Dotore from Genshin Impact is my teacher

(I think this comment section could be renamed: A forum for the author, who is frail and sickly, to interact with his BT readers.)

(The protagonist has a contradictory personality and cannot reconcile with himself.)

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Judging by the days, the Traveler should still be busy with things in Liyue (finding materials to rebuild the Jade Pavilion), and his friend Wanye should still be alive. We need to find a way to save him.

If it's too late for Zheping, I can transfer a portion of my life force to him. After all, even if Teyvat is destroyed, I won't die. He wants the attention of the gods, so I'll give him the power to gain that attention.

We can't let Asan stir up more hatred. He clearly didn't do it, yet he still managed to draw a wave of hatred; he's too sharp-tongued and speaks without any mercy.

"What are you thinking about?"

The "scholar" hugged Chen Xi from behind, and he felt very comfortable, leaning back against the "scholar".

"Scholar brother, I want to go and see the Evil Eye Manufacturing Factory (A-San)."

The scholar released him and stroked his head: "From now on, call me [Doctor] or Dotole when we're out. I don't want our secret to be known by others."

"Oh..." But all the executives know about this, and the Queen knows there are many of you.

"I have other things to do here, you go ahead."

Chen Xi looked a little disappointed, clutching his tie: "I don't know the way."

Seeing the child's pitiful look, the "scholar" took out a newly developed location map: "...Here, take this. The map has built-in location tracking, and I've marked your location. It's modified based on your memory. You know how to use it, right?"

"Mm." Chen Xi nodded, took the phone-like device from his hand, swiped her fingers to find the marker, and clicked to track it.

Good heavens, a Teyvat version of Gaode Maps! Dottore is amazing, he's practically a genius. Putting aside all the bad things he's done, he's a top-tier technological talent on Earth, and many countries would be vying for him. Compared to him, the Order of the Fathers really didn't recognize his worth. I must say, [The Clown] has good judgment, recruiting such a talent for the Winter Kingdom.

"Still not leaving?"

He stroked Chen Xi's hair; it felt wonderful. Touching it felt like petting a small animal.

"From now on, you're my brother!" Chen Xi hugged his arm and rubbed against him with admiration. This was a big shot, her own family's big shot.

"That's it? Not enough."

"...Nod your head down."

The scholar lowered his head, and Chen Xi kissed him on the cheek.

"—! Don't you want your back anymore?"

"Then I'll do a few more, it's you anyway."

"I can't help it. Who did I learn that from?"

"With you."

"Ah."

...(The draft I wrote will not pass the review.)

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Evil Eye Manufacturing Plant

Chen Xi wandered around for a long time in search of this entrance, and only after grabbing a Fool soldier and questioning him did he learn the correct way to open the entrance.

Turn it three times here, four times there, and the mountain begins to shake, and the stone gate slowly opens.

Why is this different from what's shown in the game? Is the game only showing a portion of it?

The Evil Eye Factory is in the style of Inazuma (a Japanese company), covering a large area, with an overall scale similar to a steel factory, and some of its equipment is quite advanced.

Chen Xi observed the manufacturing process of the Evil Eye. The ore was heated until it was completely red-hot, then mechanically hammered onto it hundreds of times to remove impurities. After all the impurities were removed, the ore was heated again, turning it from a solid to a liquid state. A special reagent emitting an ominous aura was heated in the ore, and the liquid flowed through pipes into a mold. After cooling, it was shaped and polished...

If it weren't for the ominous aura emanating from the Evil Eye, Chen Xi would have definitely thought it was just an ordinary underground factory.

"Why are you here?" Chen Xi felt a hand on his shoulder, turned around and tried to grasp the hand made by the gods, but [Scatter Soldier] dodged it.

Chen Xi asked, puzzled, "Why?"

[Skirmisher] gave a disgusted look: "You've been with the Doctor for too long, and you smell like him. I find it offensive, and this potion smells too strong."

Chen Xi knew his sharp tongue, but actually enjoyed it: "Then why did you touch me just now? You're just saying one thing and meaning another."

[Skirmisher]: "...What do you want from me?" Is this kid crazy?

Chen Xi, with a sincere expression, held his hand and said, "Does Asan want to become a god? Dotole says he can help you."

