Peninsula Asteroid

"…Do you think Xiaonan should break up with me?"

Suddenly hearing Chi Jingyuan ask this, the vague guess in Minatozaki Sana's heart was finally confirmed.

As sensitive as she is, she had already noticed from the recent strange atmosphere that there was a problem between Ming Jingnan and Chi Jingyuan... After all, that was a clear sign of cheating and of having multiple relationships at the same time, which was the most serious issue for any boyfriend or girlfriend.

Although she was surprised at Mingjingnan's patience, she also felt that something was going to happen.

Now I finally heard it.

But at the same time, she was also stunned.

Chi Jingyuan actually asked her? He actually asked for her opinion?

So at this moment, can she just push it casually and the dark thoughts in her heart will be realized?

Suddenly, there was a rumbling sound in Sana Minatozaki's heart, her heartbeat suddenly accelerated, desire and emotion mixed together, the word "yes" was already brewing on the tip of her tongue, ready to come out at any time.

But reason and morality stopped her...

This kind of behavior of kicking someone when they are down, making trouble behind their back, and not leaving herself a way out is not what she should do as a friend, as a bestie, or even as a smart girl.

Moreover, because she had some despicable desire that had been brewing in her heart for a long time, this strong sense of guilt also made it impossible for her to answer objectively.

“…”

Chi Jingyuan didn't let her worry for too long. After a few seconds, he noticed the hesitation on Minatozaki Sana's face, and he smiled and shook his head: "I know."

He gently pushed the empty coffee cup forward and stood up, looking like he was ready to leave.

"Oppa?"

At this time, Minatozaki Sana stood up in confusion and glared at him: "What are you doing... I haven't even told you yet!"

She was still hesitating and trying to suppress her desire with reason, but why did Chi Jingyuan look like he already knew the answer?

"Since you haven't thought it through, let's talk about it next time."

Chi Jingyuan smiled at her, waved his hand, picked up the bag next to him, and motioned for them to go together.

Although Minatozaki Sana didn't say anything...but considering that Minatozaki Sana is Minami Naoi's best friend and knows their innate positions on almost everything, and even if she said it in front of her, she would still hesitate.

The fact that she hesitated at all actually explained the problem...

Chi Jingyuan has already got the answer he wanted... Maybe he didn't actually ask about Minatozaki Sana's intention, but just wanted to verify his own thoughts.

"Oppa!"

But after hearing this, Minatozaki Sana was stunned for a moment, and then seemed to understand. She ran to Chi Jingyuan with her bag and blocked his way.

She seemed to have adjusted her mindset, putting aside all those distracting thoughts, looking up at Chi Jingyuan, and admonished him very seriously and solemnly: "I don't know what Oppa has decided... but I think you shouldn't separate."

Chi Jingyuan looked into her eyes and smiled suddenly:

"Thanks."

…………

While driving home from the gym, Chi Jingyuan was thinking about recent events.

Whether it's Jung Eun-ji standing from his perspective or Minato Sana's words, or Mingjing Minami's perspective, no matter which perspective it is, he has verified his own thoughts.

As far as he was concerned, he could no longer stop the thought of breaking up after it came to his mind... The discomfort caused by the guilt in his heart even overwhelmed the love in his heart.

It's just that the long-term relationship and the dedication from Mingjing Nan made him a little immersed in it, and he actually forgot that he used to be a person who didn't care about breakups.

As for Ming Jingnan, he might have had similar thoughts... but certainly not as straightforward as him.

But what Minatozaki Sana said is right. No matter how you look at it, this kind of thing is a big blow to a woman.

She pretended that nothing had happened and Chi Jingyuan would not ask her face to face, "Now you know," "It's all true," "Why don't you just pretend you don't know and just bear with it," or "Otherwise we'll break up," and so on.

That would only make him feel more uncomfortable.

