What should I do if the protagonist of every world I travel to is sick?

Chapter 217 Explanation

"Are you going back now?"

Chiyu asked Lu Jinan, and Lu Jinan raised his head from Zhu Nu in his arms, "Where to go back?"

Akabane's eyes deepened, and Lu Jinan reacted, "Oh."

Lu Jinan walked to the front, avoiding his gaze, and said, "Should we go look for the child's father? Otherwise, what will we do if he comes back and can't find them?"

"After finishing his stay in the mortal world, should we send Zhu Nu back to Penglai? And after staying in Penglai for a while, should we return to the heaven again?"

"Don't you want to go back?" He stared at his back, as if he wanted to see through a hole in his back.

Lu Jinan paused, and the smile on his face gradually faded. Zhu Nu in his arms also felt the different atmosphere between the two of them. He even pulled Lu Jinan's neck and stretched it out, leaning behind him and grinning at Chiyu.

Lu Jinan patted its back, and Zhu Nu slid down along his neck and patted his chest with its little paws.

"Yeah." Lu Jinan turned around and met those aggressive eyes. "Although I promised you to come back, I actually want to see what part of my memory is missing."

"It's not about my past life relationship or who I am."

"I don't know why you were able to use the power of 'life' to restart, but I saw the formation Yun Qi set up in advance. Otherwise, how could I, with my broken soul, recall so many things about Yun Yi in advance? Thanks to you, my memory is constantly fading, and now all I remember is the image of another person."

Although he had thought about this a long time ago, and he thought he should not be angry, but when he mentioned these things, the little resentment in his heart seemed to be climbing up his veins little by little.

When did his emotions become so exposed?

Lu Jinan lowered his head, and Chiyu looked at the young man in front of him. His clearly furrowed brows were gradually suppressed by him.

Lu Jinan didn't like being stared at, so he turned his face slightly and deliberately avoided looking at him.

"I'm staying here just to find out what kind of relationship my parents have with Yun Yi's parents, what happened after Yun Yi died, and Bai Yue," the two gazes said, "I want to see him."

"I know you are acquainted with several gods."

"I just want to take advantage of your kindness and accept this olive branch from you." Lu Jinan turned his head away.

Akabane said, "I know, I can help you with all of this."

It was like he was speaking such a long speech for the first time. "Are you... unhappy?" He took a step towards him and then took two steps back. "Actually, I can tell you anything you want to know. If you don't believe me, you can use the Nightmare Technique to enter my memory."

Seeing no one replied, Chiyu pondered for a moment. In addition to answering his previous questions, he also tried to talk about their coexistence. "Actually, like you, I have the memories of many people. There's the mortal Chiyu, the trance-like Chiyu, and another one is an ancient god left over from ancient times. His name is Chiri, and he should have disappeared a long time ago."

Seeing Lu Jinan's sidelong glance, he continued, "Time doesn't go back. The only 'life' in the world has already vanished. This is a realm created by the Qingling Jade Pendant. As you said, I don't think that child will come back."

Lu Jinan looked at him. The man who always had a dull face but always insisted that he was Yun Yi was now speaking gently.

Time will not come back, and the person you want to see will never meet again.

"Yun Yi was my last divine tribulation. It has become my thought. Like the Yuqing Goddess, I have endured for tens of millions of years because of this thought. After that child died, all the resentment and regrets I had in my life dissipated. After my five emotions and six senses faded into indifference over time, I used this thought to awaken Chi Ri's memories and continue to stay in this world."

"I did set up a formation in Yunqi, but it wasn't to hide the fact that you were Lu Jinan. It was to complete you, Lu Jinan."

He stood there, his posture straight, his tone steady, "When I brought you back, your soul was already shattered. A leaky sand bucket will leak again no matter how hard you try. It's just a matter of speed. The more you restore your old memories, the faster your past memories will flow."

"Back then, I didn't kill the Emperor and Empress of Heaven. I gave your broken soul and their spirits to Bai Yue to nourish. He controls countless worlds. I know that only in this way can you have a glimmer of hope. I hope you will have the chance to be family again."

