Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

"Grandpa, why hasn't she come back after ten years? Has she really forgotten me?"

"Son, don't think too much. Maybe he has some last resort? I believe she is thinking about you too. You should be fine and wait for her to come back."

"I used to always think that as long as I did the right thing, I never believed in fate, never believed in all the arrangements God gave me, but in the end I couldn't get rid of every step the sky arranged for me. My own is not what I want most, let alone the road I want to take, and in the end I am still powerless to embark on that road of no return."

Mr. Zhang heard Xia Jing say this, and now he has no way to write about what his daughter-in-law looks like. He only knows that his daughter-in-law has completely lost her mind. He couldn't listen to anything anyone said.

"Son, I know that no matter what I say now, you won't listen to me, but I also hope you can understand that everyone has their own responsibilities. The greater the responsibilities, the more things you have to bear. Don't you Don’t know what you should do now? You live in such a state of despair, will he be happy when he sees it? Maybe you don’t know that everyone doesn’t want to see you in such pain. We are all relatives who love you, even if you lose The whole world, you and us!"

"From the day I lost her, I have lost the whole world. What can I do if I have you? What you bring to me will never be what he brought me. No matter how hard I laugh when I am with you, I I will always miss him in my heart. Missing is the pain of breathing, and I am dying of pain again and again.

In fact, I am really not a saint, I just want to live happily, and I just want to give me and those who love me a happy and stable life, but I really have no way to understand, I know that I am I have done many, many mistakes, and I also know that I have suffered too many blows in my life. I know that there is no way in my life to make up for it all. How can I make up for my injured heart? I have hurt the person who loves me the most, and there is no way in my life to forgive myself!

Each of you has experienced this kind of pain, why can't you feel what I am feeling at this moment?How desperate I am, how resentful I am, if I didn't do too much at the beginning, then how could he leave me? The remorse time and time again makes me really have no way to forgive myself in my life. I am moaning in pain, I only know that I can only do this for the rest of my life, I am living in this world for nothing else, but for one day I can meet again in the vast sea of ​​people She, on that day, he will already be married and have children, but as long as I can see him from a distance, I can lose everything, as long as I can see him happy, I already know that I was wrong, I don’t know what to do, I was able to make all this as beautiful as it was before, I lost her, I lost the whole world, thinking back on the pain I caused him, I am simply inferior to a beast..."

"Mom, I hope that none of us will mention this matter again in the future. Since we have chosen the life we ​​are living now, we will be at ease when we come, so why bother to miss the past? Do you know that you do this? , if his father really knows how sad he is, he can abandon me as a son for you and abandon grandpa, he can not even want the whole family for you. Together, he made these sacrifices for you. Then you really turn a blind eye? I believe you are not the kind of hard-hearted person, you are really not the kind of person who can ignore the overall situation for your own selfishness! "

"Since you are not that kind of person, why do you pretend to be that kind of person and let everyone in the world misunderstand you? Is that really interesting? Living like that, you will only be insulted by others, In fact, you are really kind. You would rather give up your life’s happiness in order to fulfill someone who loves you. You are the stupidest woman in the world. I don’t know that as a child, I have no right to treat me like this I talked to my mother, but mother, everyone in the world is living, and everyone is taking every responsibility for the efforts they have made. I don’t know how to persuade you, I know you How painful is your heart, but I also hope that you can think about it for everyone in our family. If you are so depressed, no one will feel better if you see it. If your father sees it, he will only worry about you even more. I'm worried that he will act more impulsively when he sees him. You don't want to see him get hurt, right? In fact, you have feelings for him all these years. Even if you don't have feelings, after all these years of companionship, you still have feelings. ah!"

"You are wrong. I have not had any feelings for him for so many years. Even if I have been with him for so many years, I only have family affection for him. I have always regarded him as my brother, and I have never regarded him as my lover. , I have no way to treat him as the person I love the most, because the person I love the most left me because of what I did, and I can only live in regret all my life, how can I It will be easy to fall in love with others again. I once said that if my love with her fails, I will never fall in love with another person easily in my life. Maybe my life is doomed to survive. , I can only rely on my own obsession to live in this world again and again, and my mission is only to be able to meet him one day!

