I transmigrated into the villain's white moonlight, but the protagonist is my brother.

Shen Yan looked terrible; his face was pale and his chest was heaving rapidly.

Xie Yutong screamed in fright, and Wei Xinqiong quickly hugged her to comfort her.

The surrounding area was in chaos.

Shen Yan raised his hand to wipe the bloodstains from his face, but his hand was also covered in blood. Wiping it made his face look even bloodier.

The boy, who was always gentle, now had a cold expression. His thin and frail body was like a taut bow, and he exuded a dangerous aura. He was completely different from his usual self.

His dark eyes were devoid of any light, as if unfocused, staring blankly ahead.

Others might be too frightened to notice the scene, but Xie Yan knew immediately when she met Shen Yan's eyes that something was wrong with him, very wrong.

Moreover, Shen Yan shouldn't have been part of the storyline for Xie Yutong's birthday party today. The Gu family didn't even bother with the Xie family's invitations, so no one from the Gu family came.

But now is not the time to delve into those things.

Blood was still dripping from Shen Yan's hand, indicating that he also had a wound.

He pursed his lips tightly, glanced at Xie Yan, and then turned and left.

!!!

Xie Yan immediately chased after him and grabbed his arm, asking, "Shen Yan, are you alright—"

She grabbed Shen Yan's wrist, clutching the white shirt sleeve in her hand, but the feel of it was strange.

His palms felt somewhat sticky, and when he looked down, his cuffs were also stained red. His arms were trembling slightly.

"You're injured??"

Xie Yan wanted to ask a few more questions, but unexpectedly Shen Yan forcefully pulled his arm back and walked out without looking back. Xie Yan followed without thinking.

Shen Yan's condition is too strange, and there's no original plot to refer to, so she's afraid something might happen.

Upon reaching the entrance, Shen Yan walked towards the parking lot in a daze, but Xie Yan would never let him drive in his current state.

Xie Yan had been reluctant to drive lately, but she had no choice now. She forcefully pushed Shen Yan into the passenger seat, fastened his seatbelt, and then sat in the driver's seat herself.

"I'll take you to the hospital first."

Shen Yan clenched his fists, his breathing rapid, and finally spoke, "I'm not going."

Xie Yan frowned. "Your hand is injured."

Shen Yan was as stubborn as a child who couldn't be reasoned with, "I'm not going."

Xie Yan turned her head and saw that Shen Yan had already leaned against the car window with his eyes closed, his face looking extremely pale.

But she could only watch helplessly, and finally, with a somber face, she drove the car in another direction.

Neither of them spoke a word the rest of the way.

[What's wrong? Why is he acting so strangely and poorly today? Is it something mental? And why is he here today? Wasn't Shen Yan absent for a while?]

The system paused, ignoring the second question, [Pretty much. On his way here, he saw a dead cat that had fallen from a high-rise building, which triggered him. After arriving today, he hid to control his emotions, and as soon as he came out, he impulsively injured someone and caused bloodshed...]

Upon hearing this, Xie Yan felt extremely conflicted and distressed.

Shen Yan has always been an exceptionally intelligent person. He has lived a life of extreme caution over the years, and has received almost universal praise and affection.

Normally, he would never do something so irrational.

Xie Yan felt a tightness in her chest. "But I didn't need him to save me at all. I could have easily slapped those two away, one each. His intervention only made things worse."

She is now in very good physical condition and can handle men who don't usually exercise. Besides, Li Chuan harassed her first, so even if she calls the police, she is in the right and has nothing to fear.

However, Shen Yan went too far, cracking the man's skull open. They were from the same school, so this feud is now firmly established. The Li family probably won't forgive him easily, and Gu Jinhua will also be angry.

The system sighed. "You don't need anyone to save you, but he doesn't know that. He's mentally ill. What's the point of reasoning with him? Besides, he's so aggressive; I suggest you stay away."

Xie Yan frowned and stopped talking, focusing on driving.

Fortunately, nothing happened along the way, and Xie Yan parked the car at the entrance of a residential area.

"Shen Yan, we've arrived."

These past few days, Xie Yan has rented a place near the North Second Ring Road. She doesn't want to stay in a hotel every day anymore; it makes her feel too lost and upset.

Shen Yan looked dejected and his reactions were a bit slow. Xie Yan had to call him several times before he responded.

Without saying a word, Xie Yan pulled him upstairs, but she didn't dare to use too much force, afraid of hurting Shen Yan's wound.

It was already dark when Xie Yan entered the room and turned on the living room light, illuminating the interior layout in its entirety.

Xie Yan had only moved in a few days ago, and things were still a bit messy. The coffee table and sofa were covered with various computer parts, and some packaging boxes and foam boxes that she hadn't had time to throw away were scattered all over the floor, making it impossible to even step on them.

Xie Yan quickly cleared two seats on the sofa, and then pulled the person over to sit down.

"How are you feeling? Does your hand hurt? Can I take a look?"

"..." Shen Yan remained silent.

He lowered his head, letting Xie Yan pull him along. His expressionless face was stained with blood that had darkened in color. He didn't blink, and at first glance, he looked as terrifying as a finely crafted mannequin.

Others might be frightened by Shen Yan's appearance, but Xie Yan wouldn't.

She had seen Shen Yan's silent, lifeless demeanor when he was little. She remembered the first time she brought little Shen Yan home, he was still trying to snatch a pancake from a stray dog ​​by the trash can.

Despite its small size, it is both silent and stubborn.

