The Great Doctor Girl

My husband Huang Junze's cell phone kept ringing. The rapid ringtone was like a sharp sword, instantly piercing the originally peaceful and beautiful atmosphere.

I knew in my heart that it must be his white moonlight Su Jingyan calling.

My heart suddenly felt like an invisible and powerful hand was grabbing it tightly, making it almost impossible for me to breathe.

"Why does she always call at this time? Can't she just let us go?" The voice in my heart was filled with anger and helplessness.

"What is she doing? Is she just trying to break us up?" Another voice was trying to find an excuse for Su Jingyan.

"Or is there some unknown secret hidden behind her?" I was in an endless struggle.

At this time, Huang Junze looked at me, his eyes full of hesitation and entanglement.

That gaze seemed like a bottomless lake, hiding countless unspeakable emotions.

I stared at him intently, trying to convey my inner anxiety and desire to him through my eyes.

Huang Junze listened to the incessant ringing of the phone, and his body unconsciously tightened slightly. I could clearly feel his inner hesitation and entanglement.

My heart sank instantly, as if it was being tightly grasped by an invisible and cold hand and was being pulled down continuously.

"Junze, don't answer it." I said almost pleadingly, with an uncontrollable trembling in my voice.

I was extremely afraid that this phone call would break the tranquility and beauty of our moment, and that he would leave me again and return to that white moonlight.

Huang Junze looked at me, and a trace of extremely complex emotions flashed in his eyes, including heartache, guilt, and struggle.

He thought to himself, "She's so vulnerable right now, how can I bear to hurt her? But Jingyan..."

In the end, he didn't answer the phone, but gently held me in his arms, trying to comfort me with his warmth and strength.

His embrace was firm and warm, like my safe haven in this storm.

He knew very well that as long as he was by my side and as long as we held hands tightly, my energy would gradually recover and my body would get better as soon as possible.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here." His voice was low and gentle, as if he was making an extremely solemn promise.

I couldn't help but burst into tears. This was the comfort and support I had longed for.

We just hugged each other quietly, feeling each other's heartbeat and warmth.

However, I am afraid that I will become addicted to it.

Recalling the wedding, Huang Junze said to me indifferently: "No matter how you scheme, I will never fall in love with you."

That sentence deeply warned me not to fall in love with Huang Junze.

Time seemed to stand still at this moment, and it seemed as if there were only the two of us left in the whole world.

However, my heart could never be truly at peace. That missed call was like a time bomb that could explode at any time, potentially triggering the conflict and pain between us again.

"Junze, if one day you have to choose between me and her, what will you choose?" I finally couldn't help but ask this question that has been bothering me.

I already knew the answer in my heart, and this question was too cruel, but I still desperately wanted to know his answer.

Huang Junze was silent for a long time, and his heart was like a storm.

The surging thoughts seemed to swallow him up, making him unable to answer.

He knew very well that this choice was extremely difficult. On one side was his unforgettable first love, which was the most brilliant and dazzling memory of his youth.

On the other side is me, the legal wife.

He murmured to himself, "How could I make such a choice so easily? They both have a special and irreplaceable place in my heart."

Finally, he stroked my hair gently and said slowly: "I don't want to make this choice. You mean different things to me."

My heart ached again. This answer was obviously not what I wanted.

How I wish he would choose me and only me without hesitation.

But I knew in my heart that was impossible.

"But, Junze, love cannot be shared with others." I tried to make him understand my deep feelings.

At this time, the phone rang again.

The persistent ringing seemed to be mocking me cruelly, mocking the fragile and short-lived happiness that I longed for in my heart.

I closed my eyes tightly, pretending that I saw nothing and knew nothing.

"Answer it, maybe she really has something urgent to do." I tried to make my voice sound calm, but my heart was shaking.

Huang Junze picked up his phone and slowly walked to the side.

I couldn't hear what he was saying, but I could feel that his tone was extremely gentle, and that gentle tone was like a knife, piercing my heart.