Maybe you all think that what I do is really stupid, but you know what?This is the performance of a person loving another person. I love her too deeply. I didn't realize how deep I was until she left me. I have no way to make it up, and I have no way I can go and explain to him, I know that she will never want to see me again in this life, but I really miss him, I have tried my best to make up for all the mistakes I made for him, but in the end I still I can only attract others to abuse me, I have no way, I hope God will give me a chance again and again, let me make up for every mistake I have made, even if I use my own life to make up for it. I don’t hesitate, but I still have no choice in the end. God gave me a chance, that is, let me live for a while, and let me watch the person I love the most leave me time and time again, farther and farther away from me , and I can only stand there and cry silently, but there is no way to change all these results. This is the best revenge from God for me!

Maybe people like me should bear such a burden, let me have no happiness in my life, let me live in pain all my life, let me always struggle in the dark abyss, never get out , so that I can only wait alone for the rest of my life! "

I don't believe in fate, did I do something wrong?I want to live frankly once, is it really so difficult?

I just want to live a life worthy of the sky and the earth, I just want to live frankly and openly in this world to be able to walk out of my own world.

"Dad, Dad, why is my mother still not coming back when I'm a teenager?"

"Nai'er, mother is coming back soon, and she will be back when you become an adult, and she can't bear to part with Nai'er, you are our most precious son!"

Zhang Nai pouted, feeling very unhappy, no matter what he said, he was just a child.

"Son, your mother and I had too many disagreements before, and I have experienced a lot with her."

I also really saw that everything I cared about was getting farther and farther away from me step by step, and all the thoughts in my heart gradually changed everything. I thought that my original intention would never change because of anything. Changes happened, and I didn’t know until now, when I watched all the things I cared about leave me, I really understood what it means to be unsatisfactory, looking at everything I have accepted, when those things When memories are imprinted in the depths of my mind, deep in my heart, I don’t know if it is all that I have experienced. As long as I am happy and happy in my heart, I don’t care about all of them. But now in my own eyes and in my heart, is all this really what I want?In fact, it is really not!

"Mom and Dad, I used to think about every decision I made, whether I would regret it on that day, and gradually I found out that in any case, I have no reason to regret the path I have chosen. Every step of the road is a choice made by oneself, determined to do it by oneself, and step by step, it has become what it is now. Who knows how painful it is to have suffered all the injuries. When you look at everything The things I care about the most are far away from me, but I can't do anything, I don't know how to make all these things become what I think in my heart, what should I do?

No matter when and where I am, no matter what kind of torture and blows I have experienced, I have never forgotten what I wanted most in my heart, but in your hearts you regard me as what?When and where did I forgive you again and again, when did I pay attention to you, can I really remember and hate you?But what you did to me really broke my heart again and again. I can't forgive the pain my relatives have caused me again and again, because I am not a saint. "

Remember your three-year agreement?

In fact, Zhang Zhentian knew very well in his heart that if he lost this opportunity, he might completely lose his most beloved woman, but he had no way to face everything, and he had no reason to redeem it.

After all, all of this is not all my fault, after all, I hurt the woman I love the most, and I also abandoned the woman I love the most with my own hands.

He is very clear in his heart that once some mistakes happen, there is no chance to make up for them, and once some mistakes become a foregone conclusion, no one will let this mistake continue. He knows it very well, so he will feel even more painful in his heart. , Obviously my own mistakes in this matter are not necessarily the main reason, but I have to bear all the mistakes, because I want my wife to treat me differently, so I have to do the responsibility that a man should have.

"Now that we've reached this point, let's not say anything else about them now, let's say goodbye for the last time with peace of mind!

In fact, you are still a good man after all, you just go the wrong way, everything you do makes me have to reflect on whether it is right or wrong to be with you, you have never thought that you are with me What kind of attitude should we use to treat the lives of the two of us together? All you have thought about is using your rights and desires to control me. You have never thought about what I want, and whether you can give me anything !

