Ask your heart and soul

When Bai Wan woke up, he was in the emergency room of the local hospital. He was startled by the person guarding the bed.

The man's tall body was bent, sitting on a small bench, facing him, but his head was deeply lowered, motionless like a statue, as if he was asleep.

Looking at him, Bai Wan didn't know what it was like, she wanted to wake him up but couldn't bear it, but letting him guard like this made her feel even more uneasy.

He closed his eyes and simply didn't look at him.A few seconds later, he opened it again, sighed softly, and called out, "Fu Ye..."

"Are you awake?" Fu Ye raised his head in a jerk, his face was a little tired, but he still smiled, "You have a fever, the wound on your hand is deep and bleeding a lot, but you're fine now."

Only then did Bai Wan realize that her right hand was wrapped like a rice dumpling, and a needle was inserted into the back of her left hand, which was connected to a hanging bottle.

"You sent me here?"

Fu Ye nodded: "Take a good rest, and you will recover soon after you rest."

There was a different kind of pity and tenderness in his tone, which made Bai Wan's heart tremble.He wondered if a sick person would become very fragile, and a little care would be infinitely magnified.

However, this is after all drinking poison to quench thirst.

Bai Wan made up her mind and said, "I'm fine, go and rest."

"It's okay." Fu Ye said, "I just squinted for a while, and I'm not sleepy now."

"..."

The two suddenly fell into an awkward silence.

After a long while, Bai Wan said softly: "I'm sorry, I was too impulsive, and I still need you to save me in the end." He was very upset, because of his incompetence and helplessness.In fact, he understood very well that what Fu Ye scolded him before was justified.Bai Wan couldn't help but shudder when she thought of Fu Ye giving him his compressed air bottle in the water and risking his life to save him.

Fu Ye shook his head, hesitant to speak.Suddenly, he stretched out his hand to Bai Wan, and for a moment Bai Wan thought he was going to touch her, her heart beat uncontrollably.But Fu Ye's hand just fell on his neck, and tucked him up: "It's none of your business, I should have come up earlier. Don't think too much about it, go to sleep."

Fu Ye's voice seemed to have a magical power, and Bai Wan fell into a coma again without knowing it.

When Bai Wan woke up again, the fever subsided, and after two nights of sleep, his body seemed to be full of energy, and his spirit was much better.The local hospital felt that he could go back for observation, so Fu Ye took him back to the hotel and sent him to the door of the room.

"Can you do it alone?" Looking at Bai Wan's slightly pale face, Fu Ye was still a little worried.

"OK."

"Is it inconvenient to hurt your right hand?"

"Don't underestimate me." Bai Wan raised his left hand and shook it, "One hand is enough."

Seeing him like this, like a kitten with one paw trying to be brave, Fu Ye couldn't help laughing: "Okay, then be careful yourself, and call me if you have any inconvenience."

"Ah."

Bai Wan closed the door, but didn't close it, she opened it secretly, watching Fu Ye's back as he left.

He kept watching him walk around the corner of the corridor and disappear completely before returning to the room with peace of mind and disappointment.

He didn't want to do anything, he lay on the bed staring at the ceiling in a daze, the sea breeze from the balcony came in fiercely, blowing his thoughts into a mess.There are more things happening on this vacation than in the past month, especially in these two days, diving, being in danger, getting out, going to the hospital... It's like a dream.Bai Wan could clearly feel a new change in his relationship with Fu Ye, but he couldn't tell whether the change was good or bad.

On the surface, the relationship between him and Fu Ye has eased. He can see that Fu Ye's attitude towards him is gentle and even gentler. They should be regarded as friends, or the kind of special friends who know each other's secrets and have experienced life and death. .However, if you ask yourself, his feelings for Fu Ye are not just friends, but at some point, he actually had some unrealistic thoughts.

Maybe it started with that ridiculous dream, maybe even earlier.Bai Wan forced herself to recall the nervousness, panic, and eagerness to prove himself when he faced Fu Ye. Was it the beginning of this relationship?If this is the case, then you are a shaker, right?Obviously that person didn't have a good face when he sneered at him at first, but he still plunged into it hotly.Bai Wan thought sadly that maybe he was too insecure in his heart and needed a strong and independent person to lead him out of the predicament. He must have looked up to Fu Ye from the beginning.And Fu Ye's intermittent hotness and occasional warmth made him worry about gains and losses and almost collapsed. When he woke up, he was already in deep trouble.

