The CEO's wife, suffering from terminal cancer, is filled with regret!

After the pain subsided, my clothes were already soaked with cold sweat.

"Buzzing."

My phone made a muffled sound in my pocket. I nervously took it out, but when I saw the name on the screen, all my strength gave way, and I slumped into the driver's seat.

It wasn't her call.

I tightened my grip on my phone slightly and answered Meng Jinghuai's call with a wry smile.

"what happened?"

Meng Jinghuai is my best friend who grew up with me, and he was also the doctor who diagnosed me with a terminal illness.

The next second, Meng Jinghuai's worried voice came from the phone, "Nan Chen, when are you planning to be hospitalized for treatment?"

I glanced up at the dark clouds in the distance and answered his question with a wry smile.

"My condition is such that even hospitalization wouldn't improve it much."

Meng Jinghuai's disapproving voice came through the phone, "What nonsense are you talking about? You've only been diagnosed with a minor illness, how could it be incurable!"

"As long as you cooperate with the hospitalization treatment, it won't be long before you're back to normal."

I could hear the heaviness in my good friend's voice, and my hand holding the phone tightened involuntarily.

He is my attending physician and knows very well how serious my illness is. He is only saying this now in order to let me live a little longer.

"Jinghuai, I want to relax for the rest of the time."

I don't want to be confined to a small hospital room where all I can see are four white walls.

I also want to be kinder to myself.

After a long silence, the person on the other end of the phone asked in a hoarse voice, "Does she know about you?"

I lowered my eyelids and pursed my lips without saying a word.

Whether she knows about me or not is irrelevant; she's never cared about me anyway.

The next second, Meng Jinghuai's angry voice came through the phone again—

"Ji Nanchen! Just how low will you stoop for such a shameless woman?"

"You've done so much for her all these years, but what has she done for you?! Besides cheating on you, what has she ever done for you?!"

I gripped my phone tightly, took a deep breath, and tried to say something, but couldn't utter a single word.

After Meng Jinghuai finished speaking indignantly, he didn't hear me speak. He paused for a moment, then sighed helplessly.

"You've been a simp for so many years, isn't that enough?"

"Nan Chen, let her go, and let yourself go too."

Should we get a divorce?

But I never thought about divorcing Shen Zhixia.

To me, she is the only light in my suffering life. I have been devoted to her for many years and regard her as my life. How could I give her up easily?

But now, I'm about to die.

I raised my hand to wipe away the tears on my face, held my breath, and said in a low voice, "I will seriously consider it."

When Meng Jinghuai heard this, he didn't try to persuade me any further. He just told me to go to the hospital again the next day to get some medicine to relieve my pain.

I agreed because I want to be kinder to myself in the time ahead.

After I drove home, I spent the afternoon cooking a meal, all of which were her favorite dishes.

She said she would go home depending on the situation.

We haven't eaten together in a long time.

That day, I waited for her at home for a very long time, until the clock struck midnight, but she still hadn't come home.

I was quietly tidying up the uneaten food, and just as I was getting ready to go to sleep, I heard a noise coming from the doorway.

She returned looking exhausted, her gaze towards me filled with impatience and mockery.

"Still not asleep?"

"Xia, why are you back?"

I looked at her, somewhat at a loss, who had suddenly returned home. Just as I was about to ask her if she was hungry, her impatient voice rang out first, "This is my home. Do I need to report to you before I come back?"

"No, that's not what I meant."

As soon as I finished speaking, Shen Zhixia suddenly walked towards me and hooked her arm around my neck.

"Pei Jin, I miss you."

My body stiffened, and a dense, stabbing pain shot through my chest.

During the three years we were married, she always called out Pei Jin's name when we made love, just to humiliate me.

But I couldn't refuse her.

The next second, her bright red lips pressed against mine, her mumbled words barely audible.

I turned my head away from her lips. "I am not Pei Jin."

Upon hearing this, Shen Zhixia stared at me with a mocking expression, as if she had heard a joke.

"Ji Nanchen, do you dare say you don't want it?"

I pursed my lips and didn't say anything. The next moment, she leaned on me again.

"The person I love is Pei Jin. The only meaning of your life is to atone for your sins with the rest of your life!"

My body stiffened, and I turned to leave, but I couldn't bear to leave her alone like that.

In the three years of our marriage, Shen Zhixia has only been home a handful of times. She treats me like a male model and our home like a hotel, only coming back to visit when she's bored.

"Ji Nanchen, you're a dark and disgusting little man. What are you pretending to be so affectionate with me for? It disgusts me!"

I frowned and didn't say anything, only greedily absorbing her flavor.

Shen Zhixia, do you know that the first person I met was me?

You should have liked me.

When Shen Zhixia saw the resentment in my eyes, she paused for a moment, then continued what she was doing.

After a long while, the once tidy bed became extremely messy. Shen Zhixia, lying on the bed, kicked me off the bed in disgust.

When I was kicked off the bed, my head hit the floor, and I winced in pain.

"Ji Nanchen, I've given you what you wanted. But you're not allowed to go to Xiao Jin anymore!"

Her voice was cold and impatient, as if I shouldn't be alive in this world.

I curled myself up into a ball on the cold floor, like a turtle retreating into its shell, trying to protect my vulnerable self.

It used to be Pei Jin, now it's Xu Jin, and there will be many more people similar to Pei Jin in the future.

But that person can never be me.

After today, I will divorce Shen Zhixia.

In these final moments, I want to be kinder to myself.

……

The next morning, when I woke up, Shen Zhixia had already left.

When I stood in front of the bathroom mirror to wash up, I almost didn't recognize myself.

His once handsome face had become incredibly thin, and his complexion had turned pale.

After being stubborn for so many years, it's time for me to let go.

After I got myself ready, I drove straight to my design studio.

In the three years since I married Shen Zhixia, I've spent all my time, apart from her, on my studio.

The studio's operations have been much worse lately, and I know that part of the reason is Shen Zhixia.

To get revenge on me, she arranged for someone to open a competing studio, just to steal clients from my studio.

This studio is the culmination of all my hard work. After I die, who will take over its management?

My partner is very capable at work, but he is bad at management. If the studio is handed over to him, it will go bankrupt sooner or later.

But besides him, who else can keep this studio running?