Motivated and new

It was a bad year, and after less than two days of silence, the news that Shangjin's new defendant was brought to court came out again, setting off a new round of public opinion turmoil.

All the courses of Shangjinxin have been suspended, all the lecturers have been involved in this lawsuit, and the students can help as much as they can.

But Bu Yishu didn't know anything about these things.He had been kept at home and was not allowed to go to class before, so he didn't know that Shang Jinxin had suspended classes.

The most important thing is that he has completely devoted himself to the creation of comics, and it is not an exaggeration to say that he forgets to eat and sleep.Every day, I wish my mind would be filled with paintings instead of thinking about other things, and I have no time to pay attention to the information on the Internet.

Yang Lanxin still visited Bu Yishu from time to time, but she was sensible enough not to bring up new things, not to mention that Bu Yishu was so busy that he didn't care about her at all.

In this way, soon, autumn and winter came. It seemed that yesterday I was wearing a short-sleeved T-shirt, but today I was wearing a cotton coat. The winter in the south is always cold, and I never say hello.

The comic that Bu Yishu and Yang Lanxin worked together finally came to an end today.

After all, it is the first work, and the short story was designed at the beginning, plus Bu Yishu has been struggling day and night for more than a month, it is difficult to think about it endlessly.

Speaking of which, ever since Bu Yishu devoted himself wholeheartedly to this comic, the click-through rate has skyrocketed. As of today's end, it is already No.1 on the newcomer list.

Naturally, their income has also risen with the tide, which is equal to Bu Yishu's previous half-year salary in the factory.However, Bu Yishu himself also lost a lot of weight, which made Bu Yiqin's heart ache.

For more than a month, Bu Yishu has followed like a demon. No matter how Bu Yiqin and the others persuade him to eat more and rest, it is useless, and they don't even talk to him, let alone ask what's wrong with him.

Bu Yiqin felt as if he had returned to the two years when his brother had just dropped out of school and went to work, and it was also like this that he could not communicate at all.He didn't answer the phone calls, and occasionally ended the call after less than a minute, and didn't go home during the Chinese New Year. No matter how worried he was, it was useless.

The difference now is that his brother is at their house, under her nose, but they are still helpless.

While hard work is not a bad thing, there is something obviously wrong with his whole person.Compared with the previous self-defeating and disgusting, he is more worrying now.Such depression is not as good as the previous mediocrity.

Bu Yiqin knew that it had something to do with going out to the party that night, and she also speculated that it was a broken relationship, but she had no way of knowing what it was.Asked his classmate Yang Lanxin, they all said they didn't know, and the new lecturers were overwhelmed.

"Come on, eat more fruit." Today it was rare to see that Bu Yishu didn't go back to the room after sending Xin Xin to the kindergarten. Bu Yiqin hurriedly washed the fruit and brought it to the living room, planning to find a chance to have a chat.

Bu Yishu took the apple handed by the elder sister, and while eating, he began to think about how to open his mouth and come out to the elder sister.

Yes, yes, coming out!

After being silent for such a long time, Bu Yishu also knew that his appearance would make people worry.He also thought a lot last night, and finally decided to come out.

First of all, Bu Yiqin and the others obviously already knew about his sexual orientation, they probably just didn't want to accept it.Then it is better to say it directly, whether you accept it or not, it is a fact.

Secondly, whether it is for himself or for Teacher Yi, he should take this step bravely.Only by taking this step will it be possible to gain understanding and even support.

In the end, his goal this year is to change himself so that he can no longer be the same as before.Coming out of the closet can be said to be the biggest breakthrough in his life. After all, the turning point in his life is because of this sexual orientation issue.

The siblings were wondering where to start the conversation, and there was no noise in the living room except for the sound of eating fruit.

"Sister, I think you've guessed it. Actually, I like men." In the end, Bu Yishu spoke first, and said it directly.

Bu Yiqin frowned, she had guessed that Bu Yishu would say this, but when he heard him say it himself, she still instinctively resisted: "Why, can't it be changed?"

Bu Yishu wiped his face, leaned on the sofa and said helplessly, "I can't change it. I've tried it many times. It's been five years, but it didn't work. I don't respond to women at all."

"But……"

"Sister, listen to me first, do you all want to know why I chose to drop out of school a week before the college entrance examination?"

"Well, you said."

"I was really cowardly and lacked self-confidence, and I was under a lot of pressure at that time, but it was mainly because I found out that I liked a male student in my class, and I was very scared..."

Bu Yiqin listened quietly. Their family had never thought of the reason for this.Basically, I think it's because his ability to bear is too poor. Even if there are other reasons, what I can think of is that he has been preached by his parents and sisters at home all the time, and the various requirements for his son to become a dragon are caused by being in a depressive environment for a long time. rebellious.

