Empress, please respect yourself + extra episode

It can be said that everything was expected for her.

In fact, she knew even about the marriage.

Since she was a child, she was not in contact with ordinary teachers.If you can invite such a character to teach yourself how to control others, I'm afraid it's not simply training a daughter of a thousand gold, right?

It was also because of this that even when she had the deepest affection for Shen Aoxue, she couldn't fully devote herself to it.

Perhaps, what she couldn't let go of for a long time these years was not that Shen Aoxue died for herself, but that she felt ashamed in her heart - because she couldn't repay such feelings equally.

It's a secret that no one knows but herself: she's actually incapable of love.

It wasn't born, it just happened after she saw something.

In the home where her father had many wives and concubines, she saw too much.A group of women fought back and forth, dripping with blood.Everyone is fighting, fighting for the love of the father, fighting for the birth of a son, fighting for the intelligence of the son, and the beauty of the daughter...

All for their own glory and wealth.

Therefore, if her parents plotted her to marry the emperor made her sad, then what hurt her the most was not that they did such a thing, but that they punctured her fantasy.

In fact, deep down in her heart, she knew very early on that her parents treated her like that.

Everyone is doing it for their own benefit.

And she is valued only because she can bring them more benefits.

Parents love her for sure.I am afraid that there are very few parents in the world who do not love their children.

But if you want to say that this love really surpasses everything, it is not necessarily so.

Too many people have given up their feelings in the face of interests.

Family affection, love, and friendship all have a price, it just depends on whether you can afford it.

As long as the price is in place, all feelings can be parted, and any relatives can give up.

These are things she sees around her every day.

It was precisely because of seeing so much of these things that she gradually became incapable of love.

It's not that you can't love, but you can't love deeply.

She will like a person, will be close to a person, such as her mother.However, she has learned to put herself first.No matter what personnel matter, as long as it conflicts with her own interests, she will resolutely give up.

Therefore, when she later agreed to marry the emperor, everyone thought she was doing it for her mother, but only she knew it was not.She is for herself.

She knows very well that her parents' love for her stems from her value. If one day she has no value at all, her parents will definitely despise her.Even, if he offended the royal family, he might hate her.

Rather than being a young lady who is hated by parents, it is better to be a loveless but noble queen.At the very least, the latter is superior, while the former may not even have the protection of their parents, so survival may be a problem.

She didn't want to be a poor wretch who had to rely on others to survive.

Therefore, she had no choice but to enter the palace as a queen.

So, she didn't hate her parents for using this so-called "trick".Because even if they don't use this ruse, she will eventually give in.

In fact, she knows calculation better than anyone else.

When she calms down, she will make the best choice for herself.

However, her parents still chose to take that step after all: play tricks on their daughter.

Moreover, the most chilling tricks were used.

—to take advantage of her love for her mother, her mother, to play tricks.

Ha ha.

She wanted to pretend to be stupid, but she couldn't pretend anymore.

In fact, she has been playing dumb all these years.

Because she was afraid that she would be incapable of love.

She found that when everything became a matter of profit, and she could no longer love someone wholeheartedly, it was very empty.

You are the only one in your heart, do you think it is empty?

She is afraid of this emptiness.

Therefore, she has been trying to find a way to change.

Find a way to pretend.

She tried to immerse herself in family affection, love her relatives, and enjoy their love.She hypnotized herself over and over again: they love her, and she loves them too.

But everything was broken by her parents.

Her parents couldn't even wait for their daughter to calm down, but used extremely domineering methods to forcefully decide everything.

At this point, she entered the palace and Shen Aoxue died.

From the beginning to the end, her parents acted vigorously without any hesitation.Their daughter's happiness and feelings are nothing to them.

This time, Xie Changan's fantasy was completely broken, even if it was just a fantasy she made to deceive herself.

But after this time, her whole spirit collapsed.

For the coldness of family affection.

For the death of a loved one.

Looking around in a daze, she found that she had nothing.

In her heart, there is an empty space, and she is the only one.

She began to lose her memory intermittently, became drunk, and became crazy because she didn't know how to live.

Sometimes, she hates her parents.I feel that my parents are too cruel, and I can't even wait for her to clean up the mess.

In fact, with her intelligence, even if she really enters the palace, she will coax Shen Aoxue well before entering the palace.At the very least, Shen Aoxue will not be allowed to commit suicide.

She has this confidence.

Too bad the parents couldn't wait.

And the stupid Aoxue committed suicide just like that.

This is the most regrettable thing in her life, not one of them.