Quick Transmigration: Only You Are the Desire of My Heart

My name is Chu Hanxi. I was reborn, reborn before all of this happened...

In my previous life, Ji Ying said she fell in love with me at first sight and wanted to pursue me. So I was harassed by her for more than three months. She would bring me breakfast without fail, wait for me between classes, bribe my roommates, ask me out to dinner and movies... she used all sorts of methods, even though I never responded.

I refused her time and time again, but she seemed not to understand. Even after I refused her, she would do whatever she wanted the next second.

I've been emotionally detached since childhood; it's as if my feelings for this world are veiled by a thin film. I know perfectly well what I'm doing, and I can feel the emotions those around me give me, but I'm unable to reciprocate in kind.

I exist in this world, yet I am also like someone adrift outside of it, like a rootless duckweed, unaware of where I came from or where I am going.

I am who I am, but it seems like I am not entirely myself.

Ji Ying's appearance was like an accident in my world. I could ignore her, but she kept disrupting my rhythm and was extremely annoying.

So I agreed to her advances, hoping to have some peace and quiet in my life. And just as I hoped, after we started dating, she stopped bothering me every day. As long as I occasionally agreed to some of her harmless requests, I was able to live a peaceful life, just like I had for the previous 20 years.

So we lived peacefully together for two years. I had heard the rumors that we were a perfect couple, but I didn't care at all.

I know perfectly well that I have no feelings for her, and she may not be that sincere towards me either.

I was very happy when the "digital ecosystem" was completed. It was also around that time that I received an invitation from Ji Ying to celebrate together. Although I was impatient, I wanted to end my relationship with her, so I readily agreed.

On my way there, I was in a car accident. An out-of-control truck came hurtling towards me, giving me no chance to dodge. At the moment of death, I surprisingly felt a sense of relief; it was both an end and a beginning.

After my death, I was surprised to find that my consciousness was wandering in the world, or as one might call it, my soul. I watched my parents collect my body, watched relatives and friends come to pay their respects, watched the deep sorrow and weeping in the mourning hall, but my heart remained completely unmoved.

Then, I saw Ji Ying sorting through my belongings as my girlfriend. She was sadly reminiscing about me while also discussing the "digital ecosystem" collaboration with Fu Sinian.

That's when I realized why she chose me from the start. "Digital ecosystem" is something I started developing in high school, and by college it was already semi-mature. I never deliberately hid my research, and it's not hard to find out if you're interested. It turns out that this was what she was after from the beginning.

With my doubts resolved, I wasn't sad, but it was a pity about my research, which could have played a much greater role.

So I followed Ji Ying around, watching her achieve success step by step, and watching her decadent life, and gradually I grew tired of it.

It was around this time that I discovered someone was targeting Ji Ying, questioning whether the achievements of the "digital ecosystem" belonged to her.

Although rumors don't carry much weight, I still saw it. This piqued my interest a bit more. So, following Ji Ying's investigation, I met Song Qingyin.

My childhood sweetheart who grew up with me.

When I saw her, I could hardly connect her with the person I remembered. She was emaciated and frail, and although she was in her thirties, she looked like she was over fifty.

In my memory, she always seemed to have a gentle, smiling face.

I began to piece together her past little by little from the details of her life.

My death seemed to have a huge impact on her; she refused to believe it was an accident. She even traced the investigation back to Ji Ying. I don't know whether to laugh at her naivety or her stupidity.

She is no match for Ji Ying now; Ji Ying could deliver a fatal blow with just one word.

Fortunately, when faced with a life-or-death crisis, she finally regained her senses. With Fu Sinian's secret help, she settled down in a remote town with her family and my parents.

It was only later that I learned she had lost her job because of me, which had caused her parents to suffer. I don't understand how someone could do such a thing to another.

I watched her earn money to support four elderly people all by herself. It's not that many people advised her to find someone to rely on, but she refused them all.

I know she likes me, but I can't empathize with her. Her liking is different from the liking Ji Ying talks about, but I can't put my finger on why.

But I know I owe her something. She didn't have to take care of my parents, since we're not related by blood.

I watched her care for both sets of parents until their deaths, and I watched her die in her forties or fifties, alone and miserable.

After Song Qingyin died, I felt a pull, and then I lost consciousness without warning.

When I woke up again, I was in class. It took me a while to figure out what was going on.

I'm back, back to the time before I started dating Ji Ying.

I'm planning to go home and visit that person. I should be feeling something different, but unfortunately, I still can't feel anything.

The crossing of time and space has made me feel somewhat disconnected from reality, and I can no longer distinguish between falsehood and reality.

When I got home, I overheard my mother on the phone. Song Qingyin had a fever and was home alone.

So I offered to go and take a look.

After returning, I met Song Qingyin for the first time.

She was wearing cotton pajamas, her cheeks were flushed, and she looked like a wilted eggplant. She didn't have the gloom that she would later have; instead, she seemed vibrant and beautiful.

Looking into her moist eyes, my heart began to pound. It was as if, in that instant, seeing her gave me a sense of belonging, as if I had found my direction.

It's strange, I've never had such intense emotions before. Even after knowing everything she did, I was very calm. Is it because I was a ghost before?

I clearly noticed something different about her. But I didn't want to delve into it, because I liked her the way she was.

Is she still her, and am I still me?

Sometimes, it's not necessary to distinguish between right and wrong so clearly.

Being with her, I feel like I'm gradually becoming whole again. And I'm paying more and more attention to her. She's very special to me now, and she can easily stir up my emotions.

I started to reach out to her and invite her out. The longer we spent together, the stronger my feelings for her became, but I didn't dislike her at all.

I'm quite satisfied with my current situation, except that Ji Ying is always bouncing around in front of me, which is annoying.

However, I also have to thank Ji Ying, because she helped me clarify my relationship with A Yin more quickly, and I am happy to take our relationship to the next level.

I didn’t expect Ji Ying to make a move against A Yin so quickly. After A Yin disappeared, I was more afraid than ever before, and a sense of resentment filled my body.

Thankfully, Ayin sent a message in time, which allowed me to confirm her safety; otherwise, I don't know if I would have collapsed.

Ah Yin came back. No one knew that when I saw Ah Yin lying on the ground, barely alive, I almost ran towards her with weak legs.

I was surrounded by fear and dread. I knew something was wrong with me, but I never expected that Ayin would be the first to notice.

She gently comforted me and stayed by my side.

I gradually calmed down, but how could I forgive the real mastermind behind it all?

Ah Qiang, I met him when I was with Ji Ying in my previous life, so I know exactly who planned this kidnapping.

I reported Ji Ying, but that's not enough. After all, those who do wrong should be punished, shouldn't they?

I preemptively partnered with Fu Sinian, thwarting his collaboration with Ji Ying. Although I didn't know what connection the two had, I would eliminate any assistance Ji Ying might provide.

This became the final straw that broke her back; I was happy to see Ji Ying go mad.

I never expected Ji Ying to go crazy in the street, but this will only push her into an even deeper abyss.

Ji Ying's problem is solved; finally, no one will bother us anymore.

I know that Ayin might have some secrets, maybe she, like me, came back from a previous life, but what does it matter?

In short, this time, I didn't miss you.

Ah Yin, we will be very happy in this life!