Locking away my heart and love! Going back to 2000 to be a top student again.

After thinking it over, Xu Su finally spoke up, "I used to just think he was annoying and I habitually misinterpreted all his good qualities. Looking back now, I think I liked him a long time ago, but I just didn't want to admit it."

"Xi Zirong, I didn't want to hurt you at all, really, I never thought I would make you so sad." Xu Su felt extremely guilty. She didn't even dare to look up at the boy's expression, and she spoke with her face turned to the side.

Xi Zirong has always been intelligent; at least at this moment, he could clearly tell that her words came from the heart.

The girl's guilt was very obvious... but it seemed that there was only guilt...

It felt like a gaping hole had been torn in his heart, letting in a blast of cold wind. Xi Zirong's teeth chattered from the cold, and it took him a long time to find his voice. "And what about me? Were all those times you said you liked me fake?"

"You said you've realized you like Zhou Mochen, but what about our relationship?" His voice was hoarse as he persistently pressed on. "You also said you felt sorry for me and kissed me first, Xu Su, why did you suddenly stop wanting me?"

Why did you suddenly change your mind...?

Xi Zi looked completely bewildered. He truly didn't understand why his lover, who had been so close to him just a week ago, would be so determined to break up with him.

Xu Su himself couldn't give a clear answer to this question.

She could only remain silent...

Xu Su really couldn't explain her complicated feelings for Zhou Mochen to anyone else.

Without firsthand experience, words alone cannot express it.

The countless moments from her past and present lives, the entanglement between her and Zhou Mochen, are already etched into her very bones.

Perhaps it was after that ghostly experience that I truly realized I liked Zhou Mochen.

But before becoming a ghost and truly seeing the emaciated 35-year-old Zhou Mochen, did Xu Su never feel a single emotion towards the Zhou Mochen who was so obedient to her in this life?

some...

However, at that time, her eagerness to get rid of him took over, so Xu Su didn't dare to analyze her feelings for Zhou Mochen and could only treat them all as annoyance.

Looking back now, there were actually many times when she felt reluctant to do it.

In the mala tang (spicy hot pot) restaurant in Kang County, on the playground of No. 1 Middle School, and even last summer when Zhou Mochen drove overnight to his grandmother's house to find her... besides annoyance, there were many other complicated feelings...

Those feelings weren't just about being moved... there was also a lot of love she was unwilling to admit.

A sudden tightening around her waist interrupted Xu Su's thoughts as Xi Zirong pulled her into his arms. "Answer me, why don't you want me anymore?"

He rested his chin on Xu Su's uninjured shoulder and said softly, "Su Su, you said you liked me."

Xu Su's heart skipped a beat, and she quickly nodded, "I did like you, Xi Zirong. Don't doubt yourself, I really did like you."

"But it's true that you don't want me now, right?"

As soon as he asked the question, Xi Zirong regretted it; he didn't want to know the answer at all.

He pulled her tightly into his arms and said, "I don't want to break up, Su Su. We won't break up. Since you liked me before, why don't you like me a little longer? We won't break up."

"Don't be like this, Xi Zirong. I told you, don't be so humble." Xu Su raised her hand and slowly hugged him back. "I truly loved you, so Xi Zirong, I want you to get better and better. I don't deserve it, I really don't deserve you to become like this."

She didn't know what Xi Zirong's later achievements were like in his previous life, but given his consistently excellent performance, he certainly wouldn't have done too badly.

Perhaps he can focus on his research field and shine brightly.

Didn't he say before that biotechnology, artificial intelligence, any major is fine, it can't be worse than it is now...?

What Xu Su needs to do now is to set his fate on the right track.

Returning to his original fate, Xi Zirong should not have been troubled by love, nor should he have been so humble.

He was proud, outstanding, and admired by his peers.

After the hug, Xu Su took a deep breath, looked up, and finally dared to meet Xi Zirong's gaze. Looking into those red eyes, even though she had prepared herself mentally, she still felt a moment of reluctance.

Who can truly be heartless towards this boy who is so devoted to himself?

But the decision had already been made. Just like Shen Chen said, lingering ties would not benefit anyone.

If she doesn't make things clear with Xi Zirong now, how will she face Zhou Mochen?

It can't really be like Shen Chen said, dating one person at school and hooking up with another outside, right...?

That would be unfair to everyone.

With this thought in mind, Xu Su made a clean break, "It's true that I liked you, and it's true that I like someone else now. Xi Zirong, I don't want to be with you anymore. Can we part amicably?... Be dignified and stop bothering me."

.....

Perhaps it was the harshness of the first sentence, or perhaps it was the destructive power of the last four words, but Xi Zirong opened her lips but remained silent for a long time.

His face was deathly pale...

Xu Su looked away, refusing to look at him, for fear that she would feel pity for him again.

Shen Chen is right, she really is soft-hearted...

If it weren't for Shen Chen's inexplicable kiss, Xu Su might not have been able to bring herself to break up with him.

Deep down, she didn't want Xi Zi to suffer any injustice... and she couldn't bear to see him begging for forgiveness.

A short, sharp pain is worse than a long, drawn-out one.

After waiting for a long time, no one spoke in the villa's hall...

Xu Su raised her wrist and looked at the watch Xi Zirong had given her again; it was almost midnight.

With a surge of anxiety, she couldn't help but urge, "Take me back, Xi Zirong. Our top priority right now is to prepare for the college entrance exam. Just like Teacher Chen said, once you get to university, you'll meet many more outstanding girls. Perhaps then you'll realize that what you're feeling now isn't so bad after all."

She spoke with great earnestness, but Xi Zirong only managed a forced smile and walked towards the door without saying a word.

He was still the same boy who didn't want to put Xu Su in a difficult position, and even though he was in extreme pain, he couldn't ignore her request.

Xi Zirong didn't say a word until she got back on the bus.

He seemed genuinely trying to live up to the phrase "stop bothering me"...

The atmosphere inside the car was awkward. After Xu Su fastened her seatbelt, Xi Zirong stepped on the gas and drove away from the villa.

Couples who have just broken up are indeed very uncomfortable being alone together.

At least that's how Xu Su saw it. She sat stiffly, completely oblivious to the oppressive atmosphere around her.

She had naively wondered if they could be friends after breaking up... but given the current situation, she thinks it's best to forget about it.

How can someone you truly loved possibly remain friends without any resentment after a breakup?

Watching your partner find another partner?

Xu Su squinted, leaning back in her chair, completely imagining that Xu Zirong would fall in love with another girl in the same way she loved her.

Then treat that girl gently, give her your whole heart, and kiss her as if you were kissing her...

It's hard...

My fist is getting a little hard...