Autobiography of a beast

After returning to the army, life was no different from before.Just after a battle, knocking down the opposing army can give them pause for a while.I returned to the repetitive life of eating, sleeping and training soldiers.However, the difference is that I sent people to start watching the movement in Beijing again. The assassination that night always made me feel anxious.Take the initiative in your own hands, and if you take any action in the future, you can prevent it in advance.

The night before, I came and went in a hurry, and even though I met Xiaolu, I couldn't say anything properly, so I got up early the next morning, took a bag of mung bean cakes that never changed, and went up the mountain again.

From a distance, I saw the "little brother" sitting in front of the slope, frowning and frowning, and I don't know what to think about, staring at the tiptoes in a trance.

Unable to hold back, I smiled slightly and walked towards him.

But this guy's vigilance was too low, he didn't notice it until he stood beside him, no wonder he didn't notice it when he was forced to him with an arrow.It was impossible to expect him to find me actively, so I had to stretch out a hand in front of his eyes, and opened my mouth:

"Why do you always fall into a trance after becoming a human?"

Not only did my sudden appearance frighten him, but he was also frightened by my words. The person in front of him opened his eyes and raised his head to look at me.

"You knew already?!"

"Understood, otherwise why would I give you the mung bean cake." I deliberately gave him a big smile.

"When and how did you know???"

"secret!"

Sure enough, this silly boy still didn't guess that I had seen through his disguise, and his innocent tone really made people want to rub his head.

Ah, so it turns out that he looks like this after becoming a human. His long black hair is simply tied up in a bun, and the rest of his long hair is smoothly draped behind his shoulders. There is a gentleness in his brows and eyes, and his eyes are even darker. It is bright, and it has the agility of being a deer, which makes people unable to help but fall into it at a glance.It's just that such a lovely him, at this moment, there is a little more anger in his eyes, and his slightly puffed cheeks, looking at him can't help but make people want to do something bad...

I realized that my thoughts were becoming more and more dangerous, so I hurriedly interrupted them, not daring to think any further.He simply stopped thinking about it, and sat down next to him, and couldn't help but muttered:

"So you look like this..."

"Sorry to disappoint you!" He replied angrily.

I turned my head to look at him, and seriously said what was in my heart:

"Not at all, imagine the above."

"Should I say thank you..."

"It's not necessary, you grew up like this yourself, so there's no need to thank me."

Well, the talking deer is even more likable.

Although the two of us have not seen each other for a long time, we are not unfamiliar at all.Maybe it's because I never got a response from a deer before, but this time, he was able to talk to me, which made me even more happy.Not only was there nothing to say, but his response aroused my desire to talk.

I talked to him a lot, although he is a talking guy now, but habits are hard to change, so most of the time I still talk, he will occasionally ask a question or give a response to let me know I am listening carefully.

I told him roughly my five years of life and some anecdotes and strange events in Beijing, but I omitted some parts, for example, the matter of my mother asking me to get married.As for why he didn't say anything, I think it's probably because in my opinion, a "child" with his eyes is not suitable to know these things.

Because he looks like he is not very big.Looking at it like this, he involuntarily opened his mouth:

"Hey. How old are you this year?"

"If I'm not talented, I'm probably a few hundred years older than you."

...

I was really shocked, but I didn't doubt his words.I know he is no ordinary deer.

"Then you are..."

"Are you trying to ask what I am?"

"You don't have to describe yourself like that..."

"...I am a deer Shu. You probably haven't heard of it, but it is a real beast. It has lived for hundreds of years... nearly a thousand years. It is too old to remember."

After speaking, as if to prove the authenticity of his words, he patted his sleeves pretending to be old-fashioned.

I couldn't help laughing, but the people around me seemed a little unhappy, so I quickly put away the joke, and then asked seriously:

"Then you've been living here?"

He seemed to be in a daze suddenly, and it took a long time before he opened his mouth to answer:

"Yeah, I've lived here for a long time."

"Is anyone with you?"

"Yes, but I haven't been home all year round." As if thinking of someone, he returned annoyed.

"Oh..." Although it was two very simple questions, when he answered these two questions, people could clearly feel his depression. Seeing the loneliness flashing across his face, I felt a little distressed , with a quick mouth, blurted out:

"It's okay, I will accompany you in the future."

Seeing him looking at me in surprise after speaking, I realized that what I said might be a bit ambiguous, but I didn't want to explain it for no reason.

He took the initiative to change the topic:

"By the way, I have some clues about the assassination last night... Those people are probably from Kyoto..."

"Kyoto?"

"Your Majesty? When I left Beijing, I heard news that he sent people to the north to find something for longevity. Looking at the skills of those people last night, they should have come from the direction of Kyoto."

"For longevity? Who told him that if he catches me, he can live forever?"

"Maybe they don't know yet, they are just trying to find out, but, no matter whether they are sure or not, you still have to be careful."

"Well... But you people are really greedy. You are unwilling to let go of those things outside of you until you die. You want to live forever..."

"Everyone's pursuit is different. I don't want to live forever. I only want the people I care about to spend this life in peace. Don't worry, be safe and happy."

He glanced at me and said with emotion:

"It's really rare to have such an understanding at your age."

In fact, I didn't tell him that at his age, if I didn't look at that face, I would think that I was admiring my transparency if I didn't look at that face. It would be very unsuitable for a young and gentle face to listen.I grumbled twice reluctantly, and told him to be more careful recently, then got up and left.

As the days passed, everything in the army was as usual, and my meetings with Xiaolu also took place regularly as before.