But, will Fu Ye fall in love with him?This is simply a fantasy, even more absurd than that dream.At the beginning, Bai Wan was rather unconvinced that he had nothing to compare with Jiang Zhiming, but now it seems that he is really inferior to Jiang Zhiming in everything.

At least Jiang Zhiming has Fu Ye's love. On this point, he has completely lost.

Bai Wan smiled bitterly, love is really something that cannot be touched, even his pretended self-confidence will be broken.

But this time, will he escape?

Can he escape?Is he going to repeat the old trick again, leaving Zhong Hai and Fu Ye?

Bai Wan felt conflicted in his heart.

At this time, the doorbell of the room rang.

Bai Wan went to open the door suspiciously, and Fu Ye stood outside.

"you?"

"After much deliberation, you should live with me." Fu Ye said, "You can't get your hands wet, and it's inconvenient to do anything. It's better to have someone to take care of you. My side is a suite, so it doesn't matter if you live there."

Bai Wan was taken aback, and subconsciously wanted to refuse.

However, Fu Ye looked at him very seriously, his eyes were deep and flowing, and the sincerity in his eyes was unprecedented.Seeing him like this, Bai Wan couldn't say "don't bother me".

He lived with Fu Ye obsessively, thinking that there are only a few days left for the holiday anyway, so he can do it as he pleases.

Bai Wan guessed right, Fu Ye really booked a garden suite, which not only has a living room and bedroom, but also a small kitchen.

That night Fu Ye cooked porridge for him in the small kitchen.

"Your hand is injured and you can't eat seafood. You should drink more porridge these days."

Bai Wan took the bowl, the porridge was warm, neither hot nor cold, neither runny nor thick, he knew Fu Ye could cook, but he never thought that he could cook a bowl of lean meat porridge so well.

"Drink it. Or you can tell me what else you want to eat, except spicy and seafood, everything else is fine."

Bai Wan was flattered and quickly shook her head: "No, thank you."

Fu Ye smiled: "Relax, we are friends now, aren't we?"

The word "friend" pierced Bai Wan's heart, making him speechless.

In the next few days, Fu Ye really changed his ways to cook rice and porridge for Bai Wan; when it was inconvenient to take a bath, Fu Ye would stay outside the bathroom, handing him clothes and towels.Sometimes they watch movies and listen to music together, and sometimes they go out for a walk on the beach of the hotel, and they really start to enjoy a leisurely vacation.

Bai Wan felt that she was living in a dream these days and didn't want to wake up at all.He had never been taken care of so meticulously by anyone. If Fu Ye wanted to treat someone well, no one could resist him.

Bai Wan suddenly envied Jiang Zhiming again, but only envy, not jealousy.People can only be jealous of people who are on the same level as themselves, Jiang Zhiming is too far away in the clouds, he can't even be jealous.What's more, he knew that the dream must wake up after all.

Suhuan Island is like a paradise, there is no conflict of right and wrong, no past, just the two of them, simply getting along.Bai Wan finally understood why he felt that Fu Ye was different when he was here, maybe this was the real him, and those cold, arrogant, tough, and ruthless were just a habitual disguise in front of others.In a place that no one knows, people will remove those disguises and get closer to the truth.Just like himself, he finally obeyed his own will and greedily enjoyed this short-lived tenderness.

Because he knew that if he left here, he would be beaten back to his original shape, so he dared to indulge once.

Once, just once.

Time flies, Bai Wan's hand is almost healed, and the holiday is almost over.

Liu Kong made several phone calls to urge him, saying that Su Xu had picked up several activities for him and asked him to come back quickly.Fu Ye also started to deal with work matters. Fu Ye told him that in the end, the film crew of "The House of Wind and Rain" adopted a compromise method. He still sang the theme song, but "Looking for" was given to Cheng Yin.

Bai Wan had no objection to this result.He had given up on this project a long time ago, and it was a surprise to be able to sing the theme song.

It's just that he was a little concerned about Fu Ye's evaluation of Cheng Yin's "Looking for".

"He tried too hard on this song," Fu Ye said, "It's too full of emotion, it's very touching at first listen, but after listening to it for a long time, it's hard for listeners to accept it."