[Skirmisher] shook off his hand, still looking disgusted: "So he was just a messenger. Dotole is still arrogant, but I hope he has the ability."

"Does this mean Ah San has agreed?"

"Yes, we've collaborated before. He got the data, and I got the power. You know how to talk to him, right?"

"know."

I'm sorry, Asan, but that's your chance to become a god. I'll catch you when you fall. I know you really want to become a god and have a "heart".

There is no essential difference between a person and a doll; you are a person. You have been a person since the moment you were born, but because you are not complete, you do not live solely to bear the heart of God, for you shed tears in your dreams.

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You are both evil and good.

I know he's the one who made you who you are today. But he's my family, and I can't bear to see you like this.

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[Genshin Impact] The Wanderer's Character Story | "Incompleteness" is the proof that you were born human (from the all-powerful browser)

I. The Tragedy of the Puppet: A Rondo in a Chaotic World

The sole purpose of a doll's existence is to serve its creator. Initially, Raiden no Kōbō was created solely to house the heart of the Thunder God. Therefore, the cruelest thing for him would be failing to fulfill the purpose of the Shadow, or being replaced by a new generation of products due to outdated performance. The tin soldier in the Wanderer PV, whether it continues to exist depends entirely on its master's whims, for that is its only function. In my opinion, Kōbō's tragic fate didn't begin when he was abandoned and slumbered in the Borrowed View Pavilion, but rather when he awoke, finding himself abandoned by the very object he was meant to serve, forced to wander aimlessly through the world. Moreover, as a doll, he doesn't suffer from the survival-related problems of hunger, war, and disease like mortals, nor is he bound by familial care or affection. Therefore, the meaning of anything he does for himself is diminished.

When an individual cannot find value in themselves, others naturally become the vehicle for displaying that value, just as we can only see our own reflection through a mirror. Upon arriving in Futsuna, Kokubane seemed out of place; people only knew him as a Kabuki-sha with magnificent attire and an unknown name. But later, the Kabuki-sha and Katsuragi joyfully practiced swordplay under the moon, and when Futsuna faced danger, he resolved to seek help from Narukami Taisha, tenderly caring for the children of the miners who had perished. Why did he do this? Naturally, it was for Katsuragi, for Niwa, for Futsuna's companions, for those who shared similar fates. It seemed that only in this way could he still have a reason to remain in the world.

When the traveler encountered the homeless man at the Grand Bazaar, the man was working for a fruit stall owner but refused payment, simply because the owner had let him into his vehicle to take shelter from the rain. Here, the homeless man and the owner's logic present a stark contrast: the owner, an ordinary person, sells fruit to earn money to support his family; while the homeless man works for the owner, ostensibly because the owner sheltered him from the rain, but upon closer examination, this seems illogical. The owner expressed a similar bewilderment: "Isn't it strange? Why would someone with no destination travel in the rain? If they're not in a hurry, why walk in the rain in the wilderness?"

The homeless person had no need to travel in the rain, nor to seek shelter. So why get into the shopkeeper's car and then help him? Therefore, I believe the cause and effect are actually reversed: the homeless person wanted to confirm their own value by helping others, so they traveled in the rain to find a legitimate reason to repay them. The contrast between the fruit stall owner and the homeless person shows that for ordinary people, most actions are self-driven, but a doll is inherently incapable of doing anything, so all its actions are driven by others. For a doll lacking self-motivation, or subjective initiative, all seemingly normal behaviors cannot withstand scrutiny; they are all clumsy imitations attempting to approach humanity.

As a puppet first encountered by a traveler during the collapse of a nation and in the Grand Bazaar, he faces an existential crisis earlier than ordinary people. Naïve and ignorant of the ways of the world, he only knows how to allow others to occupy his life in order to fill the emptiness in his heart and the void of his desires. This is the first stage of the conflict between the puppet and the human.

II. The Motivation for Becoming a God: A bird fell from the sky in the night.

Why were the three betrayals so deeply etched in Guo Ban's heart, causing such immense damage that it led him down the path of becoming a stragglers and then a god? The first reason, as mentioned in the first part, is that others occupied an extremely important place in Guo Ban's life, and each time his wholehearted devotion was met with betrayal. The first betrayal robbed him of the original meaning of his life; the second robbed him of his trust in people; and the third robbed him of his hope in humanity. Alone in the world, without faith or expectation, he could only seek "transcendence."

