Autistic genius, a flourishing era of scientific research

All of this was ruined by a moment of laxity and infatuation, which led to the current situation. Si Cizhan naturally regretted it.

Especially when Jiang Yan's words almost classified his feelings as simple physical desires, his hands hanging by his sides involuntarily clenched while he was explaining, and his throat felt as if someone was strangling it and he couldn't speak.

In the air-conditioned room, his back felt like it was on fire and a layer of cold sweat was oozing out. He had clearly relied on his strong self-control to keep his breathing the same as usual, but the heart in his chest seemed unable to continue beating. The waves of contraction made him almost suffocate, and it was painful and heavy.

Bitterness seeped out from the root of his tongue, but Si Cizhan swallowed it calmly. There was no trace of the instinctive shyness that rose at the moment of mentioning such a private topic as sex. He spoke almost powerlessly:

"Of course, you're not wrong."

If she might respond to his feelings with the same affection, Si Ci Zhan was 100% certain that he would greedily desire to have physical intimacy with Jiang Yan.

"But it could only be because I liked you first and..."

Seeing the slightly puzzled yet calm eyes of the girl sitting at the desk, Si Cizhan stopped trying to explain and tried to gather his emotions that had collapsed in front of her.

After he fell silent, Jiang Yan thought for a moment and brought the topic back to Si Cizhan's original question of whether she "liked" him or not:

"Since you can't give me a standard, then I can only tell you that I don't like you."

Although it was expected, when he heard her say these words, Si Cizhan still felt uncomfortable for a while, then he suppressed his emotions and sadness with an expressionless face and asked:

"If you don't like me, why do you want me to continue to like you?"

"I thought you were going to ignore this matter."

Since her attitude remained the same, he couldn't let his feelings ruin the "friendship" relationship between them.

"If your definition isn't a friend classified as 1, I certainly won't bother with you," Jiang Yan said. "I'll treat you differently based on your classification and definition."

"From what I can judge, there are many people who like me. Anyone who has benefited from Mr. Codename and the scientific research team will like me. I will provide new scientific research momentum for the country, reduce production costs, and improve the quality of life. The vast majority of domestic citizens will also be inclined to like me."

"It can't be a bad thing for me if a friend like you likes me."

"I think you should know as well as I do that in our relationship, the benefits you provide me far exceed the benefits I provide you. You are a person who is good at giving." Jiang Yan clasped her hands on her legs, leaned back in her chair and looked up at Si Cizhan. "So I think you should keep your love for me."

"It's a win-win for me."

"So that's it."

Si Ci Zhan suddenly felt a little ridiculous. Until Jiang Yan said these words, he even had some unrealistic fantasies.

He finally understood Jiang Yan's world better.

He originally thought that Jiang Yan's definition of the people around her was a definition she made based on emotions that she did not understand.

For example, as for friends, she should be guided by a part of friendship that she herself cannot perceive, making her more indulgent and doting on the friends around her.

But now it seems that even if there are those emotions he thought of, the real dominant factor is the attitude given by Jiang Yan based on each person's definition after making the choice.

She may have those small and shallow emotions, but they are probably more of an extension of the inertial pampering after the definition. They may have an impact on her behavior and intentions, but they will never take root in her rules.

Just like when she faced his question, she said without any burden that she wanted Lu Qinghuan to leave her side.

He always fell into his own misunderstanding, thinking that Jiang Yan was just emotionally indifferent, not without feelings, so after weighing the pros and cons, he was more able to let go of feelings. Now he finally understood that she was actually closer to having no feelings for others.

The real reason why she can not deviate too much from the people around her is her rules.

She doesn't have many emotions, but the people around her do. Everyone will remember her kindness, her indulgence and favoritism towards her friends, and the difference in her treatment of ordinary people and her friends.

This makes people more willing to give her more emotions, even though it is only one-sided, but they can also get actual responses from her different definitions and different attitudes.

