Secrets of Yuqing Palace

Before leaving, Yinreng accompanied Wanyu back to her parents' home and also visited Fucha's house.

At the same time, he also met Yinzhen and Concubine Mu at the Guwaljia residence.

After meeting their parents and relatives, Wanyu and Yinreng prepared to leave Beijing and start their journey to the Qing Dynasty.

Finally, the couple entered the palace again, met the Empress Dowager and said goodbye to the Emperor, then left the palace and got on a carriage that was simply decorated yet luxurious.

Around the carriage, a group of guards in tight clothes and solemn expressions were ready to go.

With a crisp whip sound, the carriage started slowly, and a team of carriages and horses passed through the bustling streets of the capital and gradually drove out of the city gate.

On the high city wall of Donghuamen, Kangxi looked at the gradually shrinking team in the distance, and his eyes became a little moist.

He recalled the day before the crown prince was deposed in court, Baocheng came to the Qianqing Palace and had a heart-to-heart talk with him.

That day, Baocheng knelt in front of him and pleaded with sad eyes.

"Khan Ama, please give my son a chance to live."

Kangxi was a little angry and shouted loudly.

"What is this the prince said?"

"Could it be that I did something to you that made you think I was going to kill you?!"

Yinreng's eyes were slightly red, and he stared straight into Kangxi's eyes, his voice trembling slightly.

"Khan Ama, do you remember how long it has been since you asked your son Baocheng to come?"

"My son, since when did I start calling you only Your Majesty?"

Kangxi felt that the prince was making a big deal out of nothing.

"We are father and son, and also monarch and subject."

"You are the Crown Prince, so why shouldn't I address you as such?!"

"You're almost a Marfa now, do you think I have to keep calling you by your nickname?"

Yinreng was unwilling to argue with him any further, and just hung his head dejectedly, feeling somewhat disheartened.

After a long time, he sighed softly.

"Khan Ama, my son is really tired."

"My son was appointed crown prince by Khan Ama since he was young. My brothers had the right to choose, the opportunity to fight for it or give it up, but my son didn't."

"My son has only one path to follow, and he has felt hardship and fatigue, but when he thinks of Khan Ama's expectations for him, he can endure it no matter how hard or tired he is."

"Because my son wants to make Khan Ama happy and want Khan Ama to be proud of him."

"I want future generations to know about the wonderful story between my son and Khan Ama."

"But after all these years, my son persisted, but Khan Ama blocked his path, and he couldn't move forward or back."

"Khan Amma, tell your son, what should your son do to satisfy you? What should your son do to keep his wife and children?"

"Unlike other brothers, I have been protected by my mother since I was a child."

"I used to envy my eldest son because he always loved to compare himself with my son."

"What my son hates most is that he often brags in front of him, saying that he has his mother's care and love, but I am a motherless child."

"At first, my son cried secretly about this, but later he came to his senses. Although he doesn't have a mother, he has an Ama."

"As long as Khan Ama is behind my son, he will be satisfied and will not be afraid of anything."

"Khan Ama was once my son's only trust and support in the lonely palace, but now Khan Ama has begun to distance himself from me, and even... even hates me."

When he said the word disgust, his voice trembled.

"Hehe~ My father, who once loved me the most, no longer wants me."

"It's natural for a son to be a father. Every time I think of it, my heart aches."

"Maybe Khan Ama doesn't believe it, but in his son's heart, nothing is more important than Ama and his wife and children."

"My son knows that it was me who made Khan Ama uneasy. I want Khan Ama to feel at ease in the future and I also want to protect my wife and children. I hope Khan Ama can help me."

Yinreng knelt deeply and said, "So I beg Khan Father, please give me a chance to live."

Kangxi was originally unhappy, but was stunned by Yinreng's words.

Looking at the sincerity and pain on his son's face, Kangxi seemed to have exposed all his dark sides in front of Baocheng, as if he had been slapped hard in the face.

Am I really wrong?

Kangxi asked in a hoarse voice, "Baocheng, do you resent me?"

