The leader is my girlfriend

After returning to China, life was very difficult due to some reasons. At that time, she asked me, "Is your living allowance enough? If not, I will transfer it to you immediately. If you encounter any problems, you must tell me."

You know what? I've never been cared for so much before. Reading the letter and her handwriting, I almost cried.

I wrote back, saying everything was fine and not to worry. At the time, my work required frequent travel, taking me from city to city. Whenever I arrived in a new place, I would specifically seek out local cigarettes, selecting different styles to mail to her. That's how I learned her detailed address.

During that time, we exchanged letters by post instead of leaving messages via long letters. I was very happy and felt that everything had regained hope.

But at the same time, I also had to gradually face and accept another cruel fact - it turned out that the person she truly loved was not me. The wonderful time we once spent together was perhaps just a fleeting episode for her.

At this point, Liu Zhe's voice couldn't help but choke up, and even had a hint of crying in it.

Her eyes may have been red, but Wang Yiming, who was sitting opposite her, couldn't see clearly.

"why?"

"Because, when she returned to China, the city she went to was exactly the hometown of the person she fell in love with after we broke up. So I don't know if she went there for that person. Of course, when I asked her casually, she told me that she was simply in love with this city.

Would you like a city just because you like a person? I would, so I can't ask any more questions.

We met again that day, dining and chatting together. The entire time, I was perpetually nervous and extremely cautious, fearing she would vanish again if I wasn't careful. After all, I'd waited ten years for this reunion. Liu Zhe looked at Wang Yiming and suddenly smiled.

"So, did anything extra happen?" for the long-awaited reunion.

Liu Zhe was silent for a moment, then nodded slowly. "Yes, a little bit happened. That night she woke me up and asked me to leave. She seemed extremely anxious and upset, but I couldn't bear to leave. I wanted to stay with her, but in contrast, it seemed that only my departure could calm her down a bit, so I sat downstairs all night."

"Do you have any gift for her?"

After hearing Wang Yiming's question, Liu Zhe showed his wrist.

"I prepared a watch, did it count? I couldn't afford a pair at the time, but a long time later I bought another one and put it on my wrist.

When I gave it to her, I specifically adjusted the hands to 5:16, but I don’t know if she will throw it away or keep it. I think she will, considering it’s something she doesn’t care about. ” Liu Zhe asked himself.

"Are we breaking up just like that?" A brief and hasty one-night stand? Wang Yiming couldn't help but interrupt, and he drank first as a toast.

"No, the next day I cleaned up my slightly disheveled appearance and went to see her again. Before we parted, I should at least say goodbye properly. Not only was it a farewell to her, but it was also a way to put my past self to rest. After all, if you already know there's no future for some things, why bother agonizing over them? After all these years, what is there left that I can't really let go of?"

"Then you don't love her anymore?" It's obvious that he still cares about her! Otherwise, why would he appreciate the moon?

Liu Zhe's eyes instantly became a little blurry. After a moment of silence, he spoke again, "I still love you very much. How could I not love you? But I don't want to continue with this fruitless thing.

That day, when I saw her for the last time, I returned the candy wrapper to her. She picked up the candy wrapper with a puzzled look on her face, and asked me what it was.

I didn't know how to answer, so I hugged her and left.

What is that thing? It represents all my concerns and yearnings for her over the past decade. It is the only thing I can place my longings on.”

"Did she say anything at the end?"

"She told me to take care of myself and not to worry too much."

Wang Yiming was at a loss for words. How could he forget this? How could he let it go? Bai Yueguang, his first love, appeared at his most desperate moment, and was still so gentle… The problems were piling up. Oh my God! Oh my God! What could be saved from this? Just let it go!

"that's it?"

"That's it, that's it, it's really like that." Liu Zhe picked up the wine glass and drank it directly. Alas, classmate Xiao Ming continued to accompany him. After being confused, he would be more emotional when listening to stories.

"Uncle, is this the only relationship you've had in the past few decades?"

"No, there's another one."

"..."

Well, I heard that if a person can never forget a certain unforgettable relationship, there are only two reasons:

Either the experience was too short for the memory to fade;

Or the new love is not attractive enough to completely replace the old love.

Looking at my uncle's current situation...Is it necessary to take both into account? So the second part is a failure again?

Liu Zhe began to tell the second part of his story. "After that, I worked busy for a few years and met a new employee. At that time, I was not in the Foreign Trade Department, but in another department. Since she was not familiar with the business, she often encountered some difficult problems and always came to ask me. Although we were in different departments, I did my best to answer them. After all, I helped her with the entry procedures.

Sometimes I went too early and didn't have time to make breakfast, so she would bring me food. She would even come to bring me food when I was on duty. During those years, whenever I had a holiday, I loved to go for a walk in the park, and by chance, I ran into her twice.

Coincidence? Haha! Wang Yiming suspected this was deliberate, intentional, and deliberate. Is his uncle really that naive when it comes to emotions?

"And so, you two got together?"

"No, there was one time when two departments received an urgent task and needed to work overtime together. It was very late at night and she fell asleep on the table. I woke her up and told her to go home and have a good rest. But after she woke up, she suddenly wanted to kiss me secretly."

"Successful?" Wang Yiming asked, is it really true that it's easy for a girl to win over a boy?

"No, she just came over and I asked her what she wanted."

"Uncle, you are so unromantic?" Where did the romance go?

"I didn't think about it that way at the time. Everything was normal at first, but gradually, she began to avoid me, intentionally or unintentionally. I was confused at first, but as time went by, I slowly came to my senses."

"And then you got together?"

In response to Wang Yiming's question, Liu Zhe sighed and could sense that he seemed to be a little regretful.

"Yes, actually I was struggling with this for a long time, but I was thinking about whether I should start a new relationship, so we got together naturally."

