Across Ultra: Half Dream

The author is a newcomer, and I would like to state that I am just writing casually, so please do not use your brain to read the article (the author must say this important thing three times!!!), after all, the author's brain goes crazy from time to time, and this article is also written for myself.

Note: Speak from the heart [ ].

Brain storage...

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"If you can do it, do it. If you can't, let others do it! Get out! Think about it carefully!"

There was a bang. Shi Wan stared blankly at the closed door, a bitter feeling filling her heart. She took a deep breath and tried to maintain a smile, but it looked incredibly awkward. She turned silently and hurried out of the office with heavy steps.

Shi Wan's eyes were empty, as if she had lost her soul. She walked numbly, her colleagues casting sympathetic and anticipatory glances at her, but she ignored them.

Finally, she returned to her seat, sat down slowly, stared at the computer screen quietly, and kept thinking about everything that had just happened in her mind.

She knew very well that no matter how hard she tried, her leader would not be satisfied.

Although this condition has lasted for many years, she still feels extremely tired and weak.

Until now, the endless grievances and helplessness that I cannot suppress in my heart seem to be bound by invisible shackles, just like when I was a child, I can't break free.

Looking back on those long and depressing days, the grievances and helplessness in her heart gradually accumulated, and her mood became increasingly depressed.

She longed for understanding and support, but found that no one around her could understand her pain. She felt suffocated by this kind of life, but she was powerless to change the status quo.

"Ugh……"

……

As night falls, the city lights are brilliant, illuminating the streets and alleys. Each lamp is like a bright star, embellishing this bustling city.

Dragging his tired body, he murmured softly

Finally off work...

After walking out the door, she slowly looked up at the sky. The twinkling stars in the night sky and the lights on the ground reflected each other, forming a beautiful picture.

"The stars at night are as bright as diamonds, but we can only watch them from afar..."

Shi Wan looked at the sky and sighed expressionlessly, as if lamenting the unfairness of fate.

Then, as she walked, she recalled what happened during the day, and her heart ached slightly, as if a knife was slowly stirring in her heart.

"What a failure..." she murmured to herself, with a hint of helplessness and bitterness in her voice.

Looking at this road that I have walked countless times, every step seems so heavy, as if I am carrying a thousand-pound burden.

……

"Finally home, this journey was really long..."

Dragging her tired body, she slowly pushed open the familiar door.

Shi Wan walked to the window, reached out, and gently drew aside the curtains. Instantly, moonlight, as white as ice and snow, streamed into the room like mercury. The cold light seemed to drape the entire space in a mysterious, icy veil.

She sat quietly on the sofa for a while. When she went to the bathroom to wash up, she looked up inadvertently and saw her tired self in the mirror. Her thoughts gradually drifted away.

Thinking back to the time when she was full of dreams and passion, the reality made her feel lost and confused. She couldn't help but ask herself

How did it come to this? Why is my life such a failure? Am I really that useless?

He sighed, forced himself to wash mechanically, trying to wash away the fatigue.

After an eternity, as if time had stopped, she finally emerged from the bathroom. Her hair hung wetly over her shoulders, water dripping down her hair and onto the floor. She shuffled over to the bed and lay down on it, curling up like a wounded kitten.

I picked up the phone beside my pillow, tapped the screen, and gently swiped my finger across it, opening the TikTok app. His eyes were empty and lost, as if he had lost his soul, just mechanically flipping through the videos without any expression or reaction.

Suddenly, she saw a video that had been forgotten for a long time. She muttered to herself while watching the video.

"Ah, if only it were true..."

"But... how is that possible? Let's forget about it... anyone could be, but it can't be me..."

Although he claimed to have no hope, his eyes betrayed an indescribable longing. Those glittering eyes seemed to hold countless stars, a hope impossible to ignore. This contradictory behavior made her sneer when she realized it.

[Let's just forget about it. What's the point...?]

[Redemption does not exist. Even if it does exist, it will not be seen...]

[It will just be despised as always, rotting in the dirt, rotting and stinking...]

[…It’s okay. It’s not like this all these years have passed…]

Shi Wan tried to suppress the sharp pain in her heart and pretended to be calm while saying "I'm fine", but her voice was obviously trembling.

