Dr. Su, let's have a love affair

The suicide note that Ji Xingyuan left for Su Xiaoxiao was also a love letter, which he wrote in his own handwriting when he was 72 years old.

Su Xiaoxiao took the suicide note out of the envelope with trembling hands and read it word by word with tears in her eyes.

My dearest wife:

When I wrote this, I was already 72 years old, a gray-haired old man. But in my eyes, you are still so young, beautiful and lovely.

I don't know when I will leave this world, or how I will leave. When I leave, will you be by my side?

I'm afraid that I will regret it, and I'm also afraid that you will regret it.

So, although I am still healthy at the moment, I still decided to write this suicide note in advance to add a touch of perfection to our future separation.

Wife, please don’t be too sad about our future separation, because I will be very heartbroken.

We have been married for forty-four years, and every day of these forty-four years, I deeply feel that I am the happiest and luckiest man in the world.

And this is because my wife is you, Su Xiaoxiao, the woman I love most in my life.

Wife, you are the person I have ever met in this world, who is full of the purest passion for career and life.

Your pure love makes you always shine with charming light and attracts me all my life.

Throughout my life, I have witnessed you treating countless patients and saving countless families on the verge of ruin with your kindness, passion and faith in medicine.

My husband believes that you will be blessed with great fortune in this life.

My husband is five years older than you. I have a feeling that I will be ahead of you in the future. And after I am gone, you will probably have a long life ahead of you.

So, wife, if I really walk in front of you, please don't stay with me all the time.

I only need you to stay with me for one year, to watch me through the cycle of spring, summer, autumn and winter. If it's too long, I will feel that I am too selfish, and I will feel bad that you are too lonely without anyone around.

I have lived for 72 years. No matter when I die, my life will be extremely worthwhile and I will die of old age.

The only thing I miss is you.

I know, and I believe you know too, that there is someone who loves you as deeply as I do in this life, and there is also Gu Jingzhou. He has been single for decades because of you and has given you birthday gifts for decades.

In fact, I have always admired his purity and persistence in love.

Because there are really not many people like him in this world.

So, my wife, if he is still alive after I am gone and still insists on sending you a birthday present, please don’t worry about my opinion or the opinions of others. Just give him a chance and give yourself a chance too.

You guys should be together generously.

I believe that it will not be too difficult for you to fall in love with him again and be in love with him, because you don’t like to linger on the past and like to look forward.

Your husband hopes that you can always maintain this free and easy attitude towards life.

No matter how old you are, you can keep moving forward and never dwell on the past sadly. This is the you that your husband appreciates and wants to see.

We once agreed to be husband and wife in the next life.

But now, my mind has changed.

I hope that we can meet again in the next life, but whether we can be lucky enough to be husband and wife depends on my luck and Gu Jingzhou's luck.

He and I will never think of owning you for nothing in our next life.

Let’s see who loves more, depending on fate.

Therefore, my wife does not have to feel embarrassed for anyone in this life, and she does not have to feel embarrassed for anyone in the next life.

You only need to live the life you want according to your own wishes and love the people you want to love.

I will feel at ease.

Wife, finally I want to tell you that your husband really loves you very much. I hope that you can be happy and live a long life even when I am not around in the future.

Kiss you, my beloved wife.

——A Yuan who will always love you deeply.

Six years ago, Ji Xingyuan had foreseen the ending of his and Su Xiaoxiao's lives, and he had considered her future so carefully.

I have always loved her deeply, but I no longer want to possess her forever like I did when I was young.

Rather than possessing her, what he hoped more was that she could live a happy life no matter who she was with.

He truly lived his life with great clarity and openness.

Su Xiaoxiao deeply feels that her life has been truly worthwhile because she has been married to such an affectionate and visionary man for fifty years.

She didn't let herself dwell on the grief of losing her husband for too long.

Because as Ji Xingyuan said in his suicide note, he died of old age, so she shouldn't be too sad for him and let him worry about her in heaven.

After finishing his funeral with her children and adjusting for half a month, she resumed her work schedule of working half a day at the hospital every weekday.

With no loved one to accompany her and her children and grandchildren all grown up, she just wants to devote more time to treating patients.

This is a greater value in her life than love and family.

She just wants to continue to be a competent doctor while she still has the energy to realize this value, without wasting the rest of her life.

After Ji Xingyuan left, Gu Jingzhou did not rush to disturb her.

It was just that on her birthday in the summer, someone sent the same birthday gift to the hospital.

However, a year after Ji Xingyuan left, he saw that the two of them still had no contact with each other.

Ji Niannian and Gu Buwang began to feel that the emperor was not anxious, but the eunuchs were.

Especially Ji Niannian, the whole family read the suicide note her father wrote to her mother, and the whole family also knew about the past between her father-in-law and her mother.

She had the same idea as her father, and also hoped that her mother and father-in-law could be together in their later years and have each other's company.

As a daughter, she will have more opportunities to honor her mother and enjoy family happiness in the future.

However, neither of the two parties was in a hurry, and as a junior, it was not convenient for her to urge them openly.

Therefore, I could only work with Gu Buwang to find more excuses to invite my mother home for dinner more often and help her take care of the children.

Create more opportunities for the two of them to see each other and spend time together.

Su Xiaoxiao and Gu Jingzhou naturally understood the children's intentions.

However, they both had a tacit understanding. It had been three years since Ji Xingyuan's death, but the two had never broken the window paper.

Gu Jingzhou knew that although Ji Xingyuan said in his suicide note that it was enough for Su Xiaoxiao to stay with him for one year.

But he understood the relationship between them, and he knew that no matter how free and easy Su Xiaoxiao was, it was impossible for her to stay with Ji Xingyuan for just one year.

He wanted to give her more time to reminisce about her past with Ji Xingyuan.

He also wanted Su Xiaoxiao to really think it over and whether she was truly willing to accompany him for the few remaining years of her life. If she hadn't made up her mind, he would never force her in this life.

He was willing to continue loving her and caring for her silently in his own way until he left this world.