Rebirth: Back to before my girlfriend dropped out of school

One day later, I felt so uncomfortable that I had been enduring it for a long time. Finally, I couldn't bear it anymore and went to the hospital for treatment. Then I found out that I was pregnant.

I was so scared that I ran to find him. His hands were shaking with fear too. We both didn't know what to do, but we knew we couldn't let anyone else know.

So I went home. When my mother found out I was pregnant, she was so angry that she wanted to beat me to death. Okay, go ahead and beat me to death. I didn't do it on purpose, and I was willing to be with him, so I didn't want to have an abortion.

When I stopped having morning sickness, I went back to school to see him. He was very evasive and every time he talked to me, he would find a corner where no one was around, as if I was too embarrassed to be seen. If I had been able to see at that time that he was not going to take responsibility, it would have been great. But I was so overwhelmed by love that I was comforted by his words "wait a little longer". So I waited patiently, but in the end, I only waited for the truth that he moved away and disappeared.

I was devastated. I dropped out of school for him and even got pregnant, but in the end I got nothing.

What should I do? I was confused and numbly accepted my mother's arrangements.

Finally, Tong Yongji stood up and said that he was willing to marry me and treat my child as his own.

I saw rumors spreading in the village. Like my mother, I was a person who cared a lot about face. Seeing that my belly could no longer be concealed, I agreed.

He really treated me and my daughter very well as he promised, and I had a very good time at that time.

Although Tong Yongji seems incompetent, he never made me live in poverty. I told myself that this is already a pretty good life, so I should be content!

But good life is always fleeting. Not long after, he started to become suspicious. He always felt that I was cheating on him. Whenever I chatted with other men or even had a little social interaction with them, he would ask me if I didn't want to live with him anymore. I explained countless times that I didn't want to, and I was exhausted.

Later, by chance, I found out that he had actually told others that Xiao Sui wasn't his child. Every time the men in the chess room saw me, they would reveal a disgusting expression of disdain and greed. After that, I never went to the chess room again...

I was very angry about this incident and had a fight with him. He didn't resist and kept apologizing to me, saying that he would never do it again.

It’s just that these things always stop for a while and then start over again.

This makes me very painful.

Later, I was invited to a reunion with my high school classmates. I hesitated for a long time but still went. Actually, I didn’t know many people there, including Li Baicen, the person I loved and hated. But I was already married, and everything that happened before became the past. I didn’t intend to pursue the past.

But he came to me, saying that he owed the child and me. He also said that he was too cowardly at that time and just wanted to run away when something happened. He didn't take responsibility and that he was sorry for me. He said a lot and even said that he would pay child support for so many years.

I was a little moved when I heard this. Some time ago, I heard Tong Yongji say that the chess and card room was not making money and needed money to turn around.

Anyway, he owes me a lot. Tong Yongji has been raising his children, so paying me some money is nothing.

So I agreed to bring my child to see him.

He was indeed very happy, his eyes lit up when he saw the child's face. Finally, he gave me a bank card and said there was 50,000 yuan in it.

This is already a lot, I am very happy and think it is just a pleasant surprise, however, what follows this incident is an endless nightmare.

I don't know how Tong Yongji found out that the happy event I wanted to tell him turned into my own tragedy.

I prayed desperately that Xiao Sui would stop talking and wait for me to explain slowly, but Xiao Sui still spoke without any reservation.

He didn't believe me in the first place, so how could he ask me to explain? That was the first time I was beaten, and it was also at this time that I realized that it wasn't that he couldn't beat me before, but that he just didn't want to fight with me.

It wouldn't have been a big deal, but I had a miscarriage. I was pregnant without my knowledge, and this was our first child. Even after I explained everything, the child was gone.

He knelt down to apologize to me, bought me a bag, bought me beautiful clothes and gave me money to beg for my forgiveness.

I didn't know how to react, I could only numbly accept his kindness and forgive him, but I felt a knot in my heart. It turns out he wasn't short of money...

I don’t know whether it’s right or wrong, but who gets divorced? Everyone goes through this. He has apologized.

