Crossing Over to Yamada Love

Xue Lingfeng watched Mo Lan's constantly shifting gaze. He knew what the girl was thinking; she was probably wavering. And rightly so, she had never asked for much—just a stable life and the well-being of her family. But girl, you must understand, life is like that. It doesn't give you everything you want. It won't make things exactly as you desire!

“Girl, would you like to hear me talk about the Xue family? To hear about my past?” Xue Lingfeng broke the silence and spoke first.

To listen or not to listen? Mo Lan pondered. If she chose to listen, it meant she wanted to understand the Xue family's situation, to understand Xue Lingfeng, and that she wanted to stand with him and face the situation together. But had she truly made up her mind?

If she didn't listen, then she would be rejecting Xue Lingfeng, wanting to know nothing about him anymore, to have no further contact with him, to sever all ties with him, and to keep her distance. Was this what she wanted? Was this what he wanted her to say?

Mo Lan gazed intently at Xue Lingfeng. The man before her was handsome and aloof, yet that aloofness revealed his feelings for her. Should she really reject him?

"Xue Lingfeng, I admit I like you, but the Xue family is too powerful, and I'm afraid. I'm afraid my family will be harmed, and I'm afraid something like today will happen again. So, I haven't made up my mind yet. I can't answer you, I dare not answer you." Mo Lan didn't hide anything; she spoke her mind.

"Lanlan, I know, I won't force you. I'll tell you about some things that happened in the Xue family, so you'll have a better understanding before you decide." Xue Lingfeng looked gently at Molan, slowly sinking into his memories, a hint of pain in his eyes, and began to recount:

"I won't go into the Xue family's ancestors, but let's talk about my father's generation. There were eight people in his generation. My father was the third, and Ling Lei's father was the seventh. My eldest, second, fourth, fifth, and eighth uncles were all in the capital. My father, sixth, and seventh uncles stayed at the Xue family's old house. My father stayed at the old house voluntarily because he had no interest in officialdom, but my sixth and seventh uncles were unwilling. They were determined to go to the capital, feeling that the capital was prosperous and did not want to stay in Shangchang, this small place."

My mother came from a humble background; she was just the daughter of a minor official. Because my maternal grandfather had unintentionally helped my paternal grandfather, my grandfather took a liking to my mother's character and asked her to marry my father. After my mother and father got married, their relationship was relatively good. They first had my eldest sister.

When my mother was six months pregnant with me, my father was sent by my grandfather to Dandong to find an old friend of his. This friend had done a favor for the Xue family and had something to ask of him, so my grandfather sent my father to go in person. When my father returned, I was already two months old. My mother didn't have time to share this joy with my father before she was overwhelmed by the woman he brought back.

It turned out that after going to Dandong, my father stayed at the home of the Xue family, who were his benefactors. The benefactors had two brothers, and my father actually got together with the younger brother's illegitimate daughter.

Although she was a concubine's daughter, the other family had no legitimate daughter and doted on her. After their affair was discovered, both families lost face. Her father liked that woman very much and promised to marry her as a concubine.

The other party had no choice but to agree, but because they were unable to leave Dandong due to certain matters, they gave the illegitimate daughter a small dowry and let him take her away.

My grandfather, grateful for the other party's kindness, could not refuse and had to agree. Just like that, my father gained a concubine, and I gained a stepmother.

The mother was heartbroken by the father, and gradually her feelings for him faded.

That concubine was very favored and soon became pregnant, giving birth to twins. My father doted on them, but treated me, the eldest son, much less favorably.

Those twins were the sixth brother, Ling Tian, ​​and the seventh brother, Ling Yun. Ling Tian had a bad temper since childhood and was very arrogant, while the seventh brother was easygoing, had a good relationship with me, and always followed me around.

When I was ten years old, I was playing by the river with Lao Qi. That time, that time…” Xue Lingfeng’s eyes suddenly turned sharp as he said this.

Slowly, he closed his eyes and said gently, "Our servants were tricked away, and then the two of us were knocked unconscious and thrown into the river. Mother had something to ask me, and when she arrived at the river, she found me and Lao Qi floating in the water."

The servants around my mother rescued me and the seventh brother. We were both in a coma with high fevers for several days before waking up. We were incredibly lucky to have survived. My father and mother sent people to investigate, and it turned out that two servants, resentful of being punished by the Xue family, harbored revenge and wanted to harm us.

When Mo Lan heard him say this, she thought to herself: Things are probably not that simple. No matter how bold a servant is, he wouldn't dare to do this to his master. There must be someone behind this.

"Although the results came out and Father punished those servants, Mother argued with Father. They chased the servants away, and there were sounds of things being smashed coming from the bedroom. I listened for a while, daring to do so."

My mother and father said it must have been that woman who did it. But my father protected that woman, saying that my mother was just jealous and was just imagining things. I was furious, so I took a dagger and secretly went to that woman's yard.