Yinreng raised his neck and shook his head lightly, trying hard to hold back his sobs and speaking through gritted teeth.

"I never resented Amma."

"I just feel disappointed and heartbroken. I've been without a mother since I was a child, and now even my father, who loved me the most, doesn't want me anymore."

"My father no longer wants me. Even when he calls me, he only uses the cold term 'Prince'."

"When he no longer called me 'Baocheng' in that doting yet helpless tone, I knew my father had left me."

"He abandoned me!"

"He trained me since I was little, wanting to make me an excellent crown prince. I was always obedient, but later he abandoned me!"

The tears he had been holding back for so long finally burst out, and his voice trembled.

"Khan Ama, Baocheng doesn't want to be a child without Ama and Ema."

"Can you return Baocheng's father to Baocheng?"

"My son doesn't want to be a prince anymore. He wants to be a child who is always loved by his father."

At this moment, the inner wailing that had been suppressed for many years finally broke free and was clearly revealed in front of Kangxi.

He is dissatisfied, angry, shouting, and begging...

Before Wanyu appeared, Kangxi was Yinreng's emotional support and his entire world from childhood to adulthood.

The relationship between them is not simply that of emperor and prince, but an extremely close and pure father-son relationship.

Especially in the deep palace full of calculations, the relationship between them is even more precious, making Yinreng cherish it even more.

Later, due to various interests and the calculations of those with ulterior motives, an irreconcilable gap arose between this close father and son.

Kangxi might have other concubines and children who could help him divert or relieve the repressed emotions in his heart caused by the deterioration of the father-son relationship.

But this was not possible for Yinreng.

Because the role of father has a huge impact on him.

What's more, Kangxi's care and influence on him was not just the role of a father, but also the role of a mother in many cases.

The deterioration of his father's love caught him off guard, and his father's dislike and defensiveness were a huge blow to him.

This is also the reason why he tested Kangxi again and again.

In fact, he has always had some secret expectations in his heart.

He didn't believe that his father really didn't love him anymore.

He didn't believe that his father would really give up on him for power.

His repeated attempts were not only to test the emperor's tolerance for him, but also an attempt to arouse the fatherly love he once had.

In the deep palace, he had too little love.

The strong and passionate fatherly love is something he cannot give up, and he wants to hold on to it tightly.

But after trying again and again, he was disappointed and faced the reality.

His father, who had always loved him, actually gave up on him because of the throne.

Being abandoned by his own father was a heavy blow to Yinreng, but he could not find an outlet for his feelings and could only suppress them in his heart.

Now he can finally break out.

After Yinreng finished speaking, he fell to the ground and burst into tears.

Kangxi's heart seemed to be torn into pieces by Baocheng's words and his crying.

.........

Looking at his most beloved child, who had taken his wife away from the capital because of his suspicion and precautions, Kangxi seemed to be back to that day, feeling so heartbroken that he felt suffocated.

His Baocheng left him.

"Baocheng, Ama was wrong."

Kangxi's murmurs dissipated in the stroke.

Liang Jiugong looked at his master who was standing on the city wall, lost in thought, looking into the distance. He picked up the cloak carried by the young eunuch beside him and carefully put it on the emperor.

"Your Majesty, the wind is strong on the city wall, be careful."

"Your Majesty, why don't you go down first? Prince Jin will definitely have a smooth trip."

(Alas~ Family love is really hurtful! I don’t know if you guys can relate to this, but when I was writing this chapter, I cried.

I feel sorry for Ma Baoer. He is a person who stands at the top of power, so for him, power is not enough to make him give up everything. The love between father and son is greater than power. It is precisely because he has received Ma Zi's wholehearted love that this love is very important to him.

He has been trying to awaken his father's love, but has failed.

He has lost his father's love and has been under long-term oppression. Even with the company of his wife and children, Ma Baoer is still a little depressed. Leaving at this time is a relief for him.

The historical Ma Bao'er was surrounded by enemies on all sides, and his situation was even more difficult than Bao Cheng's here. It is conceivable that his mental and emotional state was actually even worse.)