Quick Transmigration: The Charming Beauty Who Was Short-Lived and Alluring

From as far back as I can remember, the bloodshed of the entire Wang family has been a recurring nightmare in my mind.

My father, mother, and aunt all died tragically before my eyes.

For a long time, I couldn't sleep at night. Every time I closed my eyes, all I could see was a blood-red scene.

My uncle took my cousin and me to hide and live in fear during that time; we never had a moment's peace.

But it was also one of the few happy times I had.

Later, I lived as Pei Jianzhi, a hidden illegitimate son in the Marquis's mansion, and devoted myself to revenge. As the power I secretly cultivated grew stronger and stronger, and my great revenge seemed to be on the verge of being fulfilled, I could not feel any joy.

My father once praised me for my pure heart, saying that I would surely inherit the Wang family's spirit and uphold its honor in the future.

But I am no longer the innocent child I once was.

On my path of revenge, I became unrecognizable.

I have harmed many innocent people.

I know I will face retribution; perhaps I will die young, or perhaps I will fail in my endeavors. In any case, my fate will not be good.

Whatever the outcome, I am willing to accept it.

But I never expected that the final punishment God would give me would be so heart-wrenching.

I never imagined that the name Lin Chuyun would become a lifelong obsession for me.

If I had known this would happen, I would have preferred to have died fifteen years ago, beside my parents and relatives, rather than living a life with nothing.

The first time I saw her was in that icy river.

When I pulled her out of the water, I didn't actually have many feelings.

Ten years of drinking ice, and the heart in my chest has long since turned cold.

But what does it matter if I owe one more person?

I keep reminding myself of this so that I can sleep peacefully through countless dark nights.

I thought I would never cross paths with her again in this life.

Unexpectedly, she asked an elder she knew to take extra care of me. As a mere illegitimate son, I was ignored by everyone in the vast academy. She was the first person to pay attention to me and treat me kindly.

The next time we met was when she gave me those books. I already knew those books by heart, but I would always look at them repeatedly in the quiet of the night, perhaps just because they were a gift from her.

I also hid the hairpin she left behind at Tian Tai Tower in a brocade box, and no one knows about it.

Just like that fleeting, indescribable feeling of being moved.

Burdened with hatred, love is too much of a luxury for me.

Because of her, I pondered the meaning of love for the first time.

Why do I have a slight liking for her?

Perhaps it was because of her gentle features and peaceful gaze; perhaps it was because I felt guilty towards her.

But none of this matters.

Before the Wang family's case was overturned, there was no possibility between us, especially since there was such a huge hidden danger between us.

Later, I got busy building up my influence and gradually forgot about that initial spark.

Actually, if the story ended here, it would be better for both her and me.

That imperial decree changed our fates, binding us together and making me truly confront my own feelings for her.

It turns out that my feelings for you never disappeared; I just hid them away.

On second thought, I'd be willing to trade all my good luck for a month of marriage with her.

If it weren't for my cousin, she and I might have really stayed together forever, provided I could have kept that secret.

In the end, I lost her, and I also lost my only blood relative.

She asked me if I felt guilty when I was with her every day.

I felt guilty. How could I not feel guilty? Every time I looked into her eyes, I felt guilty. I could only force myself to forget those shameful things. After a while, I almost forgot them myself.

Our relationship grew closer and closer, and she became more and more dependent on me. I was really happy, and the month after we got married was the most relaxed and happiest time of my life.

That kind of happiness that you can hold in your hands, that peace of mind that permeates both body and soul, is something I'm incredibly fascinated by.

I'm sorry—to this day, all I can say are these pale words.

She gave me so much joy and happiness, but all I gave her was pain and deception.

It's laughable that I once mocked Song Zhaoming, but now I'm just like him, with nothing to do but apologize.

The moment the palace bells tolled, I knew she was truly dead.

There will be no more resurrection; she is gone forever.

Hearing about the absurd things Yan Jinyu did, I just found it laughable.

If Ah Yun knew about all that he did, it would only make her angrier.

Lost and found again, gained and lost again.

What is not mine, I can never hold onto.

If there is an afterlife, I only wish that Wang Jianzhi died fifteen years ago, and that Lin Chuyun would have a peaceful life.