Autistic genius, a flourishing era of scientific research

At such a long distance and isolated from all information about Jiang Yan, he reached a rational balance. In the beginning, he avoided thinking about her, but later he stopped avoiding her and accepted her. Finally, when he thought of Jiang Yan, he would feel extremely calm, as if he was relieved.

Maybe it was just because I was young and hot-headed, and I had never met anyone I liked before, so I couldn't control my feelings at that time.

Time and distance heal everything.

It should be so.

But after learning the news about the scientific research team, Si Ci Zhan could no longer control his thoughts.

They are about to reveal their identities, and this is a special moment.

After thinking about it all day, he decided to care about national affairs.

What's more, Si Ci Zhan also knew that his previous state was just escape. Since he could now think of Jiang Yan and the past with a normal mind, he should try to accept some things about Jiang Yan.

Only when he sees it and remains unmoved can he be said to have truly let go.

It took him four years to get to this point, and now it’s time to work on the next step and move on to the next stage.

There should be no retreat.

After changing into his military uniform, Si Cizhan stood in front of the mirror and buttoned his clothes one by one, all the way to the discipline button on the collar, and then buttoned his cufflinks meticulously.

After tying the belt with strong hands, his fingertips smoothed out the wrinkles on the uniform that shouldn't have existed.

Now is not the time when there were no military ranks. Military uniforms are of uniform style and difficult to distinguish. They can only be distinguished by the number of pockets on the uniforms.

After the restoration of military ranks, military uniforms were also revised. Daily office uniforms became more slim-fitting, outlining a man's broad shoulders and narrow waist, while also carrying the natural ascetic atmosphere of the uniform. Si Cizhan's epaulettes as a commander were slightly different from those of other ordinary officers, and his rank was also relatively high as he held multiple positions.

After changing his clothes, Si Ci Zhan went out to the military store to buy a newspaper. Although he could use a terminal, he was more accustomed to reading paper newspapers at other times.

Moreover, the terminal received information too quickly, so he still needed to walk for a while to prepare himself mentally for receiving news about Jiang Yan again.

He didn't want to fight an unprepared battle.

But just as he went downstairs, he happened to meet Jiang Xiaowen who was returning to the family building.

Jiang Xiaowen lived in the same floor as him, and when he saw him, he said:

"Where are you going? To eat? You're not going to be home to cook for yourself today?"

It is strange to say that Si Cizhan, who used to cook half-cooked dishes, is now a master chef in the army.

Newcomers in the kitchen always come to him to learn two dishes.

"No." Si Cizhan said, his eyes sweeping over the newspaper in Jiang Xiaowen's hand, "The report of the scientific research team? Let me see it."

His tone was very calm, without any clues. The two of them stood on the stairs, one high and one low. Jiang Xiaowen felt an extremely strong sense of oppression from him.

It wasn't that Si Ci Zhan was deliberately suppressing others, but the cold and stern aura around him made people shudder.

Jiang Xiaowen suddenly felt uneasy, thinking something was wrong with him: "You...are you going to hate my sister out of love?"

Seeing that he brought it up on his own initiative, and so many years had passed, Jiang Xiaowen no longer avoided the topic.

"No." Si Cizhan denied his ridiculous guess with just two words. He took the newspaper from Jiang Xiaowen and turned back. "I was planning to go to the store to buy one. Since you bought it, I won't go."

"Okay." Jiang Xiaowen followed him upstairs. "Have you finally come to your senses? That's good."

Si Ci Zhan, who was walking in front, didn't say anything. He was already reading the report about the scientific research team word by word.

Jiang Xiaowen followed Si Cizhan back to Si Cizhan's residence, and then the two went directly to the balcony to get some fresh air. Jiang Xiaowen looked at the sunset and thought about the details of what he had just learned from his second mother Zhao Fangfang through the terminal communication.

He almost thought Yanyan was really going to be with someone...

"Jiang Yan's...lover?" Apparently, Si Ci Zhan had already read the previous content and saw the exaggerated gossip, which was accompanied by a photo, a color photo.

There was surprise and disbelief in his tone, and his breathing became heavier the moment he said this. Jiang Xiaowen knew it was over when he heard Si Cizhan's tone.

"I'm still single. I just asked my stepmother, and she said Yanyan gave that guy named Aierian a month to pursue her."

