Crossing the Sauvignon Blanc

"Well, can you tell mom why you like this book?"

"It's not that I like this book, but I like a certain character. He shocked me so much. His name is Xiangliu, a demon beast from ancient times. Although he is a demon, he has divinity. He is really good. Although he was deceived or sold into the death arena since childhood, and lived in a life-and-death struggle of being whipped all day long, he did not resent society after escaping from the cage by his own efforts, and did not kill innocent people. He just lost trust and hid to improve his strength to protect himself. Although he did not trust General Hong Jiang when he helped him during his escape and even hurt General Hong Jiang, he came back to repay his kindness when he had strength. It seems that he would put into action whatever he promised. He is very kind. When I first met Fang Fengbei, he brought I went to see him with the hope of saving him, and even though I found out there was no hope, I still helped Fangfeng Bei fulfill his wish. He has been taking care of Bei's mother for four years, fulfilling his filial piety to Hong Jiang, fulfilling his loyalty to his comrades who had been through life and death with him, and loving Xiaoyao even though we couldn't spend the rest of our lives together. He is so good, too good to be true, but also too silly. I hope he can live well, haha, it seems that I am not much better now. Mom, tell me the truth, how long can I live? I'm not very sad. I have a mom and dad who love me very much, and a brother who dotes on me, grandparents, and friends. I am actually very happy, but there are some regrets. I almost forgot about it. I also hope that one day, I can stand up again, run happily, play to my heart's content, and be in your arms for a long, long time..."

"Mom, promise me not to be sad. Just like Xiangliu, he is actually perfect, and so am I."

Okay, Mo'er, Mom promises you, I won't be sad. Anya smiled faintly at Yan Mo, as if to prove that she would not be sad for her. The usually gentle and quiet mother was unusually lively, laughing happily and standing up, walking to the back of the wheelchair and gently pushing it out of the study. But when Yan Mo couldn't see, Anya looked at Yan Mo silently, the sadness in her eyes was like the sunset at the end of the mountain, when the dark night came, there was only endless darkness.

"Let's go eat barbecue!" Anya suddenly laughed happily. "Why do you want to eat barbecue? Is it because General Xiangliu also likes it? Not only do you like him, but mom likes him too. However, I like your dad more, haha."

Yes, her parents love each other very much, and Yan Mo can always feel the warmth of this family, so her temperament has never changed drastically after she got sick, but she faced it calmly, because she knew that as long as she lived, the warmth of her family would surround her, give her encouragement, and make her happy. She was very lucky and very happy.

A few days later, Yan Mo had just finished his examination when Ms. Anya signaled the doctor to go out for a chat.

"Doctor, how long will Mo'er have..."

Ms. Anya hesitated for a while, but still asked.

"She probably has more than a month left. Her condition is quite complicated. She already has heart disease. If it were a single heart disease, it could be treated, but she also has ALS. Now the muscle atrophy caused by ALS has caused a series of effects that have led to heart failure, which in turn affects alveolar ventilation and causes hypoxia... (This is just random writing, don't believe it) In her final days, let's try to make her live a happy life."

After saying that, he sighed. What a nice girl, only 28 years old, but... He shook his head helplessly, but walked towards the next ward more firmly. Doctors, too much empathy is a taboo...

"There's still a month left," Yan Mo whispered softly behind the door, his thoughts drifting to the distance, where there was an ocean...

Anya was sad. During the ten months of pregnancy, Yan Mo's lively and cheerful childhood, mischievous and naughty appearance seemed like yesterday. She used to be able to run and jump, and even said that when she grew up she wanted to be a martial arts master, flying over eaves and walls, which was the coolest thing in the world. Now, she can only be accompanied by a wheelchair all day long, unable to get angry or feel sad. She has to look calm and indifferent, and has to comfort her family from time to time. Her family dare not show any sadness in front of her, for fear of infecting her and causing her heartache. Anya's calm and smiling face hides her heartbreak.

Yan Mo wasn't sad at all. Although she couldn't travel thousands of miles, she had traveled the world through books. Even recently, she'd always imagined traveling back to the Great Wilderness, where there was someone she wanted to meet. What was it? Was it love, admiration, or love? Was it sadness for him, regret for a love that hadn't been expressed, or the heartache he felt when a thousand arrows pierced his heart? It was all of that!

She was only eighteen years old and had never been in a relationship. Her life was about to begin its countdown. If...if only...

He is really at the age of dreaming. Yan Mo is an atheist, so how could there be such a thing as time travel?

"Mo'er, is there anything you want to do?" Anya gently stroked the back of Yan Mo's hand, reluctant to use even a little force, as if she was afraid it would break at any time.

"Well... I want to celebrate my birthday with my family again. I want to go to the concert of the actor who plays Xiangliu. It seems to be in a week. It just so happens that last time, I want to go to the beach and watch the sunrise and sunset..."

It’s good to end there, I also want to hear you say: There is the sea under your feet

"Okay, I'll listen to your baby. Mom will check the arrangements and call your brother back. Does Mo'er miss his brother?"

"Yes, my brother is very good to me and always makes me happy. I like him very much."

Two days passed in the blink of an eye. Everyone was busy preparing for the birthday party. Everyone looked very happy. Yan Mo was also very happy. She didn't want her departure to bring sadness to anyone. Anya's mother invited many of Yan Mo's friends to come and have fun. Everyone was in a mess and laughing. It seemed that this was really a normal birthday party, not a farewell party.

"Yan Mo, make a wish," Yan Mo's brother said to her gently.

Yan Mo was a little dazed, nodded, well, let's take it as the last birthday wish

(I hope I can see him, even in my dreams)

At night, Yan Mo really dreamed of Xiang Liu. He dreamed that Xiang Liu escaped from the death arena in a panic. She wanted to go forward to help, but found that she could not touch Xiang Liu at all, and Xiang Liu could not see her. She could only watch Xiang Liu's experience from childhood to adulthood helplessly, watching him escape to the extreme north, his white figure blending into the snow, walking alone, Yan Mo just accompanied him silently, and always felt that it would not be so bleak. Later, he dreamed of Jie Fangfeng Bei's filial piety and thoughtfulness, and saw him leading the rebel army to break through the encirclement again and again, hiding in the corner to lick his wounds, and dreamed of the only love disaster in his life, time and time again heartache, time and time again worrying about gains and losses, walking alone into the loneliness of the dark alley, and in the end, thousands of arrows pierced his heart

"No, Xiangliu..."

It turned out to be just a dream, haha, the wish came true.

She seemed to have fallen in love with him. In the last journey of her life, separated by reality and illusion, she wanted to love him.

In the next few days, Yan Mo, accompanied by her family, came to Tan Duoduo's concert. When the theme song of Xiangliu in Chang Xiangsi sounded in the middle of the concert, Tan Duoduo, wearing Xiangliu's clothes, white clothes and white hair, walked out of the darkness against the light. Yan Mo forgot to breathe for a moment and stared at the stage, as if the person she wanted to see was on the stage, so far and yet so close.

At the end of the song, Yan Mo lowered his head slightly. You are not him, but thank you.

May your star journey be bright, and may you live a peaceful and happy life. Goodbye, Tan Duoduo, the actor who plays Xiangliu.