Ask your heart and soul

Leaving Bar Street, Bai Wan didn't go home, but drove to Blue Harbor instead.

A sea-crossing bridge divides the east and west banks into two worlds, one side is the brightly lit bustling world, and the other side is a deserted land that is inaccessible.

Bai Wan leaned against the front of the car to blow the wind, watching the sky gradually turn pale, and ran through many things in a mess in her mind.

The encounter that night reminded him of his 18-year-old self, who finally left that suffocating and cold home and went all the way north to study.At the welcome party for freshmen, he stood on the stage and sang a classic English song.The noisy students in the audience fell silent the moment he spoke, and looked up at him as if they were looking at a shining star.

Among them, there should be Sui Feng's bright eyes.

Sui Feng was one grade higher than him, and he was already a famous figure in the school in his sophomore year. He formed a band and performed everywhere, very active.But he himself was not a lively and frivolous person. Bai Wan clearly remembered that when the group of them came to find him, it was the drummer Liang Chengzhu who spoke first.

"Handsome guy? Interested in joining our band?"

Sui Feng stood behind Liang Chengzhu, looking at him firmly, as if not worried about being rejected.

But Bai Wan was used to being alone: ​​"Sorry, I'm not interested." He threw his schoolbag over his shoulder and walked over them.

When passing by, Sui Feng opened his mouth.

""Alloutoflove", our band will also sing this song next week, you can come and listen to it, and then decide whether to join or not."

His voice is deep and thick, like a cello, bringing a gentle and reliable feeling.Bai Wan shouldn't have cared, but on the day of the "Mad Eagle Band" performance, she quietly went to the scene.

The chasing light on the stage shone on the few people on the stage like the holy light when the heaven opened, and the sound wave was surging, and the audience sang in unison at the chorus.Bai Wan was surprised to find that the charm of the band was completely different from singing alone on stage.He felt the passion, the communication, and the overwhelming sadness in this song...

When Sui Feng came to look for him again, he came alone.

The two sat on the edge of the roof of the teaching building, overlooking the campus soaked in dusk.

"Our lead singer is graduating soon, and the band needs a new lead singer." Sui Feng said, "We all think you are quite suitable. How about it? Join!"

Bai Wan didn't answer directly, but asked, "You can continue to sing after graduation! Why did he give up?"

"He's going to be a white-collar worker to earn money to support his family. You know, when he enters the society, there are too many things he can't help himself."

Bai Wan shook her head disapprovingly: "If you give up, it means that you are not firm enough. Don't blame the society for everything."

"Then are you firm enough?"

"Of course." Bai Wan replied without thinking.If he is not firm enough, he will not break with the family and come here.

"Then are you confident that you can sing better than our original lead singer?"

"Of course." Bai Wan never doubted her own strength.

"That's good!" A smile appeared on the corner of Sui Feng's mouth, and it was only then that Bai Wan realized that he had fallen for him.

"I will pay you the performance fee. I know you need money to go to college." It turned out that Sui Feng had thoroughly investigated his situation.

"you……"

"Welcome! New lead singer!" Sui Feng stretched out his right hand and looked at Bai Wan with burning eyes. In the afterglow of the setting sun, his expression was so firm and persistent, with a truly undeniable power.

Bai Wan hesitated for a while, and finally took his hand.

Bai Wan did not break his promise.He stayed in the band for seven years, and he continued to persist even after graduation.Didn't look for a job, followed Sui Feng to run around in various performance venues, and stayed at "Open Voice" to earn a pitiful performance fee.Sui Feng's parents no longer support him because of his unrealistic musical dreams.When we were the poorest, a few people huddled in the basement to eat instant noodles and sleep in bunk beds, and couldn't bear to turn on the heating in the cold weather.

But in fact, these hardships are not considered hardships, but because of the music and partners, they seem free and happy.

What really made Bai Wan unbearable was that the relationship between him and Sui Feng had gradually deteriorated during the long time of getting along day and night.

He actually wanted to rely on Sui Feng when he was tired and lost;

He actually understood the eager light in Sui Feng's eyes when he looked at him;

When he saw Cheng Yin acting coquettishly towards Sui Feng, he felt extremely irritable;

When Sui Feng didn't understand his music pursuit, he felt so disappointed.

These feelings made him panic.From childhood to adulthood, a slightly closer relationship will make him feel sticky, bored, and insecure, let alone lose his feelings for himself.He is used to wrapping himself in a thick shell, using meticulous camouflage to face external stimuli, and any behavior that wants to break down the wall and break in makes him resist endlessly.

At the same time, he became more and more demanding on Sui Feng. Coupled with the differences in music concepts, the two often argued and quarreled in the later stage, and even almost fought a few times. The contradiction reached during the "You Listen to Me Sing" competition the highest peak.Bai Wan couldn't take it anymore and signed a contract to fly solo, which was almost an inevitable choice.

