Winter Blazing Wild

Behind the words of "self-deception", is it self-consolation or to cover up the inner loneliness?

Through Zhou Shenye's still faint smile, Yu Tang saw the deep sadness in him.

She felt a little upset.

"Come on, do you want me to take you for another spin?" Zhou Shenye shook the keys, interrupting Yu Tang's thoughts. "Or, should I give you the keys and let's go for another exciting car race?"

Yu Tang, "Today I want you to give me your opinion on the trial venue. I can't affect you. Go ahead. I'll wait for you here."

Before leaving, Zhou Shenye looked at her and repeated his last words, "Wait for me here."

This was not the first time Yu Tang saw Zhou Shenye on the track, but today was the first time he saw him without any competition pressure at all.

The afternoon sun poured down on the winding track like molten gold, coating every speck of dust with a dazzling glow.

Zhou Shenye stood at the starting point of the track with the racing car he was most familiar with, as brilliant and dazzling as every time he wrote his glory.

There is Zhou Shenye’s exclusive logo on the body of the racing car, a black and red flame, flashing a dangerous and charming luster in the sun.

Even from a long distance, one could still see Zhou Shenye in the driver's seat with eyes as sharp as an eagle, scanning every inch of the road he was about to conquer, but his heart was calm and peaceful.

As the starting lights suddenly went out, the car drove onto the runway. The slightly desolate scenery along the way passed by quickly like a movie film. Yu Tang watched quietly. At that moment, the world seemed to stand still, leaving only the symphony of heartbeats and engine roars.

Zhou Shenye was very focused, all his attention was concentrated on the track ahead. Every bend and every ups and downs were under his control.

After driving into the cliff and turning, the car disappeared from sight briefly.

It was not until three minutes later that the lights on the front of the car flashed again, and Zhou Shenye came back and entered the last turn of the track.

He stepped on the brake lightly, and the car body slid almost close to the ground. The friction sound of the tires and the ground seemed to tear the air apart. Then he accelerated suddenly. The car seemed to be lifted by an invisible force, and it passed the curve gracefully. He accelerated again and rushed across the finish line.

They moved together smoothly and seamlessly, and Yu Tang's heart rose to the clouds, and then was thrown down heavily. Just by watching Zhou Shenye's performance, he could feel the shock and joy. At that moment, Yu Tang seemed to understand where Zhou Shenye's persistence and love for this sport came from.

It is not a dream or a career, it is just an outlet for myself to vent.

She really didn't understand him. His life was complicated and intense. She could only get to know him and get closer to him little by little through slow and close contact.

But this is far from enough, too slow, and too superficial.

The moment Yu Tang was distracted, Zhou Shenye got out of the car and walked in front of her.

"The track is in good condition. It's a little short, so it doesn't meet competition requirements, but it's adequate for training. There's a section of the road at the top that needs to be renovated, but that's not a big deal. Overall, it's suitable."

Yu Tang came back to his senses. "Then I'll notify the construction team and have the captain discuss it with the club. We'll have the renovations completed as soon as possible. From now on, this track will belong to you."

Strangely, Zhou Shenye didn't say any nonsense like "thank you" or "I will pledge myself to you" today, and was surprisingly quiet.

He just took off his gloves, took Yu Tang's hand and walked to the sidelines to sit down.

The long legs that had nowhere to go stretched out and his eyes looked into the distance.

On the runway, the dust just kicked up by the wheels was still floating in the air, making it look even more desolate.

Zhou Shenye stared at a point in the distance with a blurred gaze, saying nothing.

Although Yu Tang was curious, he didn't ask and just sat with him.

It was so quiet around them that they could almost hear each other's heartbeats.

Until Zhou Shenye spoke in a deep voice, "Before I became a formal racing driver, I almost died on the track many times."

There are many people who want to "silence" him, and the most serious one is called "inner demon".

Yu Tang didn't respond, but just covered his hand on his knee.

Tell him that she is a good listener at this moment.

"I had no intention of becoming a racing driver. My adoptive father discovered my talent for driving and took me to watch many racing competitions when I was very young. He also wanted to train me in this direction, but I was ignorant at the time and just loved the thrill of living in the face of death."

He used four words to accurately summarize his psychological activities - determined to die.

After saying that, he laughed softly.

This is a smile mixed with blood and tears.

Yu Tang felt a dull pain in his heart. "At least your adoptive father is truly kind to you. You are not alone."

This was the first time the two of them had a clear conversation about Zhou Shenye's life experience.

Yu Tang wasn't sure if he wanted to talk about it, so she started the conversation, but she didn't ask any further questions.

Zhou Shenye shook his head. "He's very good to me, but there's no such thing as selfless giving in this world. Any 'good' needs to be repaid many times over. If that's the case, then I'd rather not have it."

He sighed softly and said, "It would be more pleasant if I died at the door of the orphanage."

"Don't say such depressing words!"

Yu Tang interrupted him angrily.

"If you had died at the gate of the orphanage, there wouldn't be 'us' now. Wouldn't you regret not being able to meet me?"

Zhou Shenye didn't expect her to say that. He turned his head to look at her, and his eyebrows moved slightly.

"Do you think it's a good thing that you met me?" he asked.

"meeting."

Yu Tang's eyes were firm and his answer was straightforward.

After saying that, he added, "I'm very happy since I met you."

It was a true story, an exciting and dangerous life, something she had never experienced before.

The worries are real, and the happiness is real too.

Zhou Shenye stared into Yu Tang's eyes. After confirming that her expression was genuine, he finally relaxed and smiled. "You've been so good to me. How can I repay you?"

He started talking nonsense again.

Yu Tang responded seriously, "You just need to take good care of yourself and don't let me lose you."

Zhou Shenye's eyes trembled heavily, his emotions surging, and he stayed in the clouds for a long time before slowly settling down.

He pulled out a box from somewhere and handed it to Yu Tang. "Here, I've been carrying it for several days. Now I finally have the chance to give it to you. Consider it a thank you for giving me a training ground."

Yu Tang didn't know what it was. After taking it and seeing the logo on the box, he was surprised and said, "Regin's perfume? How do you have this?"

Zhou Shenye raised his chin slightly with a hint of pride. "This Regin once pursued a friend of mine. It wasn't difficult for him to get a bottle of new perfume from her. Coincidentally, this friend returned to China a while ago. I thought you might need it, so I asked him to bring it back."

He said "need" instead of "like", because once she got the bottle of perfume, Yu Tang could analyze their perfume-making ideas, which was a good learning experience for her.

"Wow, I didn't realize you had such an awesome friend." Yu Tang joked.

"Yes, this friend and I are really the same type of people. Two great perfumers fell in love with us."