I hope you can remember that love is mutual, not that one person is giving selflessly, while the other person is there forever waiting for others to pay, so it can last for a long time, this kind of love is not love, but just It's just the relationship between the creditor and the debtor. I hope that one day you can understand my good intentions.

I have to admit that during the ten years I have been with you, sometimes my heart is really painful. You can never understand what I want, and what you give me is always pressure and hurt. I have been comforting myself psychologically, if one day you can wake up, treat me well, and give me everything I want, then I will stay by your side for the rest of my life, even if I suffer all the grievances, it doesn’t matter, but until now I just realized that the day you wake up is too late, too late, and I don't have the patience to wait until that day. I am a quick-tempered person, and I can't be silent for my family again and again like others. Waiting for the awakening of others, and what I want is only something that can realize my ideal and everything I want as soon as possible.Maybe after this incident, your heart will be very painful. Whether you hate me or not, I don’t care. After all, this incident is my fault. I hurt you and the most important relationship between us. Sincere feelings, I have no way to redeem this relationship, and I also hope that you will not use any means to stop me from leaving. Since it has been made so clear, they may let me leave and go out for a while, Tianya is also good Yes, don't use your so-called love to tie me to your side..."

"Since you have decided to leave, you will never stay no matter what I say, so why should I beg you so hard, in the end it is just letting you trample my dignity under the soles of your feet again, I want to be a happy person, I want to be a frank and responsible man, maybe in your eyes, I will never have such a day, but I hope you can believe that I live up to the sky People with a heart, as long as I have the heart to be a responsible man, then no matter what, I will definitely be able to realize my ideals, and I will definitely be able to make you look up to me with my own strength, and I will not give up for any reason. one of my men.

Don't worry, this matter is not only your fault, how could I choose to hate you?You will always be the woman I love the most in my heart. I will only regard you as my miss, and I will only bury you in my heart. I will slowly recall every road we have traveled by myself. The days we used to share weal and woe together, those days will never come back, you have decided to leave me, I told me that you will never come back to me, in this case, I hope to keep me for the last If a man doesn't even have this dignity, how can I love the woman I love the most?

Everything I did before may make you feel very contemptuous of me, but I hope you can understand everything in the past. I just love you sincerely, so I will do those things to hurt you, until Now I finally wake up, no matter how much I loved you before, but I hurt you after all, that hurt you, this hurt will not be completely erased because of my auspicious words of apology, that hurt will be buried forever in your heart.In fact, you also have a feeling of fear in your heart because I have hurt you, right?

I hope we can make another three-year agreement with each other. If you see me completely different from the previous me after three years, if you think that I have become a responsible, responsible and courageous man at that time, Then I hope you can give me another chance to come back to me, so that we can join hands to create our world, so that we can know each other and stay with each other for a lifetime. "

"If you can really become completely different from before, I am willing to give you another chance, and I am also giving myself another chance, let us continue to live the happy time before, and don't ask for anything because of anything. Instead of doubting the other party, you should truly trust the other party and do everything that is best for you.”

Zhang Zhentian knew that this was the biggest concession Xia Jing could make.

That being the case, what qualifications does she have to continue to force others to make things difficult for her, and ask others to give herself another chance because of her mistakes. In this case, he can only choose to make this three-year agreement, and after three years, he will completely change himself , Let my beloved woman return to my side convincingly, instead of returning to my side because of my plundering again and again, and spend the rest of my life with me.

"Since you have agreed, please each of us firmly remember this three-year agreement, and don't destroy this three-year agreement because of anything. This is a promise to you and me..."

"Perhaps you have already forgotten all the things you agreed to, but I remember what you said, you don't know anyway, why I know so clearly, I just really don't say anything, I just watched you all directing and performing the play you rehearsed for yourself, but I was just a bystander!"

"Dad, I believe my mother can come back, because I am the person she loves the most, nothing can make my mother give up on me."

Zhang Yichen touched Zhang Nai's head, and said with red eyes: "As long as you have faith, as long as you don't give up, you will definitely get what you want!"