I transmigrated into the villain's white moonlight, but the protagonist is my brother.

In this state, Shen Yan is completely unreasonable.

Gentleness, gentlemanliness, pretense—none of it exists.

He was unusually stubborn today, and his emotions were more intense, making him even harder to deal with than last time.

He squeezed Xie Yan's hand so hard that Xie Yan felt pain.

Xie Yan remained silent, but Shen Yan continued to exert force with his hand, his eyes dark and sinister, as if he were afraid that the person in front of him would shake him off and run away.

His whole body was tense, and he had bitten his lips until they bled, but he seemed oblivious to the pain.

Only when red blood seeped from the corners of his lips did Xie Yan frown, squat down, and reach out with her other hand to forcefully pinch his chin.

"Open your mouth, but don't bite."

With the lights on, Shen Yan bit her pale lips until they bled, giving them an eerie sheen under the light.

He seemed surprised that Xie Yan would suddenly be so close to him, and his stubborn and cold expression went blank for a moment.

Shen Yan's lips are beautifully shaped, like thin flower petals, and look very soft and kissable.

Xie Yan pried his lips open and saw the bloodstains on the corner of his lips. Only then did she realize that she had just given him artificial respiration.

It does indeed feel soft, cool, and smooth...

stop!

Stop!

Can't think any more!

He's just an eighteen-year-old kid!

Xie Yan, oh Xie Yan, you're really hungry!!!

Putting all that nonsense out of her mind, Xie Yan gently wiped away the bloodstains from his lips with her thumb.

Shen Yan trembled slightly, but did not resist.

But he gripped Xie Yan's hand harder and tighter.

People who are afflicted with this condition cannot control their emotions or their strength; they act solely on their most direct inner desires, which is why they are considered extremely dangerous.

Xie Yan winced in pain, but did not shake him off.

"...You hate me."

Shen Yan's hoarse voice rang out, breaking the tense and dangerous atmosphere with the grievance in his tone.

Those four simple words were enough to make Shen Yan's throat tighten and his voice choke, as if saying one more word would cause him to break down emotionally.

"You hate me, I don't want to see you."

He said this, but the force in his hand did not lessen at all, making his words completely unconvincing.

Xie Yan suddenly felt very tired.

I'm exhausted both physically and mentally.

She cried her heart out today, getting soaked twice. Now she can vaguely feel her face burning, and she gets goosebumps from the cold.

She was initially angry because Shen Yan lied to her that Yang Huiyun had passed away, but now that Shen Yan looked like this, she couldn't be angry at all.

Shen Yan's condition was terrible; he was on the verge of a mental breakdown at any moment.

Judging from the wounds on his arms, one can imagine how many times dangerous situations like today have occurred.

But each time, Shen Yan gritted her teeth and persevered alone.

Xie Yan's eyes were filled with pity, and her face was pale. She tried to force a comforting smile, but she couldn't manage to.

She could only gently stroke Shen Yan's cold cheek, look directly into his eyes, sigh, and speak in a gentle yet helpless tone.

"I don't hate you at all, why would you think that?"

Anyone else who had gone through what Shen Yan experienced would probably have died of mental torment in the dark of night long ago.

But Shen Yan is very strong; he is fighting desperately to survive.

Upon hearing this, Shen Yan's eyes became even more misty, his eyes brimming with tears, as if they would fall at any moment.

Only then did his expression soften, revealing an overwhelming sense of grievance.

She said you hate me and that you don't care about me at all.

"......she?"

Xie Yan repeated the word with some confusion, then immediately guessed who the "she" Shen Yan was referring to was.

It's highly likely that Shen Yan is hallucinating; he can see the woman in his dream.

She is like an omnipresent nightmare; she is there when you close your eyes and when you open them, blurring the lines between reality and dream.

How could anyone not go crazy?

So Xie Yan pursed her lips and coaxed softly, "She's lying to you. I like you a lot."

But this time, Shen Yan was not so easy to appease.

He shook his head blankly, "Then why didn't you come to me...?"

Shen Yan looked stunned and helpless, like a bewildered child. Xie Yan felt a pang of sadness and could only remain silent.

Judging from his current appearance, it's not hard to guess that Shen Yan's illness today was probably because he recognized him.

When she underwent surgery, it was her fate; she wouldn't live much longer and had to leave.

Shen Yan took her casual remark as she parted ways seriously.

I thought children are forgetful and wouldn't care about their childhood playmates, but I didn't expect Shen Yan to be so persistent. He said he would wait, and he will wait forever.

