Did you confess today?

When Tang Sinian was with her, what she said the most was don't leave me.

At first, Zuo Nian behaved normally.Zuo Nian became more and more possessive of Tang Sinian until a junior high school girl stopped him in the corridor to confess his love.

That confession ended with Zuo Nian pulling Tang Sinian's wrist, forcibly taking her away, and looking very wary at other people.

From then on, Zuo Nian became more and more neurotic.

She loved pestering Tang Si Nian and hearing Tang Si Nian assure her that their friendship would last forever.

On weekends after school, he would pester Tang Sinian not to let her go home.Every night when he couldn't sleep, he would lie in Tang Sinian's bed, huddle with her, and carefully explore the mysteries about the body that adolescent girls want to know.

Zuo Nian was hostile to everyone who was close to Tang Sinian, and made a mess of the relationships around her.

Gradually, rumors spread in the school that Zuo Nian and Tang Sinian were gay.And the eyes of other students looking at Tang Sinian became more and more weird.

The strange, unfamiliar eyes plunged Tang Sinian into an unknown panic.

Zuo Nian's neurotic possessiveness put a lot of pressure on her mentally.

But Zuo Nian's mental state became more and more wrong, and Tang Sinian fell into a situation where he couldn't abandon his friends.

So Tang Sinian just endured and endured it, swallowing the rumors from outsiders and Zuo Nian's strange temptation to her body.

She thought that Zuo Nian would get better as she got older.But after one semester, Zuo Nian didn't improve much, but worsened.

The 14-year-old girl seems to gradually understand the meaning of liking.When Zuo Nian thought that Tang Sinian liked her, so he proposed to date Tang Sinian, Tang Sinian ran away in fear.

"Don't you love me? Why don't you stay with me if you like me?"

Tang Sinian rejected her, and then Zuo Nian began to use self-harm to keep Tang Sinian again and again.

During those few months, Tang Sinian's academic performance continued to decline, until Tang Sinian decided to clarify their suitable relationship with Zuo Nian, Zuo Nian ended everything with a long flow of blood.

That day happened to be the May Fourth Youth Day party.Zuo Nian went on stage to play the piano, wearing a white dress like a little fairy, playing a moving tune.

But after stepping off the stage, she went back to the dormitory, locked the door of the toilet, cut her wrists and committed suicide.

When Tang Sinian pried open the door, what he saw was Zuo Nian leaning against the corner with his eyes closed.

Blood flowed from her wrist, staining her snow-white long skirt, and also staining Tang Sinian's seemingly pale and boring teenage life.

Zuo Nian's suicide caused a great commotion in the school, and finally attracted both parents.

Various rumors spread in the school, saying that Zuo Nian committed suicide because Tang Sinian abandoned her.

But in the hospital, in front of the parents of both parties, facing Zuo Nian's mother's stern gaze, Tang Sinian had a hard time answering.

"I'm not...I'm not gay."

She doesn't love Zuo Nian, and it's not love between them.If love is such a terrible thing, then she would rather not love for the rest of her life.

Because of the timely rescue, Zuo Nian was finally out of danger.But during the time she was hospitalized, going to school became extremely difficult for Tang Sinian.

Before Zuo Nian was discharged from the hospital, Tang Sinian had never been to school, nor had he visited her again.Until later, Zuo Nian followed his mother to live abroad, and they completely cut off contact.

This incident had a great impact on the young Tang Sinian, coupled with her originally taciturn personality, made her further autistic in society.

For this reason, Tang Sinian also took a year off from school.

Both Tang Shunhua and Tang's parents felt self-blame for their neglect of Tang Sinian, so they did their best to meet her needs and did not force Tang Sinian to go to school to face her classmates.He even suggested letting Tang Sinian transfer to another school.

But Tang Sinian felt that this was a way to escape, so he rejected his parents.

In the end, she wandered around to figure it out, and decided to pull herself together.It just so happened that Tang Shunhua and Jiang Wangshu had just finished their college entrance examinations, and Jiang Wangshu, in order to be a good sister, went with her to make up lessons for Tang Sinian.

The older and mature sister gave Tang Sinian great comfort during this difficult time, and also freed her from the shackles of Zuo Nian.

In that midsummer, Jiang Wangshu, who was only three years older than her, was like the most patient craftsman in the world. He carefully glued back a broken porcelain doll named Tang Sinian piece by piece, and let her slowly recovery.

"It's not your fault to be nice to people. Any harm done in the name of love is a threat. She doesn't like you, she only likes herself."

"People who really like you will not hurt you like this."

"Love..."

It was the hand that wanted to touch but then withdrew.

"So sister, I don't mind this matter a long time ago, so don't worry about it." After the barbecue was over, Tang Sinian took Jiang Wangshu's hand, sat on the steps under the moon, and gently comforted her.

Jiang Wangshu looked at her suspiciously, "Really? There is no such thing as a psychological shadow."

Tang Sinian laughed, shook his head and said, "I'm so old, it's been almost ten years, no matter how strong I am, I've forgotten all about it."