As for the emotional feedback she could not give, it was no longer important in the face of all practical actions.

When someone favors someone in various aspects of behavior, can anyone deny that this person loves, likes, and cares about the person he or she favors?

No one would doubt it.

The difference between her and ordinary people is that if someone is no longer within the scope of her definition of indulgence, Jiang Yan will give the other person the same treatment without hesitation.

For example, if a person turns from a friend to an enemy, or from a friend to a stranger, she will not hesitate at all.

She will not have the psychological and emotional burdens that ordinary people have.

Because this is the rule of her world, and it is also what she thinks is natural.

After thinking this through, Si Ci Zhan even began to suspect that under certain circumstances, Jiang Yan would be the one to turn around and wield a knife against his "friend" for the benefit he desired.

Thinking this way, he couldn't help but ask this question.

If an ordinary person were to answer this question, he would deny it without hesitation to prove his justice and morality.

But Jiang Yan thought about it before answering him: "If the gain exceeds the cost, I will."

He took a deep breath, and at this moment he no longer cared about his pitiful love that was clearly divided by her interests. His expression became more and more stern, and he couldn't help but try to correct her thinking, "Yan Yan, you can't do this."

"Why?" Jiang Yan asked him back.

Si Cizhan said, "If you do this, have you ever thought that your friends will betray you in the same way?"

"Of course." Jiang Yan nodded. Not everyone is A. "Then they are enemies, not friends."

"But have you ever thought that maybe the friend who became your enemy made such a choice because of your betrayal?" He looked much more anxious than when she said in person that she didn't like him.

"When I choose interests over this friend you're talking about, he's no longer a friend. Since he's an enemy, there's no betrayal. Only when I still choose him and he chooses interests that conflict with mine does it constitute betrayal. In either case, the end result is that a friend becomes an enemy."

She glanced at Si Cizhan and said, "You look very unhappy."

She should be governed by some external rules.

Si Cizhan realized that although she cared about the law and used the law to define good and evil, in her own eyes there was no such thing as good and evil as ordinary people did.

As for moral constraints, they are probably useless.

He hurried over to Jiang Yan and squatted down to wash. There was an unprecedented worry on his face. He said again seriously in the attitude of a persuader:

"Yanyan, it's only natural that you don't like me, and you don't have to like me."

After all, this kind of feeling belongs to him alone.

"However, you should cherish the friends around you and their friendship towards you."

He was giving advice, but he also had his own selfish motives.

"Never let them know what you told me today."

He was very afraid that Jiang Yan would be deserted by everyone one day because of this.

But these words run counter to Si Cizhan's personality. Rather than wanting to say this, it would be better to say that he hopes Jiang Yan is inclined towards justice.

Jiang Yan said: "I will never tell anyone else what I told you."

To be precise, she had told others about it, but the final result did not satisfy her. This would cause the people she needed to stay away from her and isolate her, which was not conducive to her life in society.

This is the experience she gained from practice.

Even when she told Si Cizhan at the beginning, she only gave a general description. After hearing Si Cizhan's suggestion, Jiang Yan's eyes became more thoughtful. Adding to what happened in Country X, she looked at Si Cizhan and asked directly:

"Will you give up your life for me?"

This topic was very jumpy. Si Ci Zhan didn't know why she suddenly asked this question. It reminded him of the moment when he escaped death in Country X.

Si Cizhan’s answer was undoubtedly, he would.

But after looking at Jiang Yan for a moment, Si Cizhan's eyes flashed. He stood up, his tall figure as majestic as a mountain. His voice was firm, his eyes were sharp, and his will was as unshakable as a rock:

"I won't."

"My life can be sacrificed for the country and the people."

He has always been very indulgent of Jiang Yan's requests and ideas, but his intuition at this moment told him that he could not satisfy her on this issue of Jiang Yan.

Jiang Yan thought Si Cizhan would be the second A. After being rejected, she corrected her perception of Si Cizhan and said, "Then you should continue to like me."