The only thing he regrets is that he didn't tell Sui Feng himself, but let him know the news from the media, so he missed the opportunity to explain.

But it doesn't really matter if you explain it or not.

He can never express his true feelings.Once, he read in a book that there is a kind of "container man" in modern society. In order to get rid of loneliness, "container man" hopes to contact others, but this kind of contact is only the collision of the outer wall of the container, and cannot penetrate into the other party's interior.

Maybe he is that kind of person.

After more than a month, Bai Wan never went to "Open Voice" again.Over the past month or so, there have been many troublesome things, and Bai Wan stayed at home to digest them by herself.There is only one thing that he can't let go of.Originally, his new album was scheduled to be released in July.There are many student parties among his fans, and he made it before the summer vacation, and he can also hold a round of national signings during the holidays.But seeing June, among the more than 7 songs received, I couldn't find ten that I was particularly satisfied with, especially no matter which one I chose as the title song, it lacked a little meaning.

Thousands of comments on Weibo, asking questions every day——

"June has come, can July be far behind?"

"Did brother release a new song today? No."

"Don't rush, my brother said it's July, it's July, I can't even hear my Kiss album..."

"You don't have to release new songs, but you can't take selfies!"

"It's been a long time since I saw my brother, hey..."

It wasn't just the fans who were impatient, Liu Kong even ran to his house to urge him: "My ancestor, you haven't shown up for half a year, and you said you were doing a new album in retreat, and now that the new album can't be released, all the fans will run away .”

The music scene is in decline, sales and votes all need die-hard fans, Bai Wan understands Liu Kong's anxiety.But he must be responsible for his own music, and he cannot put an unsatisfactory album online.

Seeing his frowning and stubborn silence, Liu Kong felt that the opportunity had come. He swiped and took out a contract from behind, and put it in front of Bai Wan: "Look, this is a great opportunity to increase exposure."

Bai Wan glanced and saw the big words "Listen to me".

The annual "Listen to Me Sing" large-scale audition has started again, and the program team wants to invite Bai Wan to be a mentor.

If Bai Wan joins, from the player back then to the mentor now, the topic is enough, and it can be hyped immediately.

Bai Wan pushed the contract to Liu Kong: "Not interested."

"Not interested? Didn't you come out of this game?"

Bai Wan smiled coldly: "That's why I don't want to go."

He knows exactly what's tricky about it.At the beginning, there may be a few rounds of sea elections, but later on, more and more factors need to be considered for promotion. Those who can really get a good ranking all have signed a contract and have a background.Back then, if he hadn't signed Jincheng Entertainment wisely, he wouldn't have won the championship.Therefore, what kind of bullshit mentors and "return to music, revive the music world" are just gimmicks of the show.Singers perform on stage, mentors perform off stage, they are all actors, and everything bows to capital.

Bai Wan didn't want to sit there like a fool and be manipulated by others.

"You can't do it if you don't go! This is the meaning of President Su." Liu Kong moved out the imperial decree, "Our China Overseas Music also sponsored this time, and recommended you and Fu Ye to be mentors. You are responsible for showing the strength of our company, and he is responsible for Go digging newcomers. If you have a good seedling, hurry up and start, and we can't let Jincheng Entertainment take the lead."

"... Fu Ye?" Bai Wan's mind flashed that unruly face, "Are you sure Fu Ye will go?"

"Whether he's going or not, you'll know if you go?" Liu Kong suggested, "Anyway, you don't have any clues about your new album, why don't you go and meet Fu Ye in person, maybe he will see the light you radiate on the show, Agreed to write a song for you?"

"...Didn't you say you won't look for him?"

"Who told you to look like you must have him." Liu Kong hated iron and steel, "Also, even if he still disagrees, you can ask yourself why, lest he find some excuses to perfuse us."

"..." For the first time, Bai Wan felt that what his unreliable manager said had some truth.

Two weeks later, the first episode of "Listen to Me Sing" was officially recorded on MediaAsia Satellite TV.

Among the four mentors, besides Bai Wan and Fu Ye, there are senior music critic Chen Xiaosheng and veteran singer Ye Ninghuan.

The lounges of the mentors are separated, and Bai Wan arrived a little later in the traffic jam. When passing by the room with Fu Ye's nameplate, the door suddenly opened, and a person came out with big strides.

Tall and imposing, he wore a dark gray bomber jacket.The hair is shaved so that the blue-gray scalp can be seen, and the face is more sharp and profound, like a knife and an ax chisel.He held an unlit cigarette between his bony fingers, and his body exuded a strong smell of male hormones, like a Hong Kong gangster who came out of a Hong Kong movie.

"..."

Is this a close encounter? !