"Then what happened next? Why did it end again?"

The survival rate of workplace romances is still pretty good, and they can basically get by! But don't change positions. Most of the time, as long as one person leaves and changes jobs, the probability of the relationship ending is about 50%. But with these two iron rice bowls, where else can they change?

"Later... later I found out that she had a fiancé." Liu Zhe's answer was a little unexpected to Ming.

"Ah, you're two-timing!" Wang Yiming wanted to pat him on the shoulder. What a poor uncle!

"She told me a lot of bad things about her fiancé and said she would break up with him as soon as possible."

"So you agree or acquiesce?" What should I do? Wang Yiming wanted to complain.

"Yes, at that time, there was suddenly someone who cared about you, took care of you, relied on you, and was willing to tell you everything in his heart. I felt very warm, so even though I knew that this behavior was immoral, I still couldn't bear to let go.

And she did exactly as she said, she made things clear with her fiancé and ended the relationship.

But I have to admit that I was the superfluous one from the beginning. I clearly despised this behavior, but why did I acquiesce to it at the time? "

Wang Yiming understood. Now he could tell the difference clearly. Bai Yueguang was a partial fate, and this one was an evil fate. There were only two relationships in total, and neither of them was a true fate. Xiaoming had guessed the direction of the next emotional story... However, he asked again to confirm,

"Uncle, what happened next? Why did you separate?"

Can you be a little more low-key with your curiosity? Liu Zhe looked at Wang Yiming helplessly, waving his hand at him, signaling him to finish the wine first, and then he spoke again slowly.

"In fact, I have always been a staunch materialist. However, after experiencing that incident, I have to admit that the so-called karma really does exist in this world."

After hearing this, Wang Yiming's eyes widened and he blurted out, "She cheated on you again?"

Liu Zhe's mouth twitched slightly, and he replied awkwardly, "..., you don't have to be so blunt."

Wang Yiming used a more euphemistic term, "She's fallen in love with someone else again?"

Liu Zhe sighed lightly and nodded, "That's right, after we were together for more than half a year, I left my original department due to a job transfer and was transferred to another bureau.

Although we're still in the same city, the distance is much greater than before, so naturally, we don't get to see each other as often as before. We can no longer see each other every day like before. Also, when I leave, someone new will definitely take my place."

There is always only one truth.

Wang Yiming frowned, made an eight with his chin, and guessed thoughtfully,

"So, she's hooking up with this new guy who took your place?"

Liu Zhe was silent for a moment, but finally told the truth, "Yes, that's right. According to her, it was that man who initially pursued her, but she didn't agree. When I accidentally discovered this, she vowed that she would immediately break up with him."

Wang Yiming couldn't help but curse after hearing this. "Oh my god! In this situation, you actually chose to forgive her?"

At this time, Liu Zhe also felt that he was quite brave. Why didn't he have such a brain at that time?

"I forgave him. I thought I couldn't leave him, so I chose to forgive him. But who would have thought that my forgiveness would not bring him repentance or cherishment, but instead make their relationship even more secretive."

Who said that people in the past were simple in their emotions? This is no different from what it is decades later!

"It was a secret relationship, and you discovered it? How did you find out?"

"Yes, I found her again. I saw her getting out of the jeep that day. I guess there was no need for further explanation at the time.

However, I asked her a question, why do you still need someone to take you home from get off work when it’s so close?

Her answer was sharp. She said, "Although it's only a few hundred meters, they are willing to use a jeep to pick me up, which you can't do."

Hearing this, Wang Yiming couldn't help but speak up for himself, "You can do it too!"

"My family was facing a special hardship at the time, and I had no way to rely on them. Whether to myself or to the outside world, I was just an ordinary poor person."

"But when she was with you, she knew you had no money, but she still stayed with you. Then later, she got together with someone else just because that person was richer. What kind of logic is this?" Wang Yiming frowned, looking confused.

Liu Zhe, on the other hand, had a nonchalant expression. "Who cares about the logic? It's all over now. However, this ending can be considered a kind of retribution, isn't it?

I think so. There must be a cycle of karma in this world, and I believe in it. And what I've experienced should be called retribution in this life."

"Don't you want to try a new relationship?" Xiao Ming asked warmly.

"I don't want to hold others back, and I can't compromise myself. Like you said at the beginning, it doesn't matter who I live with, but for me, it's very difficult."

After a moment of silence, Wang Yiming curiously asked, "Uncle, what's the name of that girl you fell in love with at first sight?"

Liu Zhe raised the corners of his mouth slightly, revealing a mysterious smile, and replied a little arrogantly, "It sounds good, but I don't want to tell you."

Wang Yiming changed the question, "What was your pen name at the time?"

"It's not nice, so I don't want to tell you."

These two answers are really... Wang Yiming gave up in disappointment.

"Ok."

At this time, Liu Zhe slowly raised the wine glass in his hand, clinked it lightly with Wang Yiming's, and then drank it all in one gulp.

"Well, we've pretty much finished what we needed to talk about, and we've finished every drop of wine. Let's call it a day."

"Uncle, you are killing the donkey after it has done its work."

Liu Zhe smiled slightly and admitted frankly, "Perhaps you really are right. Right now I just want to be quiet."

There is no such thing as empathy in this world. Wang Yiming felt sad for Liu Zhe, but how sad must Liu Zhe be?

"Then you go to bed early."

Liu Zhe nodded, "Okay, let's go back to the house together."

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【It's good to see the flowers bloom

The person I love loved me when I was eighteen.

So whoever he loves at the age of thirty, forty, or even for the rest of his life, I wish him the best.

He won't have a beer belly, gray hair, or grow fat and old. He will always be clean and sunny, engraved in my heart and imprinted in my teenage years.