It's exactly the same as when I was a child.

Since Shen Yan didn't speak, Xie Yan didn't press him. She took two wet wipes from the coffee table and wiped the dirt off Shen Yan's face.

She could feel the boy's body tense, but his eyelashes were lowered, and he remained motionless with his lips pursed, as obedient as a puppet.

Xie Yan wiped quietly, her movements extremely gentle.

After wiping her face, she grabbed Shen Yan's left hand and tried to roll up his blood-stained sleeve to check the situation.

She didn't understand how Shen Yan's action of hitting someone with a plate could have injured his wrist.

But this time Shen Yan reacted; he tried to pull his hand back with all his might.

Shen Yan was very strong, and Xie Yan almost couldn't hold on. Eager to see her wound, she immediately shouted, "Listen to me! Give me your hand!"

Seemingly startled by Xie Yan's sudden increase in volume, Shen Yan's thin body trembled slightly. He looked up at Xie Yan, his dark eyes unfocused and somewhat bewildered.

Like a child who has been scolded for no reason, bewildered and with a hint of grievance.

Shen Yan was suddenly triggered today and has had another episode. He is currently in a childlike state, and seeing the cat fall to its death makes him feel as if he has returned to when he was eight years old.

When Shen Yan looked at her with that unfocused and blank gaze, Xie Yan felt a pang in her heart, a sour and uncomfortable feeling rising within her.

She already knew that Shen Yan was not in a good mental state, but knowing it in a dream and seeing it in reality are two completely different things, and they are two completely different feelings.

She felt both bitter and sorrowful, her heart heavy beyond measure.

After readjusting her emotions, Xie Yan took a couple of deep breaths, put on a smile, and gently coaxed him, trying not to upset him, "Sweetie, let your senior see your hand, okay? Does your hand hurt a lot?"

Under the warm light, Xie Yan's eyebrows and eyes were relaxed and gentle. When she smiled, it was as if she was covered with a layer of light golden light, so gentle that it made people want to cry.

Unconsciously, Shen Yan gradually loosened his grip and stopped resisting Xie Yan.

Xie Yan finally found an opening and quickly and gently rolled up his sleeve.

But the scene before her left her utterly shocked.

Because they rarely see sunlight, their pale, bluish arms are covered with dense scars.

Aside from some cigarette burns that Xie Yan had seen since childhood, there were many more red marks that she had never seen before, which hadn't faded yet, like cuts.

The incision lines were intricate and complex, with new wounds piling up before the old ones had even healed, and the scabs were peeled off again to reveal the raw, red flesh.

Even more shocking were the bite marks on her wrists.

Like a wild beast biting its prey's throat, Shen Yan's wrist was a blurry mess from his own bite.

Blood beads continued to ooze out, and the wound was incredibly fresh.

Xie Yan felt as if she had been struck on the head; she couldn't utter a single word, and her eyes welled up with tears.

With Shen Yan's current status, no one can bully him like before.

Only he himself could have turned him into this.

Incredulously, she asked the system in her mind, "You said he just hid away to control his emotions. Is this his method of controlling his emotions? Self-harm???"

"Yes, as you saw, it happened so suddenly, he didn't have a knife to use, so..."

...So they try every possible way to hurt themselves.

Xie Yan's throat tightened, and when she came to her senses, she found herself crying.

It must have hurt so much to bite yourself like that.

She had corrected him into a cute and well-behaved child when he was little, so how did he turn out like this?

Her vision was blurred by tears, and Xie Yan could no longer see the scene in front of her. She raised her hand to wipe away her tears, but she couldn't wipe them away no matter what she did.

Shen Yan thought he had frightened her, and hurriedly withdrew his hand, pulling his sleeve back to cover the wound completely, murmuring softly, "Don't look, don't look..."

He huddled in the corner of the sofa, head down, repeatedly muttering, "Don't look."

Xie Yan stared at him blankly, tears streaming down her face.

[System, is there any medicine in the shop that can cure him?]

System: [No, besides, all the edible medicines are locked. The only ones you can buy are some topical ointments.]

[That's fine.]

Xie Yan got up and pretended to get the first-aid kit. Then she took the opportunity to buy some iodine, cotton swabs, gauze, hemostatic ointment and other things in the mall and brought them all over.

When the medicine was applied to Shen Yan, he turned his face away and didn't make a sound, as if he couldn't feel the pain.

After wrapping her wrist with a bandage, Xie Yan let out a long breath. As if she had made up her mind, she stared straight at Shen Yan.

"Take off your clothes and let me see."

She wanted to check if Shen Yan had any other wounds that needed treatment and take care of them as well.

Besides, Shen Yan seemed a bit dazed today. He's usually incredibly shrewd and not so easily coaxed.

As expected, Shen Yan's face showed a blank expression again; his confused brain was unable to process the instruction.

So Xie Yan tentatively reached out, wanting to unbutton his shirt.

However, things didn't go as smoothly as she had imagined. Shen Yan immediately reached out and grabbed Xie Yan's slender wrist with great force.

He kept his head down, his black hair hanging down to cover his eyebrows and eyes, his thin, bloodless lips trembling slightly, his voice extremely weak.

"Don't look... I'm so ugly..."

For some reason, every word Shen Yan said tonight seemed to hit Xie Yan's tear ducts, and she couldn't hold back her tears again.

She tried her best to hold back her tears, raised her other hand and gently rubbed Shen Yan's soft hair, soothing him like a kitten.