He kept waiting for Xie Yan to come to him, even though he knew Xie Yan was no longer alive.

His way of thinking is always different from that of ordinary people.

If no one comes, then wait for a ghost.

He will keep waiting, no matter what.

【system......】

Xie Yan spoke slowly, "[If I just admit it to him directly, how many points will I lose?]"

Seeing that Shen Yan was no longer in mortal danger, the system's voice softened considerably. [Ten thousand, please. You don't even have enough points to deduct now; you only have a few thousand.]

Hmm... what if they force a deduction? Will it result in a negative score?

No, once your points are cleared, they can't be deducted anymore. Instead, they'll be deducted from other stats you have, just like how you can use points to upgrade stamina. It's a reverse deduction.

The system paused, its tone becoming more serious. "I didn't tell you this before because it was only Shen Yan who suspected you. You could barely get away with it by denying it and avoiding him as much as possible. But if you bring it up directly, it's a different story; that's against the rules."

Xie Yan looked at the dazed and vulnerable boy in front of her, who seemed to be gradually overlapping with her own pitiful and helpless appearance when she was a child, and she pursed her lips with a sense of pity.

What happens if I commit a foul? I'll just lose points, and it's okay if I lose a little stamina.

System: [Cannot deduct points, only health points. 1 health point equals 100 points.]

Xie Yan was utterly shocked: [Only 100 points of health? Seriously, didn't it cost me 500 points to exchange for stamina?! Are you robbing me, bro?!]

The system sighed. [Can normal redemption and rebates be the same? Rebates are always punitive; this mechanism is designed for task-takers who want to ruin their image. Because it's such a bad deal, nobody uses it.]

Xie Yan paused for a moment, then opened her body's data panel to check it.

Its health points are 95, which is quite high.

That's stingy.

Just as the system was about to say a few more words, Xie Yan had already made her decision.

Okay, I got it. Go ahead and deduct it.

System: [? No, are you serious? You only have a little over 5,000 points, and you're going to lose over 40 health points! Can you handle losing almost half your life in one go? If he suspects you, just deny it, isn't that enough?!]

Xie Yan simply pursed her lips, having made her decision.

Again.

She was given a second chance at life, or rather, she was stolen after she died. Every extra day she lives is a bonus.

She couldn't bear to watch others almost lose their lives because of her, while she remained indifferent and didn't care.

This is Shen Yan's world, not hers.

She intervened in his life, saving him but also giving him an impossible hope, causing him to sink deeper and deeper into the illusion.

Xie Yan had seen Shen Yan's dream. She had only witnessed it once and was so frightened that she had nightmares for two days. Shen Yan, on the other hand, had nightmares every day, and today he almost walked through the underworld again.

Most importantly, Xie Yan wasn't acting impulsively. When she returned to Yunchuan City in a couple of days, didn't she still have Xie Qingyu? That was her backup plan.

She went to Xie Qingyu to boost her score, and could get the points back. Why not use a score-boosting tool?

Anyway, the points can be recovered, it'll just be painful for a few days.

"Deduct it." Xie Yan repeated.

The system had never seen a host make such a request before, and after trying to persuade them a few times without success, it had no other choice.

With a cold, metallic sound, Xie Yan felt a sudden darkness before her eyes.

Half of her strength was instantly drained away. Her vision went black for a few seconds, and she was so dizzy that she couldn't see anything. She collapsed to the side, completely exhausted.

When people are healthy, they don't always feel anything, but once they get sick, they immediately realize the importance of health.

Xie Yan couldn't pinpoint exactly where she was feeling unwell, but she felt as if an invisible shackle had been placed over her body, making her feel uncomfortable and unable to breathe.

After a long while, Xie Yan finally recovered and regained her vision and clarity.

She collapsed helplessly, and Shen Yan caught her in his arms, startling the boy so much that his eyes turned red.

He held Xie Yan's thin shoulders tightly, his other hand trembling as he checked her breath and gently stroked her cheek, not daring to use any force, as if afraid of breaking her.

He didn't understand why a perfectly healthy person would suddenly collapse, and why their face would suddenly turn so pale, as if they had fainted.

But Xie Yan felt incredibly relaxed and happy, a feeling she had never experienced before.

She can tell the truth now.

She raised her arms and gave Shen Yan a big hug, ignoring the coldness of his body that made her shiver, but still holding him very tightly.

"I'm sorry, Shen Yan."

"My sister is late."