Adventures in Shura Field

It hurts...everywhere, especially the hands, it hurts.

Zhizaki was in a daze. He felt that he should be in the hospital. What happened before was a bit vague, but he vaguely remembered Kagawa yelling: "My Icarus!!!"It's really annoying.What is your Icarus, what is your Icarus? ?Ah, Icarus...is the name of the prosthetic he made...

"You know Mr. Chisaki? Icarus is my brainchild, one of my favorite works over the years."

Kagawa's broken thoughts still came from his ears.

"I gave him to you because you, an idiot, can lose your own hand. I did it for Miss Youxiang. I don't want to use my favorite work for you! Because you will definitely lose it." Break it! Definitely! And this is the second time!"

It's so noisy. Who took this fool away? !

"You bad guy! Bad guy! I should have known from the beginning that you are a person who doesn't know how to cherish, and you can't appreciate high-end art like bionic prosthetics at all!! I want to take revenge on you!!"

Ah? ?

"I'm going to modify Icarus so that it has the ability to self-explode, and it will explode as soon as it gets close to you. Oh no, let's hit it on you and set it to self-destruct randomly. That's right. Then as soon as it gets close to Miss Youxiang, It will automatically make the manatee call."

ah? ?Who the hell is going to stop him!Don't install weird things on me! !

"That's it. I'll go collect the materials of the manatee first. It just so happens that this is the seaside, so I must be able to find the manatee. Just wait for me, I will avenge my Icarus!!"

come back to me! !

With this thought in mind, Zhisaki woke up with a start.He looked around, then heaved a sigh of relief.Is it a dream?Or is it a memory from before?have no idea.But here is a ward in the hospital, and there is no one around.He sat up on the bed, feeling a stabbing pain in his abdomen, and he looked, there was a bandage there.He suddenly remembered the battle not long ago, and the blurry picture in front of him suddenly became clearer than it was then, and he remembered what he had done.

In the end...what did I do...

He couldn't think about why that happened at the time.He only remembered that he attacked Youxiang, wanting to kill her, mercilessly attacking her more than once.Even when she put down the sword and looked at him with pleading eyes, she couldn't stop.Because at that time I couldn't see at all, I couldn't see anything clearly... There was only one thought in my heart, which was revenge.

Take revenge on this world, take revenge on this world that made Youxiang sad, sad, and cry.But now he understood.

The only one who made her sad, sad, and cry was herself.

Zhisaki's breathing was a little disordered, he supported his head, but when he grabbed his hair, he felt something was wrong with his hands.He looked at his left hand carefully, this... this is not... wait a minute.This is not a prosthetic? !This is my...hand?How can it be……

He looked sad and disbelieving, but finally made sure that his hand was really his own.He tried to disassemble and reorganize the cup on the nightstand.He very smoothly turned a cylindrical glass into a round glass ball.The sphere rolled to the ground and shattered with a snap.The sound made him more sober and sadder.

Gotta get out of here.

There was only one thought in his mind.Anyway, get out of here first.I don't know why, there is no reason, he just wants to escape all this.Don't want to face it, don't want to think about everything I've done.It's not important anymore, it's all, it's not important anymore.it's all over.

Right, this is the end of my beautiful dream, and everything will return to the original.But that's okay, enough is enough.Enough is really enough.Because it is enough for a person like me to have such a dream.What are you still asking for?What are you still longing for?You're just a scum anyway.You get nothing, it's a matter of course.

He walks out of the ward.It feels like the wound in the abdomen is opening.I should have cured it, or did it fail to fix it when the consciousness was reorganized in a trance at that time, and it cracked again?never mind.He doesn't care at all.He let the blood ooze out, he just wanted to find a place where no one was there, he wanted to escape from all of this.

Calm down, and then you can always find a way.Because I was the only one before, no matter what method, no matter whether it is correct or not, I can always find it.Surely now.I'm sorry Youxiang, I don't have the courage to look into your eyes again, I'm sorry...and then...

Thank you for giving me such a dream.I... I still miss it even now, and I still suffer from it.sorry.

I am a useless man.It's not worth anything you do for me.

Even laughing at me is not worth it.