After dealing with the military affairs today, it is time to go and see that guy. Since I came back to see him, if I haven't seen him for a long time, I always worry about it.Occasionally, I would be distracted by thinking about him, and I would feel bored when thinking about it, but I didn't know how to relieve it. It would only feel better when I saw him.

I went up the mountain again with the mung bean cake.It was a coincidence that I ran into that guy in a daze again.

Why does it feel that he seems to be in a daze especially since he became a pedestrian.

Going over and squatting down in front of him, helplessly interrupting his trance and leading him to the hillside.

Today, he is always absent-minded, which makes my heart flutter.Just when I was about to ask him if something happened, I felt the person behind me move.

He carefully stuffed his hand into my palm, and after waiting for a while, he moved his fingers restlessly in my palm as if he couldn't get enough of it.I seem to be very stable on the surface, but in fact, my heart has exploded, and I can't stop thinking about his intentions.

Feeling his movements, after the initial shock, I actually found it a little funny.After waiting for a long time, he didn't see him explaining anything, so he could only speak out slowly, and deliberately lowered his voice, so as not to scare the people behind who were struggling alone:

"What are you looking for?"

The words have already been spoken, although I feel that the tone is very soft and has no special meaning, but the people behind still paused, and after a while of silence, they had the intention of pulling away.

I sensed his intentions, and always felt that I couldn't let him run like this, so I took a step ahead of him, held his hand, and then adjusted my posture, clasping my ten fingers tightly with him, for fear that he would pull out in regret.I don't know why I was so eager to stop him from leaving, I just felt that I should do this, and I couldn't let him just take it away.I must be crazy, I'm playing hooligans with a stag?

After doing this action, I didn't dare to look back at the deer's expression, I pretended to be calm and suppressed the turbulent waves in my heart and continued to walk forward.It's just that our movements have changed from the front and back just now to the current fingers clasping.

I tightened my hands with him, feeling inexplicably happy and satisfied.

I didn't let go of our clenched hands until I reached the slope. The moment I let go, the wind in the forest blew slowly, and my palms were still a little chilly.It was sweating.

I kind of wanted to laugh at myself for being worthless, and I never saw me so nervous when I first went into battle to kill someone.

I sat down in front of the slope, unwrapped the paper wrapped in mung bean cake skillfully as I have done many times, put it on my lap, and took a piece to pass to the person beside me.I was startled again when I raised my head, the man put his head directly in front of my eyes, if I didn't reflexively push back, I'm afraid I would have to kiss him this time.Although it's a pity that I didn't kiss, but...cough cough, what are you thinking.

In order to prevent myself from having some weird thoughts, I quickly returned to my senses and asked:

"What's wrong with you today?" The guy seemed caught off guard by the question, and hurriedly replied:

"Little thing, you don't look bad."

The air is inexplicably awkward...

Fortunately, he immediately realized that something was wrong and asked some serious questions to make up for it, but I dismissed it with a few simple sentences.However, compared to these messy things, what I want to know more is:

"What are you doing today?"

"Ah, don't you think the wind blows people a little chilly, how about we go to the Houshan Hot Spring for a while?"

"Don't worry, tell me first, what do you mean by...the actions you made before?"

He was going around in circles and refused to answer my question directly.I always feel that there are some things that are about to come out but are not very clear. I can only hope that he will give me a happy one.

After hesitating for a long time, he finally replied to me as if he had made up his mind:

"What do you think?"

Is this what you want me to understand?

holding hands... almost kissing...

Um? ? ?Um! ! !Is it what I think it is?

Thinking of this, I was so scared that my heart stopped for a few minutes, and then I quickly recalled his strange actions from the beginning in my mind, and finally found out that I liked it very much, longed for it very much, and even wanted to To go further...

I wasn't surprised by this, just surprised.As if we were supposed to come together naturally like this.

I think I have to respond quickly, otherwise what if he regrets it, this guy is hesitant and timid, it is not easy for him to take the initiative to speak back.But what about military affairs...

"Wait for me for a few more years, until the north is completely powerless to fight back, and when I find a suitable candidate to take my place, I will

Come here and build a log cabin in the woods..."

Seeing his sly smile after speaking, I always blushed, what are you talking about!Why does it sound like I can't wait to spend time with him, I can't help feeling a little annoyed.

Feeling that if I stay any longer, my brain will be burnt out, so I want to leave in a hurry.But no matter what, we just confirmed each other's minds, and I always feel that we should do something when we leave this time.But after all, it was my first time experiencing this, so I was afraid that the deer would be too abrupt, so I hesitated like that guy in my movements.

After standing there for a long time, I made mental preparations, and finally made up my mind to reach out and hug him.

The body with the fragrance of the forest was held in my arms, smelling the familiar smell, my heart felt hot.Thoughts I never had before flooded my heart.

But I swear, I just wanted to hug him.But the person in my arms was far bolder than I thought.I felt my cheeks warm up, as if I had been touched by something soft.

When I figured out what was going on, the heat on my face rose a little bit with a "rub".

Although I have lived for more than [-] years, after all, since I grew up, even my parents have never had such intimate actions, so I am inevitably a little shy.Although there is some color on the face, the heart is sweet and greasy, the kind that always wants to hold the person in her arms tighter, wishing to rub it into the flesh and blood.

I have to admit, I like him a lot.From the first time I saw him, I fell in love with him.

Time passed quickly, but I felt that it was just the blink of an eye.Looking at the getting late sky, it is indeed time to go back.Only then did he loosen his arms, let the person in his arms out a little, and put his foreheads together, as if this could offset the longing for separation.I kissed his forehead and said to him with great reluctance:

"wait for me."