Through Memories and Sakaki

I haven't seen him for several days in a row, and I will always be in a daze during class.Even the teachers started to have trouble with me.At first, some teachers just reminded me to concentrate in class, while some were so angry that they asked me to go up to answer questions, but then they just let me go down with gritted teeth, and could only tell me to "concentrate in class".

I don't know what's wrong with me, I always look out the window, and my mind has disappeared.I didn't know the reason until he appeared in front of me again.It seems that Sakaki is an indispensable "friend" to me.The first time I saw him that day, I saw him standing alone in a remote place, thinking about something, frowning all the time.I will take the initiative to approach him.Because, frowning, he is not good-looking.Moreover, his lonely back made me feel very distressed.

This time he used the music teacher as an excuse to discuss some things in Qingxue, and one of them that I couldn't think of was that the real reason he came here was to see me.

"Sakaki? Why are you here?" I looked at Sakaki in front of me with wide eyes and asked in surprise.

"Come and see you." Is it only Sakaki in front of me who said this without blushing?Even saying something that is normal.But as a listener, I was not so calm.

"So good? Sakaki came to see me?" I hid the discomfort on my face, and after I calmed down, I looked at him with a smile on my face.I didn't have the discomfort just now, but for Sakaki, he has seen all kinds of people in the mall, so he naturally knows my discomfort very clearly.

"Yeah." The short words calmed down my messy heart. "Does Zero have time tonight? I invite you to dinner."

"Oh? Of course it's good. It's a good thing if someone treats you. Hehe."

After the dinner, we exchanged contact information.Sakaki would text me every night, and over time, this greeting has become a habit for both of us.The unremarkable words, full of care and concern, made me feel inexplicably heartwarming and inexplicably warm.

Sometimes Sakaki would show up directly at the door of my apartment, and he knew everything about me.He didn't say anything, and I didn't ask.Until the summer vacation, he even showed up downstairs in the apartment every day, telling me that he hung up the phone directly after he was downstairs.

"Sakaki, aren't you dating your girlfriend?" I knew he didn't have a girlfriend, but I somehow wanted to confirm it.I wonder if I'm a third person people call me or a really good friend.But, I don't want him to say that he has a girlfriend. I'm really conflicted.

"I don't have a girlfriend." At that time, Sakaki said to me very sincerely.

"Eh? No way? Sakaki is very handsome, why doesn't he have a girlfriend?" I was very happy because he said he didn't have a girlfriend.Am I selfish?

"Will Zero be my girlfriend?"

Obviously, it was very rare for him to say this sentence, but I still flinched in the end.I still remember that I just smiled there and didn't answer his words. His eyes were distressed and disappointed.But I know all this, but I don't have the courage to accept it.He's... so good...

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