But to be honest, dragging it on and acting like an ostrich is a kind of harm to Mingjing Nan, a torture both physically and mentally.

Seeing her forcing herself to smile every day, Chi Jingyuan couldn't bear it... After all, he liked her.

"If it's for you, she can pretend to be happy even if she's sad."

This sentence shocked him deeply, making him understand Xiaonan's feelings for him, and he was also moved by her dedication.

But, for him, isn't it also a kind of pressure, questioning, and condemnation?

Chi Jingyuan glanced at the car speeding beside him and arrogantly overtook him, but he didn't care and just sighed softly.

It's time.

It’s just a pity that the song “Fireworks” which recorded their relationship never saw the light of day.

………………

The rumors have died down a bit now, but some fans and media are still keeping a close eye on the situation, so it is still a very dangerous time for idols.

So Chi Jingyuan chose a small park near his home. Given the security there, it was impossible for paparazzi and fans to get in.

"…Maybe we'll have a day or two off in a while."

In front of Chi Jingyuan, Ming Jingnan still looked happy. She didn't mention any problems or mistakes of Chi Jingyuan at all, nor did she mention her own hard work during this period. She seemed to be in a very good mood and took the initiative to mention the trip they had agreed to travel before.

Chi Jingyuan felt really distressed when he saw this.

"Xiao Nan..."

Chi Jingyuan did not interrupt her, but he did not beat around the bush either. After Ming Jingnan finished speaking, he did not mince words and said directly, "Let's...separate first."

These simple words were like a thunderbolt that struck her heart directly. Ming Jingnan froze in place, and took a step back uncontrollably. She looked over in disbelief, and it seemed that even her breathing had stopped.

There was a buzzing in her ears, and the sounds around her seemed to be taken away, leaving only that sentence echoing in her mind, like a sharp knife, cutting her heart again and again.

...It was really sad with all the things happening during this period. The recording pointed out some obstacles that had always stood between their relationship, which really made her sad.

Coupled with the atmosphere within the group, the resentment and advice from close friends such as Momo Hirai, the word "breakup" has indeed occasionally lingered around her in recent times.

But to be honest, no matter how much pressure the company put on her, no matter how much her friends around her advised her to break up, no matter how depressed she felt or how hard her life was every day, she had never thought about breaking up with Chi Jingyuan. Even if someone else brought it up, the thought would only pass by her ears and would never stay in her mind for more than three seconds.

She chose to work hard to maintain the relationship and not let the so-called recording and those damn women destroy her feelings.

Even though this incident obviously affected more than just her, she actually noticed Chi Jingyuan's mood. Every intimate phone call had an uncomfortable feeling, and Minatozaki Sana had avoided the question as if to warn him.

She vaguely sensed the change in her emotions.

But no matter what others think, as the biggest victim, she herself has never thought about separating from Chi Jingyuan.

Ming Jingnan always thought that as long as she didn't say anything, it would be fine.

As long as she endured it, she could pretend that nothing had happened.

Maybe, everything will be fine in a few days.

It doesn't matter what anti, what cooperation, as long as he is by my side.

But at this moment, her boyfriend's straightforward words instantly shattered all her expectations and fantasies. The word "break up", which seemed extremely far away from her and not even in the dictionary, appeared in her world for the first time. But as soon as it appeared, it broke through her defenses in an unstoppable way.

Ming Jingnan felt as if her chest was being pressed down by a huge rock, so heavy that she could hardly breathe. Her heart was beating violently, and every beat was painful, as if it was being tightly grasped by an invisible hand, twisting it painfully.

Her fingers trembled slightly, and she looked at Chi Jingyuan, as if she wanted to save something. She tried her best not to let her voice tremble, and even forced out a heartbreaking smile: "Yuan-chan, what are you talking about?"

“…”

Chi Jingyuan looked at Ming Jingnan quietly, watching all the changes in her expression, and sighed with some sadness in his heart.