Si Cizhan: “…”

She was really good at taking advantage of every opportunity. Realizing that he would not indulge her unconditionally at the cost of his own life, she immediately gave in to the next best option.

From a certain perspective, Jiang Yan, who had no moral standards, could be described as extremely shameless - fortunately, this was something he understood when he first met Jiang Yan.

For example, she accepted gifts and money and profited from others without hesitation or hesitation.

"What about what I said? Did you listen?" Si Cizhan asked, "Promise me that you will cherish your friends and family around you, okay?"

“Don’t give up on them for any benefit. There are many times when the immediate benefit is not worth giving up what you already have.”

"I can't promise you that." Jiang Yan frowned slightly. She rarely frowned during such ordinary conversations. Although her eyes remained calm, showing no trace of emotion, they now revealed such obvious emotion.

Si Cizhan was certain that she felt unhappy or displeased because of what he said.

After all, difficult research rarely made her frown. "You're trying to interfere with my work. When I give up anyone for profit, it's a necessary choice for me."

Her slightly frown returned to normal with these words, and the brief and faint trace of displeasure also completely disappeared with these words.

Her emotions are always short-lived, lasting only a moment or a few seconds.

Si Cizhan certainly couldn't refute Jiang Yan's words about her necessity. He didn't know how to persuade Jiang Yan. He lowered his head and looked at her for a moment. Jiang Yan picked up the enamel cup and drank a sip of water. She asked in a casual tone:

"You can first read the spatial force information I gave you, so that you don't have any misunderstandings when you return to the army."

Si Cizhan took a step back, glanced at the information in his hand, and said, "You have done everything you can do. The rest is what we soldiers should do."

Obviously, he didn't plan to continue this topic with Jiang Yan. He couldn't change her, and in the end, he would probably be the only one trapped in it.

When he reached the door, Si Ci Zhan paused, his hand tightening on the door handle, hesitating whether to open the door.

The two of them were unable to reach a conclusion on the topic of friends and interests, and even though he was helpless, he couldn't just leave like that.

"Jiang Yan, even if you can't understand, I still want to tell you. I really hope that you are no longer alone."

Jiang Yan had just taken out a new notebook and pen from the drawer when she turned her gaze towards the pine-like figure at the door. "I now have a five-person research team. After going to university, Xu Weiran will temporarily withdraw. Lu Ze's whereabouts are currently uncertain. Xia Fei and Li Ming will follow me to the Forty-Nine City. I have accomplished what you wished for."

"It's different." Si Cizhan, who was about to leave, had to turn around and look at her again. "Do you remember what you once said, 'The world is empty'? Even if they follow you, won't your world be as empty as it was before?"

Thinking of what he saw at that time, Jiang Yan's eyes were empty, and Si Cizhan's eyes were filled with visible worry, and a bit of anxiety appeared on his handsome face:

"I don't know how empty your world was back then. Even if I try to put myself in your shoes and imagine, I can't truly empathize with you."

"But every time I think back to that day, I feel very uncomfortable and heartbroken." It was no longer a secret that he liked her, so Si Cizhan spoke with a little more unbridled abandon. He expressed all the emotions he hadn't previously revealed, even if she wouldn't understand. "When I say 'alone,' I mean the state of being alone in a world where the world feels empty. I'm not talking about your scientific research journey, with so many people working with you and supporting you."

Jiang Yan understood what he meant, and this time she was silent for a long time: "Maybe you are suitable to be a doctor."

Because judging from his current behavior, he was more concerned about her condition and wanted to change it than her previous guiding physician.

Seeing the emotions on Si Cizhan's face, Jiang Yan pondered for a moment and determined that it was a precursor to -12 (crying).

Because the circles around his narrow eyes were clearly stained with a hint of red, as if it had been there before, and now it became even deeper as the emotions on his face fluctuated.