"He still cares about her, right? Then what am I to him?" The voice in my heart was full of pain and despair, as if I had fallen into an endless dark abyss.

After a while, Huang Junze came back with an apologetic look on his face.

That apologetic look was like a scar, engraved on my heart.

My heart sank to the bottom in an instant, as if I had fallen into a bottomless dark abyss.

"I'm sorry, she needs me for something urgent, and I have to go and take care of it." Huang Junze said, his tone full of helplessness.

I tried my best to hold back my tears. Disappointment instantly flooded my soul like a tide. He was leaving me again.

"Junze, can't you stay for me?" I begged again.

Huang Junze looked at me, his eyes full of helplessness and pain.

He secretly groaned in his heart. On one side was Su Jingyan, whom he once loved deeply but whose life was now hanging by a thread. On the other side was me, who had already entered his life and whose fate had already tied us tightly together.

He knew very well that Su Jingyan's condition had reached a critical stage, and every call could be her last signal for help.

But looking at my eyes full of expectation and fear, his heart seemed to be torn in two.

He recalled the good old days with Su Jingyan, the solemn vows they made in their youth, and the inner demon of unrequited love that had always bound him, and now all of them had turned into indelible memories in his heart.

They once walked the paths of the campus together, sharing each other's dreams and secrets.

At that time, Su Jingyan was beautiful, pure and kind...

However, during the time he was with me, he also tried to accept me sincerely and tried to fall in love with me.

When we were cooking together, he would watch me smile absentmindedly.

When we were watching a movie together, he would quietly hold my hand in the dark.

When we finally began to enter each other's hearts and prepare to welcome a new life, Su Jingyan appeared like a miracle, and that short and beautiful life came to an abrupt end.

In his heart, I seemed to have become a scheming woman.

He kept asking himself, "What choice should I make? Should I go back to the past and be with my first love who is about to fade away, or should I stay in the present and protect this woman who finally came into my life?"

He felt extremely conflicted and painful, as if he was in an unsolvable maze with no exit.

"Luo Shu, your condition is stable now. She doesn't have much time left, and she really needs me at this time." He said, with deep helplessness and pain in his voice.

After saying that, he kissed my forehead gently, which was rare for him, then turned around and left resolutely.

The departing figure was so resolute, as if it had taken away all the light in my world.

"What an ironic scene!" I looked at his receding back helplessly and let out a heavy sigh to myself.

I don’t know when he will come back, and I don’t know how long this entangled life will last?

Although I have never expected to have pure love, how can I really turn a blind eye when I am in such a relationship?

No matter how powerful I am, I am still a mortal with flesh and blood, emotions and desires.

"Why is it always like this? Why does she always take away my happiness? What kind of grudge did we have between us?" The voice in my heart was full of resentment and anger.

"Perhaps this is fate's arrangement. Fate has forcibly bound us together, but reality has also placed numerous obstacles, making it difficult for us to truly stay together."

However, another voice was advising me to give up and compromise.

"No, I never believe in fate. I will fight this damn fate to the end." My heart is filled with determination and fearless courage.

However, there are some things that you cannot change no matter how hard you try.

As the night deepened, I lay in bed, looking at the ceiling, my thoughts in a mess.

The moonlight shines through the window onto the ground, like a layer of silver frost, but it cannot illuminate the darkness in my heart.

I opened the diary that I had hidden under the desk drawer.

Silently record my life:

April 5th, sunny

Today is the twentieth day of our marriage.

It is really sad to say that the most intimate contact between my husband and I was just holding hands, and it was forced. We did it so far-fetched just to gain energy to save people.

I used to think I didn’t care whether he loved me or not, but now I realize how torturous this situation is.

He once said so decisively that no matter how I schemed, he would never fall in love with me.

Forget it, I don’t need his pity or charity, as long as I can stay alive.

Let him be, I really don't want to worry about it anymore.