He hid a lot of things, but I eventually found out. Why was he so sure I didn't cheat? Because he had someone block Li Baicen, beat him up, and crippled him, only then was he willing to believe what he said.

This is the first time I know he is so scary.

I ran home with Xiao Sui in my arms and told my mother. My mother blamed me for keeping Xiao Sui, saying that who wouldn't be angry if I kept raising a child who wasn't my own.

She didn't agree with my divorce and told me how miserable the lives of divorced people in the village were. All the courage I had finally mustered disappeared. Mom was right. He was rich and capable. Every couple quarrels. It's nothing.

But I was getting more and more frustrated. One day, Xiao Sui broke a cup, and I scolded her and slapped her. This seemed to make me feel a long-lost sense of relief. At first, I didn't dare to bear it, but then I thought, if she hadn't said it, if she wasn't ignorant, would I have hit her? It must be her fault!

Then I actually became happy.

Later I found out that Tong Yongji actually supported me implicitly, so I didn’t hide it anymore, and I found hope in life again.

Another day, Tong Yongji's brother came to look for him, but he was not at home. Who would have thought that the man had such evil intentions that he wanted to attack me. I was so scared that I struggled desperately but couldn't get free. Just when I was desperate, Tong Yongji came back, and he beat the man with red eyes.

That guy begged for mercy, saying that I seduced him? He even said that I gave him hints, which is ridiculous.

Who does he think he is, does he deserve it?

But Tong Yongji believed it, and he beat the man half to death without caring about my embarrassment and fear. He would always bring up this incident, sometimes with scolding, sometimes with beatings.

I am a person with a tough personality. I didn't want to give in and fought with him, but I basically never won. I called him heartless and a waste, and when I was outspoken, I said that if I wasn't pregnant, I would never have looked for him.

So the quarrel escalated.

No one is happy or unhappy on days like this, and the good days at home are gone. Sometimes I always regret it. If I hadn't met Li Baicen, if I had told him in advance, would things have been different? But then I think, it's his suspicious nature that has no ability to have anything to do with me. It's all his fault. How could I have an affair? He's a loser and he even believed such words.

Later, after talking so much, I don't know why I started to have other thoughts. I was so annoyed. He kept arguing about something that was obviously false over and over again. I couldn't accept it, so I really cheated on him. That day, the anger in my heart inexplicably eased a lot, and I experienced the joy of cheating as if it were a revenge.

We must have been discovered afterwards. He beat me and it hurt a lot, but he was reluctant to divorce me and didn't dare to beat me to death. I couldn't die anyway, so what was there to be afraid of? So I became even more unscrupulous.

This child came suddenly. I didn't plan to have another child, but this child came so suddenly.

I wanted to abort the baby while it was still young, but Tong Yongji found out. He had been waiting for this child for more than ten years, so how could he let me have an abortion?

That period was the happiest time we had after our breakup. I hesitated again, thinking what if it was his? Even if it wasn't, no one would know if I didn't say it.

So I felt at ease and assuming that this was Tong Yongji's child, and I even believed it was his.

Until the child was seven months old, one day Tong Yongji asked me with a gloomy face whether the child in my belly was his. Of course I said it was his. He didn't say much at the time, but his love for the child faded. Later I learned that he went for a check-up and the doctor said that he was not suitable for pregnancy.

It is said that it was caused by smoking and drinking. It’s what I deserve. I love drinking, so I am fearless.

Until later he asked more and more questions and became more and more mentally unstable. A month ago, he found my adulterer.

I never saw that man again, and I didn’t know whether he was okay or not, but it didn’t matter, as long as I was okay. But from then on, I knew that this child must be his.

I was praying for my child to be sensible, and I was also thinking about the paternity tests in TV dramas. So I was terrified of the doctor's examination, afraid he'd do a DNA test...

The child was born, and he didn't look much like him. He was also ignorant, and I didn't like him.

Later, later, I might have died, and it was she who protected me. It was really ridiculous. Do I need her protection? I hate her calm face, as dull and hateful as a dead fish. I hate her saintly respect for Tong Yongji, recognizing a thief as her father, disgusting.

I criticized her, hated her, and pushed her away. Only in this way could I be right and live happily...