She couldn't imagine how scared and helpless Bu Yishu was at that time, so that he ran away directly.After escaping, he wandered alone for five years, with no one to confide in, no one to help him, and even ridiculed and disgusted by the people around him.Even the family members are saying that he is not able to support the wall with mud, and scolding him for being worthless.

But if you think about it in your own shoes, you may not be able to do well in the face of such pressure.And he has been struggling alone for so many years, and it is normal to become more and more depraved. It is already a good result to be able to live well to this day without going crazy or blackening.

After listening to Bu Yishu's description, the living room fell into silence again. It was not until Chen Chen's cry after waking up came from the room that Bu Yiqin left the living room to hug his youngest son.

Afterwards, Bu Yishu told Bu Yiqin about some things he had learned during his career, including what he had learned during his career, his liking for Teacher Yi, and being rejected when he confessed to Teacher Yi, etc.

After the siblings finished chatting, it was time for lunch again.

In the afternoon, Bu Yishu was invited by Yang Lanxin to visit Cheng Hao's new restaurant.It is said that during the days when there are no classes, Cheng Hao has obtained the relevant certificates, and has renovated the new restaurant. After finishing the formalities, he can pick a good and auspicious day to open the restaurant.

But Bu Yiqin told Luo Yufeng and Bu Yiqi what he had just finished chatting with Bu Yishu in the group at home, and the temporary discussion group became silent after learning the truth.

This silence is actually a kind of tacit approval. What good reason is there to object, even if they are not qualified to object.They just wish him well, and the so-called good for him is more of a kind of harm.

Just like when he was a child, Bu Yishu liked to draw very much, but his parents forcibly refused to let him paint, and he was torn off every picture he drew, and he was scolded as a plaything for losing his ambition.Because they think that children should study hard and get good grades in the test, instead of drawing these useless things.

But from today's point of view, painting can also be a career, and it can also be promising. At least Bu Yishu can support himself by painting now.

Just imagine, if his parents didn't stop Bu Yi from painting and calligraphy, and even encouraged him to do what he likes, would he have made his mark long ago, at least it is certain that he would not be who he is today.

In the same way, they shouldn't stop him now from doing what he likes, chasing who he likes, and finding the life he wants.

The most important thing in life is to be happy. Doing what you like and being with the people you like are more important than anything else. This is a happy life.

As for how to explain to the parents, it's better not to let them know for the time being, let's take a step at a time, and they can help as much as they can at that time.

Sitting on the bus, Bu Yishu felt drowsy, probably because the big stone that had been accumulated in his heart for many years was finally unloaded, and his whole body relaxed.

After getting off the bus, Bu Yishu navigated according to the location and address sent by Cheng Hao, and after walking for about ten minutes, the navigation showed that he had reached his destination.

But Cheng Hao's new store hasn't opened yet, and the name hasn't even been taken yet, so it's naturally not listed, and there are several similar-looking stores on that new street that haven't been listed yet, and Bu Yishu is not sure which one is the right one. yes.

Flipping through the address book while walking, just about to make a phone call to confirm, when she heard Yang Lanxin's loud voice: "Haozi, Yishu hasn't come yet?"

Then came Cheng Hao's voice: "No, you came just in time, you can drink soup, by the way, has the new lawsuit come out with a verdict?"

lawsuit?Bu Yishu wondered if he had heard it wrong, and as soon as he opened the door to enter, he hurriedly asked, "Haozi, Dayang, what lawsuit did you just talk about?"

The store was cleaned up, and the tables and chairs were neatly arranged. Cheng Hao and Yang Lanxin were sitting at a table in the middle drinking soup, and they stared blankly at Bu art book.

"Uh, Yishu is here, come and sit down, I'll get you some soup." Cheng Hao reacted first and slipped away.

Yang Lanxin lowered her head and drank the soup, as if nothing had happened, she sighed after she finished, "Well, the taste is really good, come quickly, Hao Zi, is there any more, give me another bowl." After finishing speaking, she went to the kitchen gone.

Bu Yishu walked in and sat down, took out his mobile phone, and searched the Internet for new and relevant information for the first time in a long time.There was a lot of fuss and a bunch of them were found, regardless of whether they were good or bad, I clicked in one by one to see them.

When Cheng Hao and Yang Lanxin came out with the soup, Bu Yishu basically understood it, but he still had to ask them the specifics, so he showed his phone and said, "What's the matter, tell me?"

Yang Lanxin looked at the phone page in Bu Yishu's hand, and smiled: "Ha, it's actually nothing, it's just a small lawsuit, don't read it, there is everything on the Internet, so can you believe it?"

Cheng Hao put the soup in front of Bu Yishu, and nodded in agreement.

"Really? The small lawsuit can still find so many things up to now? Are you hiding it from me?" Bu Yishu stared at Cheng Hao as he spoke, it's better to pick a soft persimmon.

"Uh, um, Mr. Yi didn't let us tell you..." Cheng Hao was talking, when he saw Yang Lanxin's sharp eyes, he quickly shut up again.