The gatekeepers naturally didn't dare stop me. I entered the inner courtyard, and there was no one guarding it. I was puzzled at the time, until I heard the woman cursing the sixth brother. Then I realized that she was afraid people would hear her and had also driven away the servants.

The woman said that the sixth brother was too ruthless, even willing to harm his own brothers. She only said that someone should kill me; if I drowned, then the sixth brother would be the rightful eldest son, and all the benefits would go to him. But she didn't expect the sixth brother to be so cruel, secretly ordering his servants to kill the seventh brother as well.

The sixth brother and his daughter started arguing, saying that the capital only accepts one person to go to the capital for training, and if he doesn't harm us, he won't be able to go. He wants to go to the capital, so he has to get rid of the two of us.

Enraged, I stormed into the house and stabbed the woman and the sixth son with a dagger. When the servants arrived, they dared not arrest me and instead reported to my father.

My father accused me of harming my mother and killing my siblings, and wanted to punish me according to family rules. I refused to admit it, saying that woman was a slut, that she wasn't my mother, and that I only had one mother. I also didn't have such siblings.

I still remember that day vividly. The house was in chaos. My father was whipping me mercilessly with a rattan cane. I refused to admit my mistake, preferring to be beaten to death rather than admit it. My mother couldn't stop my father. In despair, she held a dagger to her neck and said that if my father continued to beat me so cruelly, she would die on the spot.

My father felt a sense of respect and indebtedness towards my mother, so he threw down the cane and stopped pursuing the matter of me harming his concubine and son. However, I still found a pretext to beat or sell the servants involved. From then on, everyone in the mansion said I was ruthless and cold-blooded.

After the seventh brother arrived there, although he still followed me as before, he changed a lot. He was no longer the simple seventh brother he used to be.

After that, Father became much colder towards that woman. After all, no matter how much he disliked me, I was still his eldest son. That woman had harbored ill intentions towards me, and she had also hurt Father's feelings. Mother refused to forgive him, and he didn't want to go to that woman's place. Not long after, a maid climbed into his bed.

That girl was quite shrewd and resourceful; she managed to trick my father into taking her as a concubine, and thus I gained another aunt. This aunt was no simple woman; over the years, she hadn't been killed by that woman. On the contrary, she enjoyed considerable favor with my father.

Xue Lingfeng paused for a moment to calm himself before continuing, "I became more unruly when I was fourteen. That year, my elder sister was sent to the palace by the Xue family. The palace is a deep and dangerous place, a den of dragons and tigers. No matter how much my mother and I objected, the family insisted on sending my sister to the palace because she was very beautiful, gentle and intelligent, and the most suitable girl in her generation."

I believe that the Xue family is ruthless and heartless for their own benefit, and they don't care about the lives of others at all. Therefore, I hate this family, and I despise every member of the Xue family in the capital.

When I was fifteen, my elder sister offended a noble person in the palace and was almost punished to death. It was only through the intercession of the Marquis of Dingyuan that my sister's life was saved. Because the Emperor favored the Marquis of Dingyuan, with his help, my sister gradually gained a position in the palace. It can be said that the Marquis of Dingyuan played an indispensable role in my sister's becoming a Noble Consort.

Marquis Dingyuan was the person who had been kind to my grandfather, the person my father wanted to see when he went to Dandong that year, and also that woman's uncle.

Knowing about my sister's situation and feeling saddened that I couldn't help her, my fourth brother took me to a brothel to relax and broaden my horizons.

There I met a woman named Xiaoyuxian. She was delicate and charming, with a pitiful background. Knowing she was a good woman who only sold smiles and not her body, I felt great sympathy for her. We talked quite a bit, and later I even brought Lao Qi along to visit her.

The seventh brother got along well with Xiaoyuxian. He thought I liked her, so he beat me to it and redeemed her from her servitude. He also found a place to settle her down.

When the household learned of this, they were furious. Father said that my brother and I were neglecting our duties and indulging in brothels. He said that we brothers were fighting over a woman and disgracing the family.

Father brought that little fairy into the manor and asked us brothers who was interested in her and what we should do with her.

At that time, my seventh brother said he wanted to take Xiaoyuxian as a concubine, but Xiaoyuxian refused, saying that she was my person and she would rather stay by my side as my maid than give her to my seventh brother as a concubine. She would not follow anyone but me.

Mo Lan glanced at Xue Lingfeng, who was recounting his past, and thought to herself, "I never would have guessed! He lost his virginity at the age of fifteen and had a sexual relationship with a prostitute. He's really precocious."

While they were talking, Xue Lingfeng noticed that Mo Lan was looking at him strangely. But why was Mo Lan looking at him like that? Suddenly he realized what was going on, his face turned red, and he said hurriedly, "You little devil, don't think nonsense. There's nothing between me and her. We don't have that kind of relationship."

"Really? Nobody's going to say they're yours anymore? And nobody wants to marry anyone but you?" Mo Lan said, pursing her lips. But deep down, she still believed Xue Lingfeng's words.