I don't know where I went.But there is the smell of disinfectant.Is it a morgue?No, it shouldn't be.It's like a disinfection room or something.But he couldn't walk anymore, and Jisaki sat on the ground against the wall.His stomach was bleeding, but right now he didn't want to heal that wound.It was the last thing Youxiang left for herself, even if it was a wound, even if it would kill her, she didn't want it to disappear.

"Found you?"

After an unknown amount of time, Zhizaki was about to pass out.But he woke up when he heard the sound.He wanted to run away, but his body hurt so much that he couldn't stand up, so he could only smile wryly: "Don't appear in front of me, Youxiang. I finally made up my mind and never see you again."

"That's it, then I'm leaving."

"Don't...don't go! Really...do I have to beg you? I'm a repair teacher, I was set up by someone! Don't do this! Don't go! Please..."

"Aren't you a human being?"

"Haha...ah, it hurts..." I laughed and felt that the wound was hurting.Zhizaki didn't know what to do, he still didn't dare to look into Youxiang's eyes, "How did you find me?"

"Isn't it a matter of course to find you in the disinfection room? Because it's clean."

"Hahaha...hey...it hurts...don't make me laugh..."

"I didn't make you laugh! What about your character design! The repairer can't laugh! He just said 'It's so dirty!'" Youxiang looked at the guy's side face, because he didn't want to laugh. Ken looked at himself, and he could only follow his gaze, although he would still avoid it, "You can't sit here. You're bleeding again. The doctor said the wound was rotten, and you broke it down and reassembled it." The time is not right, is it? Cure yourself for me, idiot!"

"No."

"Why..."

"I love the cut. I want to keep it."

"Don't keep this kind of thing! Why...you idiot! I don't understand what you are thinking at all!"

"I'm a bad person, Youxiang. If you still don't understand, I'll tell you. I've been acting, ever since I met you, suppressing the urge to kill you , and then suppressing the desire to possess you, suppressing the desire to go back to the old business. I haven't changed at all, I'm just performing in front of you, acting like it seems to be better, but no! Not at all. I am still the repairer who kidnapped you into the underground labyrinth, and I am still the man who forced you to join me in turning a blind eye to your pain, and even the man who created the source of your pain." Having said so much in one breath, Osaki paused For a moment, he covered his wound and tried to stand up again, but failed again, "Leave me alone. I'm not worth it. I will do this kind of thing again, I almost killed you. Just let me keep you The wound you gave me, maybe I will die because of this, if you kill me, it doesn’t matter. I can be killed by you, just let me die like this. Aren’t you a hero—ah, it hurts!!”

"...idiot." Youxiang slapped him.

"Beating patients is not something a hero should do..." You still beat me like this... You are really getting more and more violent, I like it... Ah no.I can.Not right either.never mind.Zhizaki said, "Even if you say I'm an idiot, you can't refute what I said."

"Yeah. There's no way to refute it. You're a guy who hasn't made much progress—you just think so." Youxiang looked at him, and straightened his face with his hands so that he wouldn't avoid his gaze, "I'm not that I think so. Even if it’s only me who has changed, it’s considered a change. You have indeed become different! As I said, the former overhauler couldn’t laugh at all. That’s fine.”

"Okay...?"

"I may indeed become a hero. But that is not my dream, not my goal, not from the beginning. Is it the route you set for me? Don't do that kind of thing... I started a long time ago, Before I met you, I was troubled before I met Niigaragi, what is a hero?" Youxiang recalled what happened at that time, she said, "There are many, many people who are guiding me, and they tell me They showed me what I should do. I went through a lot of things, and then I found that what I want to be is not a hero, but a person who wants to be like those who guide me and help me .”

"...But aren't they... heroes?"

"Is Kagawa-san a hero?"

"Hey?"

"No. Neither is Nero. Neither is Bugarati. But they all helped me. Zhizaki also helped me, and saved me many times. The same is true of Shigaraki, and Dabi, crossing me Miss, everyone is like this. No matter what they see in me or what they want to get, everyone is helping me without reservation. No matter what other people think, I think at least in terms of treating me, Everyone is worth learning from.”

"But it smells..."

"No, but! I have been bothered and troubled. I know you are enemies. I asked Mr. Stark, Mr. Aizawa, and even All Might. None of them wanted to restrain me The way forward, they encouraged me to choose according to my own wishes. They reminded me that this road will be full of thorns, I will take risks and pain, I know it all! Maybe one day I will be killed, maybe one day I will Injury, I know all about it, I am willing to take this risk!!"

