After separating from my mother-in-law, I raised my children, built a house, and filled the granary

Shen Yunwan didn't even look back at him.

Just focus on your own business.

She fetched a hoe from where the tools were kept in the yard.

Hoeing in the east direction.

Once, twice, three times...

Until he dug a hole.

Not big, just a very small pit.

Shen Yunwan took the bloody shirt out of the bag and folded it.

Touching the bloodstain, the sorrow in his eyes was about to overflow.

This is her first child in the true sense.

She left her before she even knew she existed, without experiencing the joys and sorrows of being a mother.

You probably don't want her to be your mother.

She was so unrealistic, so overconfident, and so saintly, so she felt that she couldn't protect her well, so she left.

She buried her face in the bloody clothes. The pungent smell of blood made her tears well up.

The blood-stained clothes were soaked and the blood spread out.

It stained her cheeks red.

She ignored the blood on her face.

He raised his head and looked towards the east. "Go east, kid."

Lin Chengfeng behind him was watching everything in front of him.

She knelt on the ground in pain, "Yun Wan."

The sound of grief was as light as the wind blowing by.

Shen Yunwan did not respond to Lin Chengfeng, nor did she look back.

Carefully place the bloody clothes in the dug pit.

Use your hands to move the soil into the hole.

Lin Chengfeng crawled on his knees to the side of the pit.

Tears soaked his clothes.

He held Shen Yunwan's hand and said, "Yunwan, don't, don't bury it."

The other hand hurriedly took out the bloody shirt from the pit.

His official uniform was covered in dust.

Lin Chengfeng looked at Shen Yunwan pleadingly, feeling so heartbroken that he couldn't breathe.

The fair fingers brushed away the dirt on the bloody clothes, picked them up carefully, and gently rubbed the dirt on them.

Shen Yunwan looked at Lin Chengfeng expressionlessly and did not stop him.

She stood up, but did not snatch it from Lin Chengfeng's hand. Instead, she looked at it indifferently.

At this moment, it seemed as if the bloody shirt was no longer important.

She just wanted to leave the yard and didn't want to be in the same space with Lin Chengfeng.

At least, now, she doesn't want to see Lin Chengfeng.

The appearance of Lin Chengfeng constantly shows her how ridiculous she used to be.

It is ridiculous to consider so many people without considering your own abilities. This is undoubtedly a disgusting thing.

"Yun Wan, can you please stop being like this? Stop ignoring me like this."

Lin Chengfeng held the bloody shirt in both hands and placed it on his chest.

Still kneeling on the ground, he looked up at Shen Yunwan who had turned around, and it seemed as if he could no longer feel his heart beating.

He felt like he was dead at that moment.

But he still had things to do, so he could only live by his thoughts.

Shen Yunwan didn't look back at him, but looked at the moon in the sky. Her sad voice blended into the cold moonlight.

“I just don’t want to see that version of myself.

Whenever I see you, I am reminded of how dull and stupid I used to be.

Stupid enough to kill my child.

Lin Chengfeng, you pretended to be weak, and in the end this pretense became true.

And I pretended to have great love, but in the end this pretense became a death warrant.

All good intentions and plans need to be matched with corresponding capabilities.

If the ability does not match, the so-called goodwill will become a sword pointed at oneself or one's own people.

Isn’t that what we are?”

Shen Yunwan said calmly.

Lin Chengfeng slumped on the ground. "Can you give me another chance? I... I will pull myself together and then go..."

"late."

"It's not too late. Yunwan, we can still have children, we can still..."

"What's okay?" Shen Yunwan suddenly turned her head and squatted down, with fire in her eyes that seemed to be about to burst out.

"Lin Chengfeng, I have always told myself that since you were born in this dynasty, your thinking can only be this way.

When there is a male-dominated mentality, when there is a distinction between superiors and inferiors, when there is a focus on officialdom, I always tell myself that this is not your fault.

You are already much better than the people of this dynasty. I cannot force someone from an authoritarian country to have independent self-awareness.

I found many excuses for you, even covering up those obvious flaws in your body with your appearance.

Let myself become as superficial and conceited as you.

This is obviously self-deception, but accepting you as you are is the easiest way.

I don't have to change you, nor do I have to fight against this dynasty. I can still indulge in your gentleness."

Shen Yunwan stood up slowly, "But all of this is wrong.

If I can't accept this dynasty, how can I accept you without any reservations?

If...if this child were still alive, it might be the deepest connection between you and me.

This connection may allow me to ignore everything and go on with you.

But……"

Shen Yunwan sneered, "Even the heavens couldn't stand it anymore, so they punished you and me, using our child's life to punish us.

There is also Chunhua, whose ideal when she was a child was to take care of everything for her family.

Likes to look at account books and likes to be a housekeeper.

She might become the mistress of a wealthy family, busy in the world.

Busy but enjoying.

She had always liked taking care of others, but now, she probably no longer envisioned marrying a man in the future.

After today, her obscene words will spread throughout the capital.

You will definitely say, no one dares, right?

Lin Chengfeng, put away your determined look. You know you can't do it at all, not even the current emperor can do it.

Rumors are terrifying. Even if Chunhua is innocent, she is no longer innocent in the eyes of everyone. Even if you can stop the people from talking, you can also ignore what they think.

Chunhua's life was ruined by us.

Ruined, you know?”

Shen Yunwan wiped her tears gently. She felt regretful, she resented herself, and she also resented Lin Chengfeng.

Hate everything here.

Lin Chengfeng lowered his head and looked at the soil on the ground, just like himself at this moment.

He pounded the soil, once, twice, three times...

Shen Yunwan didn't look back and walked towards the main house.

No one noticed Lin Xiangxi standing in the corner of the yard.

He bit his lip hard.

Never made a sound.

Warm tears fell onto his collar.

But he seemed not to feel it.

He looked at his mother's back as she walked away. Her thin figure no longer had the uprightness she once had.

Even when walking, I couldn't walk steadily.

Mom, she must be in pain.

His younger brother or sister, the child who never had the chance to meet him, died today.

His sister, even if her innocence was not tarnished, was terrified.

And this innocence will become a weapon for everyone to attack his sister tomorrow.

It's almost time for this family to break up.

Lin Xiangxi looked up at the cold moon and forced himself to hold back the tears that were flowing.

He didn't have much time to grieve.

There is so much to do.

He walked towards Lin Chengfeng, who was still pounding the soil, and a deep pit had appeared where he hammered.