, and his mood gradually stabilized.

"Fang Mian, I dreamed about a train last night."

After a while, he suddenly spoke, his voice still had the nasal sound of just crying, muffled.

"Huh?" Fang Mian was taken aback.

"I was walking on the Gobi Desert. I couldn't see the front and the back, and my eyes were full of endless sand and soil." Xu Huaiyang sat up straight, his expression had returned to calm except for the red eyes and nose.

"I walked for a long time... I don't know how long, a train passed by. I ran and ran, caught up with it, and jumped on it." Xu Huaiyang took out a piece of paper and blew his nose, " The car kept going forward, and the surrounding scenery didn't move, and I didn't know how long it would take."

"I thought there was someone in the car, but there was no one from the beginning to the end. I thought there was a purpose, but Gobi is still Gobi. I haven't been driving for a long time."

Fang Mian was silent, looking at him.

"Fang Mian," Xu Huaiyang threw the paper down, "Say, should I jump out of the car?"

The author has something to say: I'm so sleepy... The update is late today because of some things.

Don't catch bugs now, I'm going to sleep.

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Alas, I don't know what to say after writing this chapter.

I'll finish it as soon as possible, it's so distressing.