he lived

What does it feel like to not be able to sleep all the time?If possible, I hope everyone will not have this experience, it is really not a beautiful experience.

Long-term lack of sleep will make your head throbbing continuously, making you feel like you are drifting on the road, and watching the world in front of you seems to be floating in the ocean.Your eyes are so stinging that you can't keep them open in the sun, and you're crying all the time.And your memory will start to gradually deteriorate, and you often even feel inexplicably suffocated.Over time, even your neighbors will start to ask why you look so bad, and your whole face turns yellow, and your sudden nervousness and excessive sensitivity and irritability will make him wonder if you are taking drugs .

I knew I couldn't go on like this, it would destroy me.But I'm still a bit reconciled, why not reconciled?I don't know either.

In fact, looking back at the occurrence of this whole thing, I don't know why it happened like this.Obviously it's just something that has nothing to do with me, and I'm just an innocent witness.The evolution of the whole thing is so one after another, which is unexpected.

Human psychology is always fragile and strange. In this matter, I can be regarded as a victim with complicated reasons, but I just feel that I am sorry for him.In the beginning, when I passed by the place where the incident happened, there was always a voice in my heart that kept saying: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, it's all my fault.

But, it's really not my fault, it has nothing to do with me.But I still have this kind of thought, I can’t control it, maybe, everyone who encounters this kind of thing will have such a guilty psychology, it’s my fault that I can’t save you, I’m really, really sorry.

My body and mind were almost overwhelmed by this strong sense of self-blame and long-term insomnia.But apart from habitually throwing myself into the bathtub, I basically can't find any way to vent.Because of my adoptive father, I basically don't touch alcohol except for occasional entertainment.As for cigarettes, I do smoke, but I basically don't touch anything that affects my health.For the online games and mobile games that young people are addicted to nowadays, I try to avoid using my hands because of work reasons, so as to avoid tenosynovitis affecting my life.

It can be said that I am a very boring person, except for work, I basically have nothing to shine.