He turned his head to look at Si Ci Zhan's expression, and strangely, he didn't see anything unusual. However, Si Ci Zhan in his military uniform looked even more solemn and murderous under the setting sun. He exuded coldness, and his tense jaw and thin lips pursed into a straight line gave off a chilling aura.

Jiang Xiaowen cautiously probed: "Have you let it go?"

"It's not love turning into hate, is it?"

"Yeah." Si Cizhan closed the newspaper and replied stiffly in a single syllable, "You go back first, I'll return the newspaper to you tomorrow."

"...Okay." Jiang Xiaowen had to nod. If he let it go, after all, she was someone he once liked, so it would probably take some time to digest.

If you don’t let go, then you’re even more doomed, and it will take more time to let go.

Jiang Xiaowen naturally left obediently, leaving Si Cizhan alone.

After he left, Si Cizhan sat down on the sofa with a newspaper in his hand, staring at Jiang Yan's photo in the newspaper without blinking.

We sat there until late at night.

There was no light in the room, and the figure on the sofa still had his back straight as a statue. It was not a good night, and the wind was blowing outside the window, as if it was going to rain.

He hadn't seen Jiang Yan for a long time.

Let it go?

He should let it go.

But after seeing this report, listening to Jiang Xiaowen's words, and seeing this photo, Si Cizhan couldn't think any further. There was only one sentence and one thought in his mind: Why couldn't it be him?

Since Jiang Yan is also someone who would try to date someone, why can't that person be him?

Seeing the strange lesbian in the photo holding Jiang Yan's hand and preventing them from holding hands, Si Cizhan just felt that she did a good job.

At the same time, his heart ached terribly. Jiang Yan had never taken the initiative to hold his hand, not even once.

Thunder roared across the sky, the balcony door that was not closed was blown open with a crackling sound, and the branches and leaves on the treetops cast hideous shadows in the lightning.

A suppressed voice echoed in the thick darkness, with a slight tremor and breath at the end.

"How much do you like him to allow him to pursue you?"

Jiang Yan rejected his confession that year without mercy.

He didn't stand a chance.

In the face of darkness, all disguises are paper tigers.

Whenever Si Ci Zhan recalled his memories of Jiang Yan in the past, he never dared to think about Jiang Yan's thoughts and actions. He only kept seeing his own appearance in his memory.

In the past, whenever he met a loving couple, Si Cizhan would think briefly about what his future family would be like and what kind of wife he wanted to spend his life with.

Occasionally, he would envy the relationship between his parents and the relationship between some military wives and soldiers.

He doesn't do that now. He hasn't thought much about this since he met Jiang Yan. Jiang Yan was still young at that time, and nothing was made clear. Si Ci Zhan didn't dare to imagine whether he would be with her.

Later, his confession failed and he dared not think about family and marriage anymore. Whenever these were mentioned, he would subconsciously think of his sweetheart.

Later on, he clearly let it go and even felt that being single for the rest of his life didn't matter...

——Anyway, with Jiang Yan’s special situation, she will definitely be single for the rest of her life.

Does that mean that he and she have the same goal in different ways?

Thinking that even if Jiang Yan rejected him, she would not be with anyone else, Si Cizhan felt a very strange sense of security in his heart.

He had never thought of another possibility, nor did he dare to think of it, and could not imagine it.

How could Jiang Yan be with other men? It was simply impossible for her - this was what she said herself.

He never doubted this statement.

Everything was different now, she had someone else around her.

"Jiang Yan...why?"

The pain was vague and continuous. When her figure appeared in his mind and he subconsciously murmured her name, the pain in his chest spread throughout his body in an instant, making cold sweat break out on his back and making every inch of air he breathed turn into a sharp blade piercing his lungs and heart.

Why wasn't he the chosen one?

Si Cizhan's hand holding the newspaper began to tremble uncontrollably, and he kept clenching the newspaper in his hand, unable to suppress it.

He really couldn't imagine how deep and strong the emotions could be that could make Jiang Yan, who had little emotional perception, feel the kind of love that was acceptable, and could directly change Jiang Yan's will and make her make the choice and change of "willing to try".

What would he do if she was with someone else? What could he do?

Is he going to watch Jiang Yan...get married?

"You clearly said you wouldn't fall in love with anyone..."

Si Cizhan got up to turn on the light, then carefully used scissors to cut out Alian from the newspaper.

The corners of his eyes turned red and his gaze was fierce. He chewed these three words between his lips and teeth. He did not forget what he had researched about his father Si Xiao.