Lu Jinan actually felt that he seemed to be aggrieved on that calm face. His eyelashes drooped and it was difficult to see the emotions in his eyes.

"You hate me because you carry some of his emotions. Since your memory has just returned, you don't have to worry about it."

After saying that, Chiyu stood there, as if he was fixed in place. He looked at Lu Jinan, his cold, jade-white face tilted to one side, with a few strands of hair hanging down in front of his forehead.

"If you... don't want to go back, then forget it..."

"understood."

"Thank you." Lu Jinan raised his head, pursed his lips and thanked the person in front of him, "Say thank you for Yun Yi."

"If there's a chance, I'll restore all of his memories and we can explain everything clearly. Only then can you and him truly settle your grudges."

The wind lifted his white hair, and the messy hair seemed to stick to his cheek in the moonlight. Akabane looked at him in a trance, and walked forward unconsciously. He raised his arm, slowly stroked his face, and slowly moved it to the corner of his mouth, where dark red blood always flowed without stopping.

He remembered that he wiped for a long, long time until the man's body became cold and no new blood flowed out.

The moonlight was cold, and the baby's crying was accompanied by the sound of wind rustling leaves. Chiyu lowered his head, lowered his silent eyes, and patted the swaddling clothes in his arms without saying a word.

It was the first time that Lu Jinan saw this person showing sadness. "How about we rest here for a while?"

Chiyu originally wanted to say no, but before the voice came out of his throat, the young man in front of him had already taken out a blanket from the space and spread it on the ground. Seeing this, Zhu Nu immediately rolled on it. Lu Jinan watched it roll out the wrinkles and didn't care.

He looked up at the man who still looked stern, and regarded him with interest, "Your Majesty, do you like to rest while standing?"

He swallowed the words on his lips, then sat down with the child in his arms without saying a word.

The flames burned in front of the two men, and Zhu Nu kept sweeping the fire with its tail.

Akabane couldn't help but say, "Is it tired?"

Lu Jinan's hands were wrapped with the grass leaves she had just picked up from the ground, and she was weaving something. "It's afraid that we'll be cold. If you praise it more, it won't feel tired."

Akabane's gaze fell on the top of his furry hair, and the corners of his mouth curled up inadvertently.

Lu Jinan suddenly said, "Since you understand that Yunyi can't come back, then why do you insist that I go back to Yunqi?"

He looked down at him, a vulnerability hidden in his eyes that he himself didn't even notice. "It's dangerous out there. Yunqi can protect you."

Hearing this, Lu Jinan paused for a moment. If he remembered correctly, he had just arrived and was being punished for self-harming...

Lu Jinan subconsciously touched his forehead. Fortunately, it’s okay, everything is fine.

He put down his hand guiltily and continued with his actions. The self-harm could not be blamed on Chiyu. It was really Yunyi's behavior that was too brainless... Although, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scold you.

The blazing fire shone on his fair cheeks, making them look as if they were stained with rouge.

He couldn't help it and poked his fingertips forward.

Lu Jinan dodged to the right, "Why are you so cold?"

Akabane touched his palm and it seemed a little cold.

Seeing his wrist engulfed in red flames, a furry head reached out, and then his wrist was tightly grasped by a fiery touch. "Is this... the injury you sustained in the Guixu Secret Realm?"

There was a hint of anxiety in his tone, "Didn't Goddess Yu Qing give you medicine?"

Akabane pulled his hand free and moved it behind his back. His gaze fell on his face, wandering around for a week before finally stopping at his eyes.

"You're worried about me."

"Nonsense? If you die, I'll have to go to the trouble of digging a grave." After saying that, she pulled out the arm hidden behind his back, then held his hand and looked at it carefully in front of the firelight.

He muttered to himself, "It can't be fake medicine, that snake skin is genuine."

Akabane stared at the person who lowered his head and muttered, and there seemed to be a piece of moonlight in his eyes, soft and calm.

"I took the medicine, and maybe my divine power just evaporated, so the energy in my body hasn't circulated yet."

"Oh, I see..." After carefully checking his spiritual veins and finding that there was indeed no major problem, he breathed a sigh of relief, then grabbed the man's wrist and held him in front of the fire to warm it.

