he lived

I don't know if you have ever loved someone deeply, the kind of person who is so deep, no matter how painful it is, it is hard to give up, and even wants to sell his soul for his smile.No?Congratulations, you can still be a complete self. This exciting feeling is really too hot for ordinary people.For ordinary people, the most suitable temperature is the warm sunlight in the winter afternoon, not the scorching sun at noon in summer.

I haven't experienced this kind of experience in romance novels either, but I'm not lucky either, I think my current situation is almost the same.Of course, I have to admit that my mental state has always been in a precarious state and may collapse at any time due to my unsmooth experience since I was a child.

Ever since I witnessed the scene of him jumping down, I can't sleep all night. I always feel that he is standing in front of me, but I can't see him. I feel that he is always smiling at me. , want to say something to me, I may have hallucinations, but I don't want to admit it.Sometimes I think I may be asleep, I am dreaming, but when the sun shines through the gap in the curtains, I realize that I am not asleep, this is another sleepless night.

I used to think that the change of people starts to change slowly with the growth of age and the satisfaction of various life experiences, but this person relied on his own life to let me, in less than two months, Change beyond recognition.

In order to change this state, I risked sudden death, stayed up four nights to finish the work in hand, said hello to my friends in the studio, before I returned to normal, and of course for my career Thinking about it, I'm ready to be a vagrant from the ground up.

Maybe if I die now, no one in this world will care about it tomorrow.In this world, no one will treat you as the only existence in the world, how sad it is.For ordinary people, this person will be your mother, which I don't have; this person may also be your lover, and neither do I.

So, if I die now, the most likely thing I care about is that only the landlord who won’t receive the rent at the end of the month will come to check the door, see me lying on the ground, and call the police for me, and then the police will come back to check, there is no homicide If there are no traces, my body will be handed over to the funeral home, and the funeral home will cremate me and then deal with it centrally.Finally, a death certificate is issued, and your file household registration will also be cancelled.

In this way, people who no one cares about will lose their last traces in this world, simply, leaving no traces.