Locking away my heart and love! Going back to 2000 to be a top student again.

In Kang County, it's customary to have two bridesmaids. The other bridesmaid is the groom's cousin. Su Su from their family can't be any less attractive than the groom's cousin, right?

Chen Shulan's arrogant tone made Xu Su, who was originally quite calm, nervous. She was afraid that something might go wrong during her first time as a bridesmaid and embarrass her aunt.

Weddings in the county town might be different from those in the village. Xu Su had never seen one before, so she specifically asked the bridesmaids if there were any precautions to take and what they needed to do.

Chen Shumei herself was unaware that the groom's family had arranged everything for the wedding. She instructed Xu Su to simply accompany Li Tingting throughout the entire process.

The wedding was held in the county town, and the bride had to leave her parents' home early in the morning to go to the wedding dress shop in the county town to get her makeup done. Xu Su, as the bridesmaid, naturally had to go with her.

So early on July 3rd, six wedding cars were parked on the road in front of Grandma Xu's house. This was considered a grand affair for a rural wedding these days. The bride sat in the Buick at the very front.

Xu Su left his classmates behind and sat alone in the back seat of the wedding car to accompany the bride.

Xi Zirong and the others will set off later with Xu Su's two uncles' families, and then go directly to the hotel for the banquet.

After getting into the car, Xu Su glanced around and saw that besides the bride Li Tingting, there was another bridesmaid in the back seat of the wedding car. She didn't see the groom, and she felt a little uneasy.

Don't they come to the wedding procession in person?

Even with her low emotional intelligence, she certainly wouldn't ask that question directly. Xu Su smiled slightly at her older cousin, looking every bit the shy high school student.

When Li Tingting saw her cousin getting into the car, her eyes flashed with amazement. She immediately took Xu Su's hand affectionately and began to exchange pleasantries.

“My mom is absolutely right, our Susu has really grown into a beautiful young lady.”

Li Tingting reached out and touched Xu Su's long, loose hair, and couldn't help but sigh, "The last time I saw you, you were still a primary school student. In the blink of an eye, you're already taller than me. By the way, Su Su, you're in high school in Chang City, right? How old are you this year?"

Li Tingting resembles her mother, and Xu Su has a deep affection for her aunt Chen Shumei, even deeper than for her biological mother Chen Shulan.

So at this moment, I don't feel unfamiliar with my older cousin who looks similar to my aunt.

Not rejecting her closeness, Xu Su obediently replied, "Eighteen years old, senior year starts tomorrow."

"School starts tomorrow? Does that mean you didn't get much of a summer vacation?"

"A total of three days off."

"This holiday is too short. No wonder it's a top-tier high school." Li Tingting clicked her tongue and turned to look at her husband's cousin, "Lingling, you're in high school too, right? When does school start?"

"I've already finished my college entrance exams." The bridesmaid named Lingling didn't seem very talkative; she simply replied and then fell silent.

The originally cheerful atmosphere became a little stiff, and Xu Su glanced at her cousin.

Compared to her peers in the village, Li Tingting dressed more fashionably, had fairer skin, and looked like a capable and efficient woman.

She wore a light pink dress, and her slightly protruding belly was faintly visible.

Noticing Xu Su's gaze, Li Tingting reached out and touched her lower abdomen, smiling gently, "It's almost four months. Let's hold the wedding before my belly gets too big."

what..

Xu Su nodded, unsure how to respond.

She lived to thirty in her previous life and never planned to have children. She had never experienced, and would never experience, maternal love.

Moreover, Xu Su never intended to have a child with Zhou Mochen.

In her past life, she was taken advantage of by Zhou Mochen. In order to raise money for her grandmother's medical treatment, she sold herself for 200,000 yuan. Her biological parents, Chen Shulan and Xu Weiping, were completely happy to see this happen.

On the day she received the 200,000 yuan, Xu Su moved into Zhou Mochen's house. That man had never had much self-control when it came to her. He didn't hesitate at all to eat the girl he had gone to great lengths to win over.

She still remembers how she felt at the time; it was absolutely disgusting—disgusting to Zhou Mochen, disgusting to herself, and disgusting to her own parents.

She only thought Zhou Mochen was a hypocrite who had probably spent money on countless girls before her. This perception was completely overturned the night after her rebirth when Xu Su learned that he had never held hands with any other girl.

She also felt disgusted at herself for becoming the kind of person she used to despise the most. The identity of 'a mistress kept by a man' once brought Xu Su to the brink of collapse.

Having taken Zhou Mochen's money and agreed to stay by his side for three years, Xu Su couldn't escape. The only thing she could do was not to act like those mistresses in TV dramas, fawning over their sugar daddies and trying to win their favor.

At first, Xu Su didn't even want to give him a look, and he wouldn't listen to her either. She would sit alone in her room all day without saying a word. The memories of that time were too depressing, and she didn't want to think about it for many years afterward.

It wasn't until Zhou Mochen agreed to let her live on campus at the start of her freshman year that Xu Su finally came back to life.

As for when she realized that the man liked her?

Zhou Mochen really concealed his feelings very well. Of course, this was also related to Xu Su's lack of dating experience and her failure to pay attention to Zhou Mochen's behavior.

Looking back now, those details hidden in daily life were all flaws.

She was talking about pleasing her sugar daddy... It seems that all those years, it was Zhou Mochen who was trying to please her in every way.

...Thinking too much... Xu Su's eyelashes trembled, and a blush inexplicably crept onto her face.

She remembered that when she first got together with Zhou Mochen, she felt disgusted and wary of him from the bottom of her heart. She never trusted his contraception methods. No matter how careful he was, she would secretly buy pills to take afterward to feel at ease.

Until one day, Xu Su was caught taking her medicine by him. That was the first time she saw Zhou Mochen tear off his gentle facade. He was a man who usually seemed to have a good temper and never easily got angry. He was so angry that he kicked a glass coffee table and shattered it.

Even when he was so angry, when he saw shards of glass hitting Xu Su, who wasn't wearing shoes, his first reaction was to hold her and keep her away.

That same day, she took Xu Su to the hospital so the doctor could give her a thorough check-up to see if the frequent use of birth control pills was affecting her health.

Zhou Mochen himself, on the other hand, underwent sterilization.

That's right, Zhou Mochen stabbed himself.

Without hesitation, upon learning that Xu Su did not believe in any other means of protection besides taking birth control pills, he had his tubes tied that very day.

It was only when Xu Su saw his surgical report that she realized that Zhou Mochen's feelings for her were definitely not just those of a rich young master.

Who keeps a mistress but worries about the effects of medication on her health, so they turn around and stab themselves instead...?

Thinking of her past life, Xu Su couldn't help but rub her forehead. The suffocating and oppressive feeling from before was gone, replaced by an indescribable discomfort.

Zhou Mochen has never been stingy with his love for Xu Su.

And all that love has now become the weapon that destroyed him.

If Xu Su can't go back, Zhou Mochen, who is thirty-five years old, will really be ruined.