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Chapter 32: My Senior Has Someone He Loves (Bonus Chapter)

Song Zhishu, I still like you very much.

May you be as gentle as the spring breeze in the future, and not as mad as I am.

I am Gu Zhisu.

I didn't know how fragile I was, how easily I could become dependent on someone. Until I met Xia Xiaoxiao. In that simple, instant moment, my heart fluttered. But... I couldn't openly pursue her, to love her, because I was afraid my swarm of admirers would disturb her peaceful life.

But when I saw her with Yu Mosheng, the anger in my heart roared, and I wanted to break through my reason and tell her how much I loved her.

Unfortunately, I can't.

But I knew I could do it eventually. It's in my nature to be proud. So, I set my sights on Song Zhishu. That girl is truly wonderful; if I weren't there, she would probably be very happy.

She told me that no one in her life knew she loved carrot-filled buns. It's really ridiculous that the eldest daughter of the Tang and Song families would fall for someone because of a bun.

But it is also strangely sad.

But she didn't know that I only remembered Xia Xiaoxiao's fondness for carrot-filled buns. I silently made a note of it, comforting myself that it was just a sense of kinship, nothing romantic, right?

However, to my surprise, I actually fell in love with her.

This girl is truly exceptional. She can give up everything to save you and stay by your side without hesitation. She's completely different from Xia Xiaoxiao's vivaciousness; she's like ripples on the deep sea, gentle, lonely, and almost silent. Her tenderness is easily overlooked, yet etched into her very being. I began to be captivated, captivated by this feeling of being loved, forgetting that I also needed to love. Deep down, I stubbornly believed that Xia Xiaoxiao was my ideal woman, the sun I wanted to chase. Even in my diary, I was deceiving myself.

I don't know when I fell for her. Maybe it was when she smiled and said "I say yes" in the morning light that I fell for her. She smiled and talked about our future, about having a child...

That was...so wonderful.

As I put that cheap ring on her finger, I felt a strange sense of satisfaction. I thought, let it be like this, let's care for each other, let's be capricious with each other, but everything ended with that diary.

That was the first time I felt such immense panic, as if something important had vanished. I desperately tried to hold on, but it kept slipping away. I didn't have time to stop it; I was already facing its lonely silhouette.

No...it shouldn't be like this...

Won't we have a sweet home? We'll have a child!

She had her bodyguards take her things away... That's when I realized that she had already become a part of my life.

That was the first time Xia Xiaoxiao called me, and I didn't expect to be so happy. She's leaving, never to come back. Has she... come to hate me that much...?

I wanted to try and keep her, but when I saw her distant smile, I suddenly felt relieved. See, she dislikes you so much, why bother adding to her troubles? I said goodbye to her, and that was the end of that.

Letting go is the only thing I can do for her, at the cost of a lifetime of loneliness.

But he didn't know that his letting go would leave her with many regrets for the rest of her life.

I tried to please you with all my heart, but my pride led me to make a fool of myself.

—Gu Zhisu, "Sorrow"