But we can't help but ask: It's true that Guo Pang encountered betrayal at Ta'ansha, but that doesn't mean everyone in the world is bad. Is it biased for him to conclude that everyone is untrustworthy because of three betrayals? This leads us to the second reason: the inherent purity of the puppet. The puppet is like the two poles of a pendulum: either serving a specific purpose entirely, or being discarded and ignored; either filled with meaning, or meaningless. The former is like General Lei Dian now, the latter like Guo Pang back then. Therefore, it's not hard to understand why his actions from Guo Pang to the scattered troops were so extreme, because in his mind there was no middle ground or gray area: if he couldn't get close to people, couldn't become a member of the crowd, then he would completely abandon all human emotions, leaving only hatred. But he didn't know, or perhaps knew but didn't want to admit, that people have both hateful and lovable aspects.

Similarly, after learning the truth inside the World Tree, he realized that his existence was a mistake, so he preferred to have never existed in the first place rather than consider the possibility of atonement or repair. Before erasing himself, the Skirmisher said to the Traveler: "To be honest, I don't like bugs. Small and numerous, living in swarms... Getting rid of those things makes me happy. But now the bugs have crawled into the wrong place... Fortunately, all of this can be corrected. I will give a clean and correct answer." Even in his final moments as the Skirmisher, his choice was extreme.

From the collapse of the nation to the disintegration of the army, from complete good to complete evil, this inherent contradiction and conflict is intolerable for a puppet seeking purity. Perhaps only godhood is the path forward; only godhood can transcend this inescapable cause and effect, severing the connection between the past and the present. For this, he willingly descends into the abyss, becoming the Doctor's most tolerated experimental subject, indifferent even to the fact that he can never be separated from the body of the true god. All of this stems from his inability to reconcile with his past self, the one who still retained goodness during the nation's collapse. This is the second stage: the conflict between past and present, between humanity and divinity.

III. Proof of Humanity: The End of the Extraordinary

The core issue in stories about homeless people is: what exactly constitutes proof of humanity? I believe it's "incompleteness." Mo Yan once wrote: "Humans are incomplete." There's an unbreakable bond between humans and animals, between life and death, between love and hate; humans hesitate and waver between countless opposing extremes. If one were complete, there would be no humanity. Why do humans hesitate? Because of dilemmas; why are there dilemmas? Because it's difficult to reconcile two opposing sides. The homeless person has been human since birth, but because he is incomplete, he doesn't merely live to bear the heart of God, for he sheds tears in his sleep. However, under the influence of excessive grief, he actively abandons humanity, venturing to another extreme. I don't intend to criticize his choice, but I believe those who go down such a wrong path deserve salvation. And the best way to save an extreme person is to present the other extreme before them, to let them confront their most intense inner conflict, to let them know that they don't completely stand on either side, but rather possess both. Therefore, the fact that the stragglers were formatted by the World Tree paved the way for the Traveler and Narcida to redeem him. Only when the kind-hearted wanderer encounters his past life filled with evil deeds will he realize that his perspective has always been narrow and prejudiced; his pursuits have been wishful thinking and obsessive. So-called absolute right and wrong simply do not exist; a world of black and white is merely a figment of one's imagination. Stance may be important, but it is never clearly defined. When we return the truth to the wanderer, are we standing on the side of enemy or friend? Actually, both are valid. Making him remember the sins he committed in the past, subjecting him to mental anguish and punishment, is the "enemy" stance; but on the other hand, everyone has the right to know all the truth about themselves, and to choose based on that—this is what constitutes fairness—this is the "friend" stance.

When faced with conflicts between ourselves and the world around us, and within ourselves, it is precisely because we cannot have both that the different choices we make gain meaning. In the long run, all of our lives are meaningless, no different in essence from those of puppets, but this is a positive form of nihilism: it is precisely because of this meaninglessness that we possess the freedom to imbue everything with meaning. Even though a wanderer doesn't need to worry about survival, he can still discover his own unique meaning in other limited lands.