Akabane felt that the pair of soft and warm hands were constantly transmitting warmth to him, so when he let go, he held the person's hands tightly.

The cold moment made Lu Jinan shudder. He pulled his hand but couldn't move it. Then he looked at the serious-looking man in front of him and asked, "What are you doing?"

"cold."

Lu Jinan narrowed his eyes, a hint of amusement in his gaze, and tilted his chin towards the fire, "It's cold, warming yourself by the fire. I'm not fire."

"Your hands are warmer than this." Akabane stared into his eyes seriously, and his tone was so upright that it seemed that it was really just that.

Lu Jinan chuckled twice, and with his other hand supporting his chin in a leisurely manner, he spoke slowly, "But, Lord God, you... seem to be acting like a hooligan."

Akabane lowered his head and looked at the tender white palm he held in his hand. His fingertips moved, but he still did not let go.

"But I'm cold."

He glanced at his self-righteous appearance and reached out his hand to touch his face, "Akabane, who am I?"

Feeling the fingertips on his hand shrink, his voice paused, "Lu Jinan."

The young man leisurely admired his expression, his brows twitching slightly, "Yes, I am."

“Isn’t it painful to miss someone tens of thousands of light-years away?”

"Why wouldn't you admit you like someone? Why do you insist on calling it a divine tribulation and a thought?" She twisted her fingertips around his long hair, twisting it, and said casually, "Chiyu, have you ever felt the slightest bit of affection for Yunyi?"

This time, she completely released his hand. His eyes dodged for a moment, and Lu Jinan saw it. The corner of his lips raised slightly, and he said jokingly, "I just wanted to ask for that little guy. After all, you haven't figured out the result for tens of thousands of years, so you don't have to answer me now."

Akabane paused, looking at the man's raised gaze, his words choking in his throat. "I've always felt that you...would resist him."

Lu Jinan smiled and said, "A little at first, but at least it wasn't my first time."

"I heard you say you have memories from three periods, but I think if I hadn't forgotten, I would have memories of many people."

He added another handful of firewood from the side, and the firelight reflected in his eyes, making it very dazzling.

"To me, he's no different from Lu Yan and the original owners of those stand-ins. Their original life trajectories intersected with mine. I'm not them back then, and there's no such thing as absolute empathy in this world."

Seeing that he was looking at him, Lu Jinan smiled and placed the ugly straw rabbit he was weaving in his hand into the palm of the baby in the cradle. Chiyu looked at the child in the cradle holding the straw rabbit, and laughed along with him.

Lu Jinan raised his eyes from the swaddling clothes and said, "Actually, I'm very curious. If tens of thousands of light years can wear away your emotions, why can't you erase your longing for someone?"

Chiyu's gaze shifted downwards to the side of his face. Lu Jinan looked up at him, and he saw himself in those clear eyes. He smiled with a crooked look, "Dwelling on the past will not help your divine path in any way, nor will it make any amends for the deceased. Tens of thousands of light years away, can't the Divine Lord see clearly?"

Lu Jinan smiled, "Regret is the most useless emotion. No matter what," he looked towards the distant mountains, "we must look forward."

"you……"

His eyes were natural and calm, but the flash of sadness was buried in his eyes by Lu Jinan.

He tilted his head and looked at Akabane with his clear and beautiful eyes, "What do you want to say?"

The little baby in the cradle was giggling as the red deer stepped on him, and the straw rabbit in his hand had already been thrown aside.

Akabane sat upright, his brows slightly furrowed. His dark, cold eyes seemed to be soaked in ink. "I don't know if I ever fell in love with him. I only know that I wanted him to live. I wanted him to stop crying and getting hurt. When a mortal enters the realm of the spirit, the heavenly tribulation strips them of half of their emotions. It's not that I don't admit it, it's that I don't know."

"Rather than my divine path, I want to tell him I'm sorry. Regret is indeed the most useless emotion, but it allows me to remember the person deep in my heart forever. As long as I remember him, he won't disappear."

He crossed his arms, his gaze wandering to Lu Jinan's blue eyes. "Lu Jinan, perhaps you are more suitable to be a god than me. But I tell you, if you keep going down this road, you will be the only one left."