Rebirth and daily cultivation

When this title appears, it means that A Ting will be free tonight.

It has been 20 days since the last time I asked for leave. I am tired, too tired.

It is like A Ting who has been busy all day. After work, he went home after going to the movies with the tattooed girl. The beautiful woman in the boudoir came to me to complain about her stupid mother-in-law and busy husband. A Ting dealt with it with a tired mind while preparing for the update that night.

Sometimes, I can't help but doubt the meaning of life.

After a meal of extreme double-line operations, it was 12 o'clock in the evening. All the irritability and noise disappeared. I looked up at the quiet night sky outside the window and always thought of my past student days.

There were schoolgirls whose tattoos I had never seen in the school, and newlywed female teachers who had never complained to me about their husbands. Everything was simple and beautiful.

But when I continued to recall, the names of many classmates gradually became confused, leaving only fragments of pictures:

Myself confidently leaving the examination room after the midterm exam.

I was good at running at the sports meeting and competed passionately.

After the evening self-study, I smiled at the crossroads under the street lights. The busty female classmate who was so bright and beautiful wanted to walk with me and go home together.

But...

When the midterm exam report card came out, I found that I was only in the top ten in the class. I could only watch the top students chatting and laughing, and I was sad.

When the race started, the beautiful class monitor cheered for me and jumped excitedly until the corners of her skirt flew, but I couldn't catch up with the senior students no matter what.

She showed me kindness, but I remembered the rumors she had carried because of her advanced physical development. I deliberately dodged and finally had to watch the female classmate leave with disappointment.

Things in the world are always like this, things go against one's wishes.

It's like the courtyard is taking a day off today. I hope all the book friends will vote for me for the monthly ticket, but it's hard to get the monthly ticket.

Life is a cycle, going around and around, back to the starting point.

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