Love and choices across time and space

Chapter 71: Reflection on Despair

Night fell on a corner of this bustling city. Li Yifeng huddled alone in a small, dark, and damp-smelling rented room. Inside, there was only a worn single bed, a rickety little table, and a chair with a missing leg. Dim light streamed down from the rickety overhead bulb, casting a lonely, haggard shadow against the wall.

Li Yifeng sat on the edge of his bed, his hair disheveled, his chin covered in stubble, his eyes hollow and lost. He had once dressed in a suit and tie, frequented upscale establishments, and surrounded himself with so-called friends. But now, penniless and deserted, he endured this miserable existence alone.

He raised his head and looked at the cracked mirror on the wall. The man in the mirror looked haggard, and his eyes were full of regret and self-blame.

"How did I get to this point?" he muttered to himself, his voice hoarse and low.

Memories flooded back, and Li Yifeng recalled the days when he would do anything to pursue profit. He had deceived his partners, betrayed the trust of his friends, and sacrificed all his morals and principles for the sake of temporary success.

Back then, he believed himself to be incredibly intelligent and in control. In business, to secure a key project, he maliciously slandered competitors and even resorted to illicit means to obtain their trade secrets. In his interpersonal relationships, he was hypocritical toward those who genuinely cared about him, exploiting them to achieve his own goals.

"For money and power, I abandoned all my conscience and morals." Li Yifeng closed his eyes in pain, tears sliding down from the corners of his eyes.

He thought of the partner he had deceived. The other's angry and disappointed eyes were still etched in his mind. "Li Yifeng, you will pay the price for what you did!" Those resolute words seemed to still echo in his ears.

And there are those friends who were betrayed by him. They once had full of trust and expectations in him, but he ruthlessly trampled on this trust.

"I'm such a bastard. I've hurt everyone around me." Li Yifeng held his head in his hands, his body trembling slightly.

Now, he had lost everything. His former wealth had vanished like a passing cloud, and the "friends" who surrounded him were long gone. No one wanted to work with him anymore, no one wanted to give him another chance.

Li Yifeng stood up and walked to the window. Outside, the street was ablaze with lights, cars were constantly flowing, and people were busy with their own lives. But he, abandoned by the world, was trapped alone in this small rented house.

"I brought this upon myself. I deserve it." He looked at the bustling scene outside the window, his heart filled with endless regret.

He recalled his parents' teachings when he was a child, telling him to be an honest and kind person. However, he lost his way on the road of growth and was blinded by desire and greed.

"Mom and Dad, if you saw me like this, you would definitely be disappointed." Li Yifeng's voice was filled with deep self-blame.

He walked over to the rickety table and picked up an old photo. It was a picture of him and his family, with a bright smile and clear eyes.

"I destroyed all the happiness I once had with my own hands." Li Yifeng stroked the photo, tears blurring his eyes again.

Li Yifeng sat in a chair, lost in deep thought. He began to reflect on his own values ​​and outlook on life, realizing how empty and meaningless the material things and vanity he had pursued in the past were.

"True happiness is not money and power, but sincerity, trust and care between people," he murmured to himself.

He recalled the warm moments that he had once ignored, such as the helping hands extended by friends when he was in trouble and the unconditional support and love of his family.

"I once had so many precious things, but I didn't know how to cherish them." Li Yifeng regretted it deeply.

During these days of loneliness and poverty, Li Yifeng began to re-examine his inner self and found that he was actually a person with an empty heart and lacked true faith and pursuit.

"I have been pursuing external success, but neglecting inner growth and cultivation." Li Yifeng realized his shallowness and ignorance.

He began to read some books on philosophy and spiritual growth, trying to find guidance and strength from them.

"Only through self-reflection and inner cultivation can one truly change oneself." Li Yifeng underlined a sentence in the book.

As the days passed, Li Yifeng's reflection became more and more profound. He no longer complained about the unfairness of fate, but began to look for the reasons within himself.

One day, while sorting through old things, Li Yifeng discovered a diary he had written many years ago. He flipped through the yellowed pages, which recorded his past dreams and original aspirations.

"I once wanted to be a person who could help others and contribute to society." Looking at the words he wrote back then, Li Yifeng couldn't help but burst into tears.

He decided to rediscover his original intention and start a new life from now on.

"Although I have nothing now, I still have time and opportunity to change." Li Yifeng vowed secretly.

He began to develop a detailed self-transformation plan, including learning new skills, improving his moral character, and working hard to find opportunities to reintegrate into society.

Every morning, Li Yifeng gets up early to exercise. He runs in a nearby park, breathing in the fresh air and feeling his body gradually become full of energy.

"Only with a healthy body can you have the energy to achieve your goals." Li Yifeng told himself.

Back in his rental house, he would earnestly learn various knowledge and skills. He signed up for online courses to learn marketing, financial management and other aspects of knowledge, constantly enriching himself.

During his studies, Li Yifeng encountered many difficulties. He had a hard time understanding some of the knowledge, and some assignments took him several times longer than others to complete.

"But I can't give up. This is my chance to stand up again." Li Yifeng gritted his teeth and persisted.

In addition to studying, Li Yifeng also began to take the initiative to help those around him. There was an elderly man living alone near his rental house who had difficulty living. Li Yifeng would visit him regularly and help him with groceries and cleaning.

"Thank you, young man." The old man's grateful words made Li Yifeng feel a little warm in his heart.

He also participated in some volunteer activities, donated books and clothes to children in poor areas, and contributed his own strength to the community's environmental protection work.

"Maybe this little bit of contribution is insignificant, but as long as it can bring a little help to others, it is meaningful." Li Yifeng thought so.

During the process of reflection, Li Yifeng gradually learned to be grateful. He is grateful to those who have given him help and support, even if it is just a smile or a word of encouragement.

"Every little kindness is my motivation to move forward." Li Yifeng wrote this sentence in his notebook.

However, the road to change was not smooth. Sometimes, Li Yifeng would be awakened in the middle of the night by nightmares of the past, those past mistakes and failures hanging over him like a shadow.

"I can no longer be bound by the past. I must step out bravely." Li Yifeng encouraged himself again and again.

As time went by, Li Yifeng's mentality gradually became calmer and more resolute. He was no longer swayed by external evaluations and difficulties, but focused on his own inner growth and change.

"I believe that as long as I work hard and persevere, one day I will be able to regain the trust and respect of others." Li Yifeng looked at the sky outside the window, with a glimmer of hope in his eyes.

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