Faye Wong's ethereal voice sounded inexplicably in Bai Wan's mind: "We will meet each other on a narrow road in our lifetime, and we will not be spared in the end."

He subconsciously took a step back.

But Liu Kong hurriedly stepped forward and said, "Mr. Fu is good."

Fu Ye looked over with a condescending gaze, and nodded lightly: "Hello."

His indifferent appearance immediately reminded Bai Wan of the scene when they first met.

That time, Bai Wan originally went to find Ye Chengen, but Ye Chengen brought him to Fu Ye's recording studio.As soon as she entered, Bai Wan was stunned. The female singer who had always been burdened with being an idol was crying, and she couldn't make a sound.Fu Ye, on the other hand, had a cigarette in his mouth and tuned his tunes with his earphones on the side.

Ye Chengen curled his lips in the outer room and shook his head: "I cried again."

"Does he do that often?"

"how?"

"Cry the singer?"

"Crying?" Ye Chengen knew that Bai Wan had misunderstood, and smiled, "It's not crying, it's because he can always find out the soft spot of other people's emotions, and poke at the softest part of their hearts, allowing singers to vent their emotions and develop their abilities to the fullest."

Bai Wan asked suspiciously: "But in this way, can you still sing a good song?"

"Of course." Ye Chengen said, looking at the time on his phone, "However, today is probably going to be recorded until the early morning."

Seeing that Fu Ye couldn't finish for a while, Ye Chengen wanted to change the time.However, Bai Wan was reluctant to leave in a strange way.He admitted that he would jump from Jincheng to China Overseas, largely because China Overseas Entertainment has a producer like Fu Ye.At that time, he also thought that Fu Ye would look at him differently, so he waited from evening to early morning.

After Fu Ye finished his work, when he came out and saw the album he handed over, he was surprised, and a dark light flashed in his eyes.

"I've heard all your songs, so don't send them to me."

Bai Wan had only seen Fu Ye in photos and videos before, and felt that Fu Ye was indeed handsome and unruly as his name suggests.But facing the real person at that moment, I felt a terrifying strong aura even more deeply.

"This is a collector's edition, with my signature inside." Bai Wan said politely and cautiously, "Please give me some pointers, Mr. Fu, and write more good songs for me in the future."

Fu Ye's dark eyes stared at Bai Wan for a long while, making him feel uncomfortable. Then he took the album and smiled lightly: "I accept the album with a smile. But forget about writing songs, I'm afraid it will delay you."

"How come?" Bai Wan thought he was being polite at the time, and Ye Chengen laughed too, saying that Bai Wan's first album in Zhong Hai must be done by Fu Ye.

Unexpectedly, after repeated invitations were rejected, Bai Wan found out that Fu Ye was serious, and he really didn't want to write songs for him, let alone be a producer.

But why?

Now standing in front of Fu Ye, he really wanted to ask himself: "Why?"

Before he could speak, Fu Ye spoke first: "Do you have anything to do?"

Only then did Bai Wan realize that he was blocking Fu Ye's way face to face. He quickly turned sideways, his eyes flashed, and he noticed that there was a small red earring on Fu Ye's left earlobe, like a lovesick red bean, or like a A glaring drop of blood.

Why didn't I find out before?

Bai Wan quickly reviewed the concert he saw a while ago, and determined that Fu Ye didn't have pierced ears at that time, so it was done later.

He was thinking wildly, when suddenly someone bumped into him, and Liu Kong was trying to wink at him.

Bai Wan: "..."

"Say it!" Liu Kong urged with a voice.

"..."

For some reason, Bai Wan was always overwhelmed by Fu Ye's aura, and what she wanted to say was suppressed in her throat.He had invited others to be a lobbyist for several invitations before.

Could it be that the producer of Fu Da felt that he was insincere?

"I didn't expect you to take on this show."

"?" Bai Wan suddenly came back to her senses, and looked at Fu Ye.

"Because of me?"

"What?" Bai Wan thought she had heard wrong.

"Didn't you come here because you wanted to ask me to sing?"

"..." Now, not only Bai Wan, but even Liu Kong was shocked.

"You hesitated for so long, aren't you afraid that I will refuse again?"

"..." Bai Wan finally recovered her voice and looked directly at him, "So will you refuse?"

Fu Ye took a deep look at him. This young singer who had quickly become famous was desolate and indifferent, but he had a stubbornness that refused to admit defeat, and he couldn't help but want to suppress him again and again.He had never seen this kind of vigor in Jiang Zhiming, who said they were alike?Nothing like it at all.

They don't look alike, they don't sing alike, and they don't behave alike.

However, he hasn't been so interested in a singer for a long time.

"Guess." Fu Ye raised the corner of his mouth and shook the cigarette in his hand, "Guess slowly, I'm going to smoke first, see you later."