Beginning and ignorance

This kind of discouragement is not a great setback, and it even became one of his most familiar psychological experiences at one time. It's just that when people grow up, rampant love is stuffed into the comfort of adults. His mood was also tucked tightly and seamlessly, so it had no chance to harass him anymore.

He came to Jiang's house when he was six years old, and the first person he saw when he entered the door was Jiang Dongwei.The man was about his age, wearing a suit that only appeared in TV dramas, and his smile was as bright as the sunshine in Toronto that day, clean and bright without dazzling, just like a lovable child from a good family.

He said: "Welcome to our house, I will treat you well in the future!"

This sentence is really friendly, and it largely dispelled his anxiety and uneasiness when he first arrived in a strange environment.

He's been with him for nearly 30 years since that day, and 15 of those years were full of torment; and of those 15 years, seven or eight of those years, he was bruised by that kind of heartbreak -- all his teenage years, he was restless In the longing and deliberate self-imprisonment, he watched Jiang Dongwei, and while he was watching, he felt discouraged and cold.

He has seen him fall in love with people sincerely, and he has also seen him play with people on the spot; he has accompanied him when he was depressed and patient, and he has also comforted him when he was in a state of rage and madness; Yes, it's also him; if the two are at the same level, I'm afraid it will be him who cooperates in the examination room...

Bamboo horse, Fa Xiao, brother, he can take up any words, but he dare not say a word of love.

During the years of silent gazing, hope, disappointment, hopelessness, and despair crushed his heart countless times in turn.He looked at Jiang Dongwei many times, with a simple love on his lips, but a moat in his heart.

That natural barrier has identity, family, environment, self, and Jiang Dongwei's clean eyes with no distracting thoughts every time he looks back at him.He may not be afraid of people's words, and he is not afraid of being kicked out by the Jiang family, but he is afraid that Jiang Dongwei has no distracting thoughts.

And all the discouragement comes from this lack of distracting thoughts.

The most thorough one was probably when I was 16 years old.

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