After looking at Jiang Yan in the newspaper for a while, Si Ci Zhan finally did not cut out all of Jiang Yan's photos.

He also has a photo of Jiang Yan and himself.

This is the only thing he is reluctant to part with and always carries with him.

Si Cizhan turned around and searched his bookshelf, flipping through each book one by one, but in the end found nothing.

His photo was gone. It was the photo taken at the beginning of the school year when he and Jiang Yan first met.

He clearly treasured it and put it in a book.

But now no matter how he searched through all the boxes and drawers, he couldn't find it.

This was like a hint. Si Ci Zhan couldn't think of anything else at this moment and just wanted to get the lost photos back.

He searched every corner of the house, and his neat military uniform was covered with dust. It was just a photo, but it made the man who was usually calm and unafraid of landslides panic.

After searching the house for the fifth time, Si Cizhan forced himself to calm down and wondered if he had ever touched the photo.

But he could confirm that during these four years, he had suppressed the urge to take it out and have a look at it, just to quench his thirst.

He packed the book very well to prevent the photos from falling out.

It could only have been taken away by someone.

As for that person, it’s easy to guess—Jiang Xiaowen.

He breathed a sigh of relief. Jiang Xiaowen lived in the house next door, and he could go to Jiang Xiaowen and ask for it back immediately.

But Si Cizhan finally chose to clean up the house and then went back to bed.

That night, he tossed and turned until dawn, when he got out of bed and went to work.

-

"The captain is here..."

The person who was still gossiping suddenly reminded others in a low voice, and everyone who was receiving training today instantly quieted down.

It was not yet completely light outside. The man walked towards them in the dim light of dawn in the east, bringing with him the darkness of the early morning and a strong sense of oppression. In the past few days, no one in the Qitian Spear dared to make the slightest mistake.

Si Ci Zhan has become more and more scary in the past two days. He is full of low pressure, and his sharp eyebrows are gloomy and low. Although the tone and expression of his voice seem to have not changed at all, Si Ci Zhan has never been the kind of person who would let his emotions involve them, but the people of Qitian Spear are afraid of him.

Especially after coming down from the battlefield, Si Ci Zhan's awe-inspiring demeanor and noble eyes were faintly filled with a hint of murderous blood.

They completely withdrew from the battlefield last year. Si Cizhan usually kept his aura very restrained. He even often joked and chatted with the team members with Jiang Xiaowen.

But in the past two days, everyone could see that something was wrong with him.

Si Ci Zhan never uses his power to bully others unless it is necessary. Besides, they haven't done much in the past two days, and the newcomers to the Qitian Spear don't dare to show up and act as troublemakers.

Their captain had such a sullen face and a cold and murderous aura that made people feel creepy.

Now, after dinner, they would quietly ask their subordinates who had offended their captain, which made them live in fear every day.

Even if he is not an emotional person, it does not stop them from being afraid of him. Besides, given the current situation, who can say for sure? What if someone accidentally does something wrong and angers the captain?

That would probably be more frightening than an artillery explosion by the troops.

The training tasks of Qitian Spear have been very heavy these days, but not all of them were assigned by Si Ci Zhan.

Instead, the people from Qitian Spear discovered that Si Ci Zhan was frantically training himself in addition to completing his military work. Everyone saw this and hurried to keep up with his pace of training.

The boss is secretly called the God of War Commander in their team, and he trains so hard, they feel very anxious if they can't keep up!

But precisely because of this, more and more people discovered that something was really wrong with their captain. Finally, someone remembered to approach the deputy captain Jiang Xiaowen and asked him about the truth for several days.

"I was rejected by the person I like, and now it seems like that person is going to date someone else." Jiang Xiaowen didn't want to mention this to them, but after observing Si Cizhan for a few days, he was sure that Si Cizhan might not be able to solve the problem on his own.

As long as Si Cizhan can overcome this hurdle, he will no longer be trapped by his feelings for his sister Jiang Yan.

Now everyone in the team is concerned about Si Ci Zhan. Jiang Xiaowen glanced at these people and found that they all had wives. He guessed that those who had experienced this would have more experience.

"I'll give you a task. Persuade your captain to be more open-minded." Jiang Xiaowen said.

Several people looked at each other and took on this task that should have been done by civilian staff, and then went back to discuss it.

But the style of painting they discussed was not what Jiang Xiaowen had imagined, and it was a bit off the track.