Cen Yu'an, who is not particularly career-driven, is now listening to music and lying comfortably on the cloud-like sofa.

Furthermore, the "Phoenix Perching on the Wutong Tree" restaurant also has waiters who can help with massages, manicures, and other services.

There are also photographers and makeup artists here, so guests can have their portraits taken on-site.

The service was excellent.

Cen Yu'an felt like she hadn't been busy with anything, but she had been busy for quite a while.

There's nothing else to do right now anyway.

I don't want to do anything, so I might as well chat with the few people I've added before that I'm trying to poach and show them some concern.

Cen Yu'an lay down halfway and had someone massage her shoulders and neck.

I'm planning to enjoy life for a while and maybe even send some gifts to build up my energy points.

Tao Li finally started complaining to her about her lousy boss, which is a good sign!

After finishing her chat, Cen Yu'an opened Douyin (TikTok) and headed straight to the live streaming platform.

She hadn't expected that after participating in a guild tournament, not only would her energy not increase, but she would also deplete a significant portion of her previously accumulated energy...

What can we do? Just keep sending gifts.

The first live stream she found was chaotic, with a bunch of people gathered on a bridge, seemingly watching something.

People were walking back and forth in front of the camera, hurrying around, their faces obscured.

Cen Yu'an was feeling lazy and didn't even want to move her fingers.

I stayed in the live stream room, with the sound on my phone, listening to what they were doing.

Three minutes have passed...

Finally, someone spoke up.

"Holy crap, guys, this is incredible! Someone actually jumped into the river!"

After saying that, the live stream went black.

Presumably carried away by the authorities, Cen Yu'an quickly sat up straight.

The masseuse who was giving her the massage was also stunned.

Fortunately, she overheard someone in the live stream say that it was at the Wenyuan Bridge.

Cen Yu'an quickly picked up her phone and exited the live stream.

I searched for "Wenyuan Bridge" on the homepage and then selected the latest videos, which showed videos that mentioned the place name that were posted within the last hour.

A video posted by someone showed the moment the girl jumped into the river, captured by his dashcam.

Because it's an extracted video, the resolution isn't very high, but the time is displayed in the upper left corner.

You can clearly see the girl rush to the riverbank and jump over the guardrail in less than 10 seconds.

The comments section was filled with all sorts of opinions, but the majority of them were prayers that the girl was alright.

"I hope everyone stays safe!"

"Fortunately, it's not the flood season yet, so the current isn't too strong. I hope everything will be alright."

"If she wanted to die, why didn't she find a secluded place? Why did she need firefighters to go into the river to rescue her?"

A user with the ID "No Past" commented: "Sometimes death is not giving up on life, but just wanting to end the pain. Maybe she has already lost control of herself."

"He must have suffered some kind of shock, he looks so young!"

"The biggest joke of this century is that if you're not even afraid of death, what else is there to be afraid of?"

"But if you die, you have nothing left! As long as you live, there is always hope."

"Nothing is in the past" continued to reply in the comments section: "You don't understand what it means to be worse than dead, but I do."

"The girl in the video doesn't seem terminally ill, so why is she suffering a fate worse than death?"

"There is no past": "A mental illness is no easier than a physical one."

Cen Yu'an read the comments for a while, then refreshed the homepage to check the live video feed.

Finally, someone posted a follow-up—

The girl was rescued. The firefighters performed the rescue correctly, and she was able to expel the water she had inhaled. She has now been taken to the hospital by ambulance.

Cen Yu'an felt relieved for the moment and returned to the comment section of the video she had just watched, then clicked on the homepage of "Nothing is in the Past".

Her intuition told her that something was wrong with the phrase "nothing is in the past," and that she must be going through a difficult time as well.

The homepage background image for "No Past" is completely black, and only one piece of work has been posted.

The work she posted was a screenshot of a memo, titled "Anti-Depression".

Cen Yu'an glanced at the text on the picture, which read:

"If I can't feel warmth, am I falling into an abyss?"

Today I felt inexplicably suffocated again.

Nausea and vomiting, palpitations and tremors, temporary hearing loss...

I can't change other people.

If you can't change the environment,

It will only drive me crazy.

It was only a few dozen words, but Cen Yu'an found that reading it had taken a lot of her energy.

The words are suffocating, offering no hope.

Cen Yu'an initially gave away large sums of gifts in the live stream because of searches related to "cancer" and "anti-cancer".

Later, the videos that Douyin pushed to her, and those that her fans forwarded to her groups asking her to watch, were mostly live streams from people with physical ailments.

This was the first time she had encountered a netizen with depression.

Following the protest topic of "No Past," Cen Yu'an saw many other works posted by others.

There were cries for help, venting, farewells, and the beeping of hospital equipment...

Another video posted showed her medication scattered on a table, and her perspective of the world was filled with twilight, the sound of rapid breathing in the dead of night, and cries.

Words have power.

Video and sound are more powerful.

After reading about this topic for more than 10 minutes, Cen Yu'an felt very upset and wanted to cry as well.

It's hard to imagine the kind of suffering this group of people endures every day.

Moreover, Cen Yu'an had no idea how to help these people.

Most of their homepages are empty; some don't even have an ID.

Money seems to lose its omnipotence at this moment, appearing so pale...

They are no longer happy; their bodies can no longer produce dopamine.

What is the meaning of money to them?

Some works also have comments like these—

“I hate it when someone suddenly shows concern for me; it makes me feel like something’s wrong with me.”

"I've already become a physical being. This is the last time I'll leave the emergency room. If there's an afterlife, I'll never come back."

Cen Yu'an noticed that some of the accounts that posted these comments had already been deleted.

It was only then that she realized there was such a group of people who longed to be loved but would not ask for it, and who were extremely kind and in need of help.

But how can we truly help them?

We also need to avoid putting unnecessary emotional burden on them.

Cen Yu'an wanted to try starting with "there is no past".

She's willing to comment and speak on social media, so sending her private messages shouldn't bother her too much.

"Hello, I saw your comments under the video of the girl who jumped into the river today. You're also struggling with depression. Can I ask you for some advice?"

There's no past: "Okay, go ahead and say it."

"It's like this, I have a friend, she..."

I can only use the classic "I have a friend" method for now.

It's often said that selfish people are less prone to depression, but let's think about it the other way around.

People who are depressed are at least kind.

Cen Yu'an has now fabricated a story about a friend suffering from depression.

"There is no past" quickly replied to Cen Yu'an with a long message.

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