He originally thought that since such a big thing had happened recently and brought so much pressure, Ming Jingnan should have some complaints about him and might have some thoughts of separation in his mind.

After all, she is so smart and sensitive that she can't hide many emotional changes. As the biggest victim, Ming Jingnan is justified in feeling resentful.

...Moreover, even if it was Chi Jingyuan himself, it would be tiring to pretend to be happy every day.

He knew clearly how much pressure Ming Jingnan had been under because of him.

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She should blame him, should be angry, should have thought about breaking up and dumping him, a man who was not devoted to her and who let her down with all his heart.

...Chi Jingyuan really thought so and even expected it.

No matter how angry or unhappy she was, Chi Jingyuan understood her.

But when they met today, he found out... Xiaonan was really sincere and didn't have such thoughts at all. In front of her, he still looked like the days were peaceful and he was in a good mood. He didn't talk about those excessive things at all and acted as if nothing had happened.

As for the anger, blame, or even resentment that he had imagined, there was none at all.

Chi Jingyuan really realized in his heart...what Minatozaki Sana said last time seemed to be correct, and her tolerance towards him seemed to be unlimited.

However, since the incident has already happened, we cannot pretend that we don’t know about it and it will never happen. Someone will always get hurt.

This tolerance and generosity towards him was only based on the premise that she kept all the pressure in her heart and tortured herself.

How could Chi Jingyuan feel at ease enjoying this tolerance?

He would not be happy about this. It would only make him feel that he was extremely insignificant and vicious compared to the other party in terms of emotions, which filled his whole body with guilt, and then extended to a kind of shameful discomfort.

...Originally, when they decided to break up, Chi Jingyuan thought that Ming Jingnan should have had similar thoughts. Then he gently explained what happened, told her that it would be good for everyone to separate for a while, told her that it was all his fault, and tried to let her release her pent-up emotions and not hold them in her heart anymore.

...After all, Chi Jingyuan had separated from almost all the women from a long time ago to now, and almost all of them ended in peace.

But in this situation, seeing Ming Jingnan's look and persistence, he felt that his previous ideas might not work.

…Now, procrastination actually causes more harm.

It would be better to let him be the emotional outlet.

Better to suffer a short pain.

"Signal..."

Ming Jingnan and Chi Jingyuan looked at each other, their bright eyes were tinged with a little grayness, and their voices became a little hoarse because of the severe trauma they suffered. They smiled with great effort, and looked the same as before: "Just pretend... I didn't hear it, just pretend that you didn't say anything, okay?"

“…”

Chi Jingyuan looked at her, pursed his lips and did not reply, but his calmness already showed his attitude.

"Can you please... not do this?"

Ming Jingnan felt Chi Jingyuan's seriousness, and seemed to walk out of the illusion she had created. The strength in her body disappeared instantly, and even her smile could not be maintained. Her voice trembled slightly, and her tone became pleading: "I don't want to be like this... Can we not break up?"

But as soon as she said this, looking at the figure in front of her who had become extremely thin and humble, as if he could be blown down by a gust of wind, and listening to the slightly familiar words beside her ears, Chi Jingyuan suddenly felt dazed, and in the haze, he inexplicably recalled the past, something that happened a long time ago.

A scene that he had selectively forgotten long ago seemed to be re-stimulated by certain words and emotions, and it appeared before his eyes uncontrollably.

Was it ten years ago or eight years ago? I can't remember.

I still remember it was an afternoon, under the trees next to the school playground, the shade was lush and the sun was bright.

"Can we not break up?"

A young man who had just enthusiastically invited his girlfriend to dinner but suffered a huge blow was now looking at the other party with disbelief, timidity and pleading.

The memories that he once didn't want to mention now became clear in his memory at a disgusting speed. Even though such a long time had passed and he didn't want to remember them, Chi Jingyuan couldn't help but recite the boy's next words by heart.