Bai Wan also listened to this song, and he had to admit that Fu Ye was right. Cheng Yin seemed to lose control during the singing, crying blood every sentence. Bai Wan knew Cheng Yin's interpretation method very well. It was concluded that Cheng Yin must have suffered some emotional blow.

Is it because of Sui Feng?

That night, Bai Wan unexpectedly dreamed of Cheng Yin and Sui Feng again.

He hadn't had such a dream for a long time, maybe Cheng Yin's singing evoked his memories, he dreamed of the sweetness and sourness of the past, as well as the quarrels and breakups afterwards.

Because of this dream, Baiwan slept very restlessly.

Fu Ye has been sleeping in the living room for the past few days. He has always been a light sleeper. When he woke up in the middle of the night to pour water, he suddenly heard a little movement in Bai Wan's room.

He thought for a while, put down the water glass, and walked in gently.

After taking two steps, he stepped on something.Taking a closer look, he found that it was a small notebook that slipped out of the trouser pocket that Bai Wan put on the chair.Fu Ye bent down to pick it up, and felt that the book looked very familiar.He remembered that Bai Wan was drunk before, and he didn't bring his mobile phone keys, but he brought this notebook.

Is there any important secret in it?

In the past, Fu Ye didn't even bother to spy on these things, but now he couldn't help but wonder what Bai Wan wrote.

He went to the window and opened the first page. There was nothing but some messy lines.

After turning a few more pages, I saw Bai Wan's handwriting by the moonlight.

Bai Wan's handwriting is like his own, cold and thin, long and thin, but the emotions he writes are very intense.Fu Ye never expected that he would see the words that complained about himself on it.Every sentence is his "crime", and he wrote it for three pages.

Fu Ye couldn't help laughing. Seeing these complaints, it should be when "You listen to me singing" was his mentor.At that time, he still thought that Bai Wan was quite capable of pretending and being tolerant, but now it seems that the words in this book are his real thoughts.

But was he that bad back then?

Fu Ye reflected on himself. At that time, Bai Wan kept asking him to write songs, but he not only refused, but also teased him again and again, helping him and suppressing him. It was really bad.

Fu Ye touched his nose guilty, and continued to turn backwards.

Afterwards, there was a large blank area, occasionally interspersed with some lines that Fu Ye couldn't understand. He guessed that it was Bai Wan's chaotic thoughts and some emotions that he couldn't sort out.In this way, he turned to the last page. The last page seemed to be written today, and the handwriting was very new. Fu Ye saw Sui Feng's name, followed by a big period.

Why is it Sui Feng? !

Fu Ye's heart seemed to be stabbed, and a strange emotion surged out.

What is their relationship?Fu Ye asked Cheng Yin and read some gossip on the Internet, but Bai Wan never admitted it. Fu Ye remembered very clearly that Bai Wan said that he had never liked anyone.

Thinking of this, Fu Ye shook his head, feeling quite ridiculous.

He admits that he cares about Bai Wan, but why should he care so much about who Bai Wan likes?Isn't being a significant friend enough?Could he really let go of Jiang Zhiming and love another person?

For the first time in his life, Fu Ye, who was always confident, couldn't find the answer.

He couldn't help but look at Bai Wan on the bed.

Bai Wan lay on her side, arched her body, and curled herself into a ball.I heard that this position is the position of the fetus in the womb, which makes people feel very safe.But under the moonlight, Bai Wan's brows were tightly frowned, and she still couldn't sleep soundly.

Fu Ye put down his notebook, walked over lightly, and helped him cover the quilt.

Bai Wan dishonestly turned over, the quilt was thrown off, revealing a large white chest.

Suddenly, Fu Ye noticed that there seemed to be something on his chest, and carefully pulled his vest away. Fu Ye was shocked to find that it turned out to be a snail.

The little snail lay on Bai Wan's chest with two thin tentacles, shining faintly in the moonlight.

Like a sacred totem.

Fu Ye had never seen anyone tattoo a snail on his body, but at that moment, he found that there was nothing more suitable for Bai Wan than a snail.

Not a pitiful rabbit, nor a proud kitten.

It's a snail with a heavy shell on its back, but trying to climb up.

At that moment, his heart turned into water.