Traveling through time and space.

Chapter 7: The Transition to the Stage of No-Searching, Only-Observing—"Gradually Breaking Down Gross Discrimination, Observing Deeply"

In the tranquil and peaceful world of an ancient Indian temple, time slipped by as I steadfastly advanced on the path of meditation. Having weathered countless setbacks and trials, through persistent effort, I finally overcame the more obvious discriminating thoughts within me and slowly entered the state of meditation where there is no searching, only observing.

In the profound depths of meditation, I felt as if I were in the depths of a vast, tranquil lake. Everything around me became clear and acute. The shifts within me were like ripples on the lake's surface, and I could detect even the smallest fluctuations with pinpoint accuracy. The once uncontrollable storm of thoughts had gradually subsided, leaving only a gentle stream of awareness flowing gently within. I could clearly perceive the arising, development, and passing of each thought. They no longer ran wild like unbridled wild horses, but like tamed steeds, gracefully pacing the grasslands of my mind, obeying my inner command.

This deep inner awareness extends to my perception of the world around me. Whereas before, I saw only the surface of things, now, in this state of unseeing and observing, I feel as if I have been gifted with eyes that can see into their essence. When I stroll through the temple gardens, the blossoming flowers are no longer merely vibrant, vibrant images; I can sense their rhythmic life, each petal telling a story of growth, bloom, and withering. When a breeze blows, I feel not only its gentle touch but also its path through the heavens and earth, creating a subtle harmony as it intertwines with all things. The song of a bird is no longer just a pleasant sound; it is a beautiful symphony composed by nature, embodying its joy, freedom, and love of life.

As my spiritual practice progressed, I was overjoyed to share my insights and learnings with fellow practitioners. At a temple-organized group practice discussion, I sincerely and passionately recounted my experiences in the meditation of the state of non-searching and observing. I described the miraculous journey from inner turmoil to tranquility, and the profound shift in my perspective on the world. However, to my surprise, my sharing didn't receive the expected response. Instead, it sparked jealousy and misunderstanding among some practitioners.

"Hmph, he's just being mysterious and trying to show off." A fellow practitioner muttered with disdain.

"That's right. We are all practicing the same cultivation, so why does he have such unique insights? Did he take some shortcuts and violate the correct path of cultivation?" Another fellow practitioner echoed, his eyes filled with suspicion and dissatisfaction.

Hearing these words was like a heavy punch to my heart, a stabbing pain. I was filled with resentment and confusion. I simply wanted to grow together with everyone, to inspire each other, so why was I misunderstood in such a way? I instinctively wanted to defend myself, to explain the hardships and sincerity of my practice. But just as the words were on my lips, I suddenly realized that true practice lies not in verbal arguments but in inner realization and growth. If I got caught up in an argument, not only would I fail to change their perspective, but I would instead be drawn into a spiral of anger and attachment, a clear betrayal of my practice.

So, I chose silence. I silently endured this misunderstanding, channeling all my grievances and resentment into motivation for spiritual practice. I told myself that the best way to resolve this misunderstanding was to continuously strive for progress in my practice, to embrace and understand them with a higher state of mind and deeper wisdom. In the days that followed, I practiced even more diligently. Whenever I encountered difficulties and setbacks, I would use this misunderstanding as a warning, reminding myself not to be swayed by external judgments and to maintain inner peace and resolve.

During this time of profound inner trial, I met a brilliant female practitioner. It was a bright, sunny morning, and I was reciting scriptures in the temple courtyard as usual. Dressed in elegant, plain clothing, she approached quietly, like a lotus blossoming in the mortal realm. Her gaze, shimmering with intelligence and a profound tranquility, captivated me.

"Brother, your insights from reciting the scriptures just now were quite profound. I was listening to you and was deeply impressed." She bowed slightly and said softly.

I looked up at her in surprise and humbly replied, "Junior sister, you are too kind. I am just groping forward on the path of cultivation and still have many shortcomings."

Since then, we've often met in corners of the temple, exchanging our spiritual experiences. Her unique perspective and keen insight have always provided me with new insights and reflections. With her companionship and encouragement, my spiritual progress has become increasingly significant. However, as time has passed, I've gradually become aware of a subtle emotion growing within me. Every time I see her, a surge of joy and anticipation wells up within me; when we talk, my gaze is involuntarily drawn to her smile. This emotion, like weeds on a spring day, slowly spreads within me.

I knew full well that emotional attachments could hinder progress on the path of spiritual practice. Yet, these feelings clung to me like a shadow, difficult to let go. I was caught in an intense inner conflict and struggle. On the one hand, I feared they would lead me astray from my spiritual practice, trapping me in the worries and attachments of the world. On the other hand, I couldn't suppress my yearning for her. Countless nights, I sat alone in my meditation room, gazing at the bright moon outside the window, my heart torn between emotion and spiritual practice. I constantly searched the scriptures for answers, trying to find a way to maintain my original aspirations while properly managing these feelings.

Eventually, I realized that emotion itself isn't sinful; the key lies in viewing it with the wisdom of spiritual practice, transforming it into a force for spiritual practice rather than a hindrance. I began to approach this relationship with a more peaceful and detached mindset, integrating my thoughts and respect for her into my Buddhist practice, like a pearl set in the crown of the Dharma, allowing it to shine with unique brilliance on the path of practice. With this shift in mindset, I continued to steadily advance in the realm of non-seeking and only observing, advancing with ever-more-determined steps toward higher levels of practice. Unwavering from external misunderstandings and undeterred by inner emotions, I steered the ship of my soul through the ocean of Buddhist wisdom, sailing towards the unknown yet hopeful shore.