Take...a risk?What are you talking about with Xiangxiang, you shouldn't ... how can you ... ah ... walk into the darkness in the darkness.Why is it so dazzling, why?Zhizaki looked at her, but he couldn't look away anymore, like a moth that saw the fire, it couldn't resist approaching her, even if it was burned, it wouldn't stop.But the same is true of fire, even if it is disturbed by wings and dust, it will never stop burning, is it, is this relative?

"It's good that Zhizaki only changes to me. This means that this risk will only stay on me alone. Only I will let your guard down on you, and only I will trust you. Whether you are killed or injured, it is only me. .I can make a decision for myself." Youxiang grabbed his collar, "So this is my decision. That's it, I've already made the repairman laugh out loud, I've done a very good job, right? ? That's enough. Do you understand, Shashashi? Change Zhizaki back to speak, do you understand?"

"But Youxiang...you should, you deserve something better?"

"Yeah, you are right. So what should you do for this matter? Avoid me like this? Then I will keep chasing you, and I won't get any good things. Do you think this is okay? You Do you think it’s okay not to protect me?!”

"..." You... have you reached this level of consciousness?Are you really willing to bear it?Zhizaki said, "But I don't want you to take this risk. Whether it's you or the people you like, I will hurt them. I—"

"You can bear it."

"Didn't you hold back this time?" Huh?What's this?Halfway through the speech, Zhizaki saw Yuka holding a card in front of his eyes.It was like a... invitation.It was still stained with blood.Wait, is this the wedding invitation I saw before? !It's the one with incense... He opened it hesitantly, only to find that the words inside were different from what he had seen at the beginning. It read:

my dear little princess,

Do you still like this play performed by Mr. Repairer himself?He's such a guy to take advantage of, and you're an odd man to have such insecurities around you.This is his luck.

If you make it through this crisis, we will meet again soon.I hope that at that time, you and your friends can bring me more exciting performances.

illusion

"Phantom...is, is that person?!!"

"Well. It's that person." Youxiang nodded, and she said, "This time, it's not your fault. Do you understand? I'm just saying this time, it's not your fault. Mr. Hawkes also understands Yes, and Mr. Nighteyes too. They don't think you're wrong. So nothing is done to you. Why do you think you weren't chained?"

"..." Zhizaki stopped talking suddenly, and the expression on his face became firm and cold again. He looked at the invitation and said, "Can I kill him?"

"It depends on the situation, right?" Youxiang raised her eyebrows, and she said, "Are you feeling better? Have you thought about it? Hurry up and heal yourself! Do you want Giorno or Jousuke to help you?" Is it cured?"

Who are those!Zhizaki didn't answer, he touched his wound, and then slowly untied the bandage, the wound was indeed ugly.I was really unconscious at the time.very painful……

"Well……"

"It's okay if you don't look at it if you feel scared."

"After all, I did it, so I'll just watch it."

"By the way, you did this. You are so ruthless that you would really stab me... But, I also attacked you..."

"Well, we're even. But you were much scarier than me at that time, and you still wanted to treat me to ice cream."

"...Youxiang." Zhizaki said quickly, "I remember what you said. I won't let you down again, okay? I thought I was going to lose you. So I thought about just dying like this. But now it seems to be much better than I imagined... Every time, as long as you are here, the situation will be much better than I imagined. You are the only one I have ever met Good man...youxiang. I don't want to leave you."

"Well. So, let's take this risk together." Youxiang looked at him and said, "I will take the risk that you are still an enemy, and you will also take the risk that I may stab you at any time and throw you into prison." .Do you think it is okay?"

"Ah. Sure. We've made a deal." Zhizaki smiled, and he finally stood up from the ground, "It's much easier to make a deal with you than with Negaragi... By the way, what happened to my hand thing? Why did it come back??"

"Ah that, I forgot to explain to you. I also think it's amazing, but you do have your hands back now!" Youxiang suddenly remembered this, and she said, "It was Giorno and Jousuke who helped you Yes, thank them later, okay?"

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No matter how risky it is, this is the path Xiao Xiang chooses.