"...I can do anything. You want me to go out with you more often, and you don't like me playing with those anime figures every day because you think it's childish. I can stop playing with those toys and watching those anime. I can come out and accompany you more often. My family is very rich... I can buy you anything you want..."

Under the shade of the tree, the boy forced a smile on his face and shook his hands constantly, as if he wanted to show his determination and increase his persuasiveness.

His voice trembled as he spoke humbly and pleadingly at the girl standing in front of him: "I don't want this... Can we not break up?"

But Chi Jingyuan seemed to have a vague memory of the girl's figure and appearance under the shadow.

The picture in my mind shattered, the school playground turned into a quiet park, the bright eyes turned into a dark night, and the only thing that remained unchanged seemed to be the person who was praying.

"... I can do anything, Yuan-chan, I, I... Is it because we can't meet during this period of time that I can sneak out at night..."

Mingjing Nan's face and voice seemed to be filled with a familiar panic. She waved her hands, pursed her lips, still trying to force a smile, and hurriedly said all she could say:

"...If it's because you don't like the mole on my face, I can also remove it. It's okay. I told you before...Or if it's because my figure is not as good as MOMO-chan's, I can also remove it...I'm fine with it."

Trying to say everything he could to convince others, Ming Jingnan took a step forward, his voice and eyes filled with endless pleading: "Can you please not do this?"

In a trance, the young man standing under the shade of the tree many years ago and Ming Jingnan in front of him now seemed to overlap together. They both abandoned their dignity and begged without any bottom line, just to save the love that they cherished most and regarded as everything.

Facing the other party's desperate pleas, facing the other party's humble words without self-respect, facing these words that made him feel ashamed, Chi Jingyuan only felt extremely harsh, and instead interrupted impatiently: "...Don't say anymore."

The hope and expectation in her heart seemed to be extinguished by a bucket of cold water. Her unreserved attitude was met with such a response. No matter how hard she tried, she could not restore the relationship she wanted. Both the boy in the past and Ming Jingnan at this moment seemed to be provoked and angry.

"Why?"

Faced with the other party's impatient expression and the gesture of waving his hand to dismiss him, the boy's self-esteem rebounded to the bottom. He was impatient and angry. He looked at the other party in confusion and disappointment, and there seemed to be mist in his eyes: "Why? Why did you do this? I'm already like this? What else do you want?"

"Yuan-chan, you..."

Ming Jingnan sniffed and looked at her beloved boyfriend in bewilderment. A tear had already slipped from the corner of her eye, drawing a glittering arc on her face under the pale moonlight: "Why?"

The swing in the distance swayed slightly in the wind, making a slight "creaking" sound, as if whispering something. A few new green leaves fell on the bench. The green leaves that were about to show vitality now lay alone on the chair, like a forgotten memory. A few crickets chirped in the corner of the park, crisp but with a hint of loneliness, which was out of tune with the quiet night.

Chi Jingyuan looked at Ming Jingnan quietly. The moonlight sprinkled from behind him, shining brightly on Ming Jingnan's body, making her eyes and tears shine, but leaving only a shadow on his face.

A look of understanding suddenly flashed across Chi Jingyuan's eyes.

The face of the young man who begged desperately and without reservation in his memory suddenly became clear at this moment, and it was exactly what he looked like in the past.

But the day turned into night and the sun turned into the moon.

At the same time, he unconsciously changed his position and stood on the opposite side, the position he once hated the most.

He looked at Ming Jingnan quietly, at the place where he once stood. After a few seconds, he slowly looked away. The moonlight was imprinted on his face, soft and cold, but the silvery light seemed like a ruthless scrutiny.

Judge others, and judge yourself.

The him of the past, the him of the present, and the vague figure of the girl in his memory all seemed to overlap. Chi Jingyuan suddenly smiled softly, as if recalling the past, and as if relieved, he said: "How can there be so many whys in love?"

"…I'm just tired of it."