However, no matter how hard she tried to hide her emotions, tears still flowed from the corners of her eyes like a flood that broke through the dam and could not be stopped.

After a long time, the crying gradually subsided, and waves of fatigue surged into her heart, causing her to fall asleep slowly with tears in her eyes.

……

Ding-ling, ding-ling… Ding-ling, ding-ling…

Amid the barrage of alarm clocks, Shi Wan finally opened his tired eyes, but his mind was still in a mess.

After a long while, he finally came to his senses when he saw the time on his phone and let out an eardrum-piercing scream, "Ahhh!!! It's already 7:50!!!"

She quickly pulled herself up from her powerless body, washed and changed her clothes in a flurry of activity, and rushed to the door, muttering, "This is over! I'm going to be late, and I'm going to be blasted by Cao Baopi again!"

Shi Wan immediately ran all the way to the subway station, but was squeezed down the stairs in the crowded crowd. With her screams, everyone reacted.

The scene before him was unbearable to watch. Shi Wan had been trampled into a state of disarray. Her clothes were tattered, once pristine white now stained with dust and blood, appearing exceedingly filthy. Her hair lay disheveled across her face, unable to conceal her pale, pained expression.

Large amounts of blood continued to spit out from the corners of her mouth, staining her chin and neck, forming a shocking red mark. Her eyes were filled with despair and helplessness, as if she had lost all life and hope. Every breath she took was heavy, as if her body could no longer withstand such torture.

The crowd around her watched all this with noisy and worried expressions. In her final moments, everyone seemed to reach out to help her. But the fear and pity revealed in their gazes were like sharp daggers, piercing Shi Wan's heart and causing her to die in reluctance and pain.

……

In the pitch-black and unknown space, Shi Wan became a ball of light, floating around in a daze, but she seemed to have no consciousness at all.

Suddenly, a purple light appeared in the dark space, and after a wave of distorted space, it sucked her in.

After an unknown amount of time, Shi Wan finally woke up. Seeing the brilliant starry sky before his eyes, his head was buzzing and he murmured:

"Where is this? Am I dead? Why am I here?"

"Hey, with my lousy luck, can I still catch up with the time travel wave? Or am I not dead?"

"That's not right, what's going on?"

"Stop it! I haven't lived long enough! Are there any humans? Are there any ghosts? Are there any gods?"

"Did I really travel through time? Then do I have a system?"

"Hello? Hello! Hello? Hello! System, where are you? If you are there, could you please let me know?"

I don't know how long Shi Wan shouted, but no one or any living being responded. She gradually collapsed.

"Am I destined to be abandoned? Destined to not be loved? Ha, ha, ha, ha, haha ​​...

"Why? Why! Why!! Is my entire life worthless?! Destined to be filled with despair?! What did I do wrong?!"

"ah!!!!!!!"……

After the collapse, Shi Wan gradually calmed down, but her body continued to tremble uncontrollably. She slowly raised her head, her eyes empty and dull, as if she had lost all her life.

An aura of despair and darkness permeated Shi Wan's surroundings, enveloping her tightly. She felt an indescribable heaviness pressing down on her heart, making it nearly impossible to breathe. Every breath became difficult, as if she needed to exhaust all her strength.

Shi Wan was acutely aware that something was amiss, yet she felt powerless. The pain within her surged like a surging tide, constantly battering her mental defenses. She struggled, trying to shake off the despair, but it was all in vain. Like a bird trapped in darkness, desperately flapping its wings to escape, it could never find a way out. The atmosphere of despair and darkness grew thicker, like an invisible net, tightly binding her.

Gradually, Shi Wan gave up and chose to forget about it temporarily. He began to float aimlessly, thinking that he would go wherever he could. After all, he was already dead, so what accidents could happen?

But accidents always happen before one expects. Just as he was thinking, he was suddenly sucked away by a distortion of time and space and fainted.

……

Shi Wan woke up in a long-lost warmth.

……

This is the author's first time writing, so it's a bit messy. Please bear with me. If there are any problems, please point them out (although I won't listen, hahahaha, just kidding~). Thank you everyone~