I'm having EMO, can you help me die?

[Xiao Lan, you're making one person who wants to die try to persuade another who wants to die. Isn't that putting people in a difficult position?]

【Host, I believe in you. 】

【…】

"Then how can I not want to die?" Shen Qingqing nuzzled against Ji Jing.

He didn't want to die. He used to not want to die. It was like there was a voice in his head constantly telling him to live, to live.

But he didn't know why he had to live.

When the apocalypse came, he could vent his emotions at will. He went out to kill zombies, disregarding his own life, just to vent.

He also had a selfish motive: he wanted to die in this era. For others, the apocalypse was a nightmare, but for him, it was the only way to free himself.

But... even now, the things in my mind still keep me alive.

"Qingqing, don't leave me."

He... could die, but Shen Qingqing could not leave him. She was the only thing that truly belonged to him in his life, and seeing her made him feel alive.

"Okay, I won't leave you."

After asking for a long time without getting any answers, Shen Qingqing was frustrated. Why did Ji Jing want to die? Then she thought about why she herself wanted to die.

She was always on the verge of dying. In her previous world, she was a coward. Although she wanted to die, she was afraid. She was afraid that she couldn't bring herself to do it and that she wouldn't die.

"Qingqing, I have to go out this afternoon. Be a good girl at home."

Ji Jing is gone, and she doesn't know anyone at the base.

"When are you coming back?"

She felt a deep sense of reluctance that even she herself was unaware of.

"tomorrow."

"Oh."

Come back soon.

These past few days have been his limit, and the things in his mind are urging him on.

If we don't take action soon, he might be tempted to destroy the entire base.

"Obedient."

"Oh."

[Character design, host.]

【tired.】

[You've been too lazy to act several times, and if I get caught, I'll get criticized.]

Didn't you say you'd punish me if I didn't play the role?

Don't be too complacent.

in the afternoon.

[Character design, host.]

Goodbye, muah!

Shen Qingqing kissed Ji Jing.

"wait for me."

He patted her head.

For the first time, I felt that going out could be a pleasant experience.

Ji Jing left, and Shen Qingqing lay on the sofa with her head facing the ground.

"I am bored."

"The apocalypse is so boring."

Why don't you go check out those people outside the base and see if they're bored?

"none of my business."

Shen Qingqing stared at the ceiling, lost in thought.

"Little Lazy, why do you think people live?"

[For survival? For money? For a sense of superiority?]

"Yes and no. Everyone says that having money can prevent half the world's population from becoming depressed, but I don't believe it."

[Host, try to take it easy.]

"From birth, I was forced to study diligently, like an NPC. I wasn't allowed to have any other thoughts, and I wasn't allowed to stray from the path of survival. I had to go to school, work, earn money, and support my family."

"When I was making preparations, it was all in service of this line."

"But nobody asked me if I was willing to do it, and nobody asked me if I wanted to do it."

"Because I have no money, I am not a superior person, I am not worthy of these thoughts, and that makes sense."

As she grew into adulthood, she gradually stopped wanting her interests, hobbies, and desires. People said that things would be better once she grew up.

But even as she grew up, she remained the same.

Sometimes she really envied people with physical disabilities; at least they had the will to live and the willpower, while she felt like a lump of mud, being put here and there. (No other meaning intended ^_^)

"I don't understand why Ji Jing wants me to stay by his side."

Xiao Lan scratched his head. "Maybe he likes you."

Shen Qingqing remained expressionless, but she gave a slight twitch at the corner of her mouth.

"Do you think that's possible?"

She didn't even like herself, and besides, Ji Jing's feelings for her were more like attraction.

The moment she saw him, she knew he wanted to kill her.

But he didn't.

"Is there any way to keep him from dying?"

Wait a moment, I'll go ask him.

She rolled her eyes while lying on the sofa. Sigh! I'm so tired. I'm going to take a nap.

A few minutes later.

[Host! Host! You're awake! I'm back!]

"Hmm...do I need to greet you when you come back?"

"A person with a strong conviction will not die easily; once a conviction is formed, the soul may linger in the world."

I knew I shouldn't have had any illusions about this.

"Is it so easy to develop an obsession?"

It's so easy to give me an obsession, so she won't live in confusion forever.

"Ji Jing can't live without you."

You must be mistaken; it's that she can't live without Ji Jing.

"I'm not going to talk anymore, let me rest, I'm tired."

"Warning! Warning! Warning!"

"What is that? What's wrong?"

Shen Qingqing was startled awake by the sudden sound.

"Attention all personnel! A large horde of zombies is approaching from two kilometers directly in front of the base!"

Killer Base Control Room.

"Have you made contact with the leader?"

"No! The signal is blocked!"

"What should I do?"

"Notify the other four ministers!"

The killer base has been specially modified by the doctor and will not be easily breached.

I'm afraid this time it won't be just one wave, but several waves.

"The zombies haven't attacked the base once in a year. It just so happens that the leader left, and then they came."

"Could it be!"

"There's a mole within the base!"

Shen Qingqing ran out and ran into Jiang Tian and Jiang Yu.

"Are you guys okay?"

"It's alright, sister."

"The zombie horde is coming."

The sky was dark and heavy, as if something was about to return.

"Are you going?" Jiang Tian asked Shen Qingqing.

He felt that the time he spent with Shen Qingqing was the luckiest time for him and his sister.

He was willing to listen to Shen Qingqing.

"Go and have a look."

After all, there's still a group of people outside...

On the city wall of the base.

"Did you hear that?"

"A horde of zombies is coming!"

"Let's run!"

"run!"

"Where to run?"

With nowhere to go, running into the distance would only mean certain death at the hands of the zombies.

"Inside the base!"

"Yes, we can go to the base!"

Immediately, a large crowd of refugees surged toward the base gate, pounding on it despite it being tightly shut.

"Please, please save us!"

"Please, please save us!"

"Please, please save us!"

The voices of everyone gradually merged, filled with pleading and despair.

With an uncertain future and no idea whether the base can hold on, the people inside may only be destined to die sooner or later.

Yi Yang, Liu Ye, and other ministers received the combat orders.

They jumped off the base's walls and stood in front of the group of people, ready to meet the oncoming horde of inhuman beings.

"Sister, aren't we going down?"

Jiang Yu tilted her head and asked Shen Qingqing in confusion.

She felt the excitement in her blood